Disclaimer: I don't own jack S***, throwing a lawsuit at me would be a waste 
of my time, your time, and whomever the poor lawyer is that got suckered 
into putting the lawsuit together.  If I made money off my fics I'd be 
driving something nice, not an 89 Plymouth grand voyager..... *twitch*


I sometimes wonder why it is that my brother worries so much about me.  Its 
not as if I'm able to die really, and my armor body is far less fragile than 
his, even with his automail limbs.  But I suppose it is something that big 
brothers do.

As it stands my brother is both loved and hated by the people of the various 
places that we go to.  Loved by the common people that we go to help, and 
hated by those who's plans we upset by making things right again.  Brother 
doesn't know it, but I've stopped many attempts on his life.  While he 
sleeps, I watch him.  While I question the aspects of life, and the people 
who live it in so many different ways, I am also the first to note that my 
brother, while he has his problems, is a good person, and for that the 
people who look at him and see a reflection of who they really are, hate 
him.

I know that he hasn't given up on his quest to get me my body back.  And I 
know that its what he thinks about when he's not fooling the people who have 
been oppressing the people he's been sent to protect.  I also know that 
while Colonel Mustang irritates him, big brother doesn't really hate him, at 
least not yet.

Yet I can't seem to understand why he keeps running away from his feelings. 
Pain he can deal with, hurt he just buries, but love is something I have yet 
to see him take on.  Sure, he loves me as any brother would.  But if he even 
begins to feel something for a girl he's on the first train out of the area. 
He says its duty.  He can't let himself get tied down with a girl because he 
hasn't finished his promise to me, or his duty to the military now that he's 
a state alchemist.  I'm not entirely certain what it all means, but I do 
know this, Edward Elric, the Full Metal Alchemist, my big brother can handle 
just about anything thrown at him.

Maybe sometime in the future, I can become a state alchemist too.  I know 
that brother doesn't like the idea because it means that eventually we would 
be split up by duty, but if I had my old body back, I know that I could help 
people the way he does.  He says that I help people as it is, that as a 
civilian I'm able to do things that a person associated with the military 
can't.  I suppose its true to a degree.

There are towns that don't know about my brother, but absolutely hate the 
military.  I'm usually the one that is the biggest help to him because I am 
able to help protect the people until he can prove that he is really on 
their side.  I don't get to do a lot of alchemy, but I guess its for the 
best.

I sometimes wonder about the future.  What it holds for us and what it means 
for my brother to be known as he is.  Perhaps someday I'll be able to find 
out.

-Alphonse Elric


"We the unwilling, led by the unknowing, are doing the impossible, for the 
ungrateful. We have done so much, for so long, with so little, we are now 
qualified to do anything with nothing!" 

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