Subject: [FFML] [Ranma][NGE][HPL][AMG][Fusion][Fanfic] Sic Semper Morituri Chapter 51 - Familial Relations Part 1 of 2
From: "Daniel Jess Gibson" <dan_s.comments@worldnet.att.net>
Date: 3/20/2006, 2:50 PM
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[Ranma][NGE][HPL][AMG][Fusion][Fanfic] Sic Semper Morituri Chapter 51 - 
Familial Relations

I'd like to thank Pat Hennessy for her assistance in checking out standard 
education of the time.


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What has gone before:
     About Book 11 of the Tankoubon Manga, Akane and Soun Tendo throw Ranma 
out of the house.  Nabiki, in the guise of a wish, follows him.  They meet 
EVA pilots Shinji Ikari, Rei Ayanami, Asuka Soryu Langley and Jeffrey Davis.
     Ranma begins teaching the others the insult techniques that are part of 
his art.  He also senses Asuka's growing injuries, cause by ignoring her own 
limitations and trying to keep up with him.  He disobeys her demand, and 
heals her injuries.  She accuses him of using his Code of Honor to justify 
any action he cares to take.  Ranma attempts to discover a way make things 
right, while Rei tests methods of returning Asuka to normal.
     The Azores group discovers the Great Old One, the creature awakens and 
the battlegroup is surrounded by clouds and all the pilots are plunged into 
a dream.  Jeff and Nabiki awaken and return Cthylla to her temple.
     Anna Alise and an American Alpine troop encounter three EVAs in 
Switzerland, Anna captures one EVA and is ejected by remote.
     The Bennington arrives in Boston, while Jeff, Maya, Nabiki and Ritsuko 
are having dinner, Major ggreg fights and escaped from something.  Ritsuko 
finds out the truth about the project that created Jeff and Sharon, as well 
as others, and about Jeff's history in particular.  Sharon Lauren kills 
Sgt.Malkowitz, then rescues Nabiki from an angry crowd, before revealing 
their `shadowless` existence.  Nabiki confronts Belldandy about it, 
Belldandy has no explanation.  She confronts Jeff, kills Belldandy, then 
Jeff detonates his prepared bomb.  Belldandy returns from her murder by 
Sharon with a scream, while Keiichi comforts her.  Jeff gives Sharon a last 
chance, then absorbs her and falls into a coma.  Ritsuko, Maya and Nabiki 
arrive at the blast site and investigate, they find Jeff, but not Sharon.
     Ranma, Asuka and Rei awaken, Shinji remains unconscious.  Rei has a 
tantrum in reaction to the mission she sent Shinji on.  Ranma wonders why 
he's locked himself in female form.  Asuka and Ranma take Rei home with 
them.  Asuka and Ranma discuss the odd dreams they had.
     Rei's and Ranma's cults assault the last of the Children of Nyogtha. 
Another group of Jeff's cultists capture Urd and threaten her with an Angel 
Eater, and the knowledge she can't defend against them.  The Russian cult of 
the 'Gray Lady' assault a cult and Children of Nyogtha, then celebrate their 
victory.  The GRU man recruits several of them for an upcoming operation.
     Ranma confronts Asuka over the events of August 1945, Asuka physically 
attacks Ranma while Rei prevents the guards from intervening.  Then Rei 
began telling jokes until Asuka laughed.
     Shinji destroys the Mi-Go's moonbase, but cannot see them and isn't 
affected by their counterattacks.  He releases many of the minds in their 
containers.  On Yuggoth, he meets with Jeff and Sharon, getting some 
insights into the real nature of the pilots.
     Keiichi delivers the bicycles, Ranma and Rei begin learning to ride 
them.  Admiral Simson accompanies Asuka, Ranma and Rei on a field exercise. 
Asuka lays out her plans and leads the EVAs' attack.  Ranma develops a new 
`wire-guided` version of his AT-field-ball attack, he discovers the Ranma 
and Ranko are subtly different in this regard.  Also Rei, Asuka and Ranma 
analyze it completely.  Simson learns that two people in a plug begin acting 
like each other for a while.
     The troops of the Bennington, who will accompany NERV forces to U.S.S. 
Boxer, give `Brown Bess` a flint to put between her teeth.
     The cultists attempt another incursion into Nabiki's dreams.  They are 
repulsed by the rattlepated scenario the Scholarly Dragon sets up.
     Ranma's `other` torments and terrorizes the Scholarly Dragon, while he 
and the Red Dragons are moving into Leng.
     Ranma begins developing individual arts for each pilot to incorporate 
their natural inclinations, strengths and weaknesses.
     The Scholarly Dragon and Jeff are thrown out of the Council of 
Dragonmages for their plans to teach Nabiki.
     Toji has a nightmare just before the school day begins.  Rei 
investigates the school, diagrams the security aspects.  Misato is pardoned, 
ending the Senator's inquiry.
     Nabiki infiltrates Jeff's dreams, first she is defeated by the Urchin 
and the Monolith, then she sees Jeff becoming a Master mage, she goes deeper 
into his past to learn the breakthrough that enabled him to achieve Master. 
Lastly Nabiki and Ritsuko relive and are traumatized by the murder of 
Ritsuko-Nabiki and Jeff's massacre of the Phoenixi.
      Several of the students are revealed.  The initial meeting between the 
pilots and Usagi's group does not go as Usagi planned.  Rei is also shocked 
that some students insist she is the pilots' leader, her shock deepens as 
Asuka facilitates the error.  Rei then confronts and defeats Tomoe using 
Ranma's tactics and training.
     Ranma tells Asuka that he's sensed something new, something he doesn't 
understand, he also admits he can't live up to people's expectations.

I grew up dreamin' of bein' a cowboy, and lovin' the cowboy ways.
Pursuin' the life of my high-ridin' heroes, I burned up my childhood days.
I learned all the rules of a modern-day drifter, don'tcha hold on to nothin' 
too long.
Willy Nelson, My Heroes Have Always Been Cowboys

Chapter 51 - Familial Relations
You Can Choose Your Friends
     Jeff slowly woke from the stupor.  Nabiki appeared in his field of 
view.
     [RED]"Welcome back from the Dragon Palace and Mount Phoenix," Nabiki 
said bitterly, "That's what you get from talking to turtles.  We're outside 
of Roswell, New Mexico, I've been here before."
     "Hmm?" he said intelligently, trying to bring his brain back on line 
and trying to put his memories back in order.
     "We thought you'd be out cold until the train reached San Diego," 
Nabiki told him, her anger coloring her every word and gesture.
     I hardly need the `conversation blocks` to tell me she's pissed, he 
thought.  He sat up slowly, painfully, to face her.  He saw the railroad 
berth around him.  He heard and felt the movement over the rails.  He tried 
to force the memories of Ritsuko-Nabiki's death and return back into the 
proper mold.  It hurts too much to examine those memories.  Her comment 
about Phoenix Mountain explains why I dreamt of those things, he thought, 
And one reason why she's so angry, she must have infiltrated those 
experiences.
     "All you need to do is learn some songs, and learn to sing," he told 
her.
     She gritted her teeth and stared angrily at him.
     He closed his eyes and determined to take a chance.  "You are a very 
pleasant sight to wake up to."  He felt something sliding over his head, 
thin, cold and metal.
     "Your glasses were destroyed in the explosion, even the spares in your 
pocket," she told him in a singsong voice, but her fury was obvious from the 
color of her words, "We had these made, and there's a Navy optometrist 
waiting in San Diego.  Bye, now."  The `happy` tone and smile would have 
fooled anybody else.  The door closed carefully, Jeff began a countdown to 
detonation.
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     Ritsuko saw Nabiki close the door to Jeff's cabin carefully.  Ritsuko 
considered delaying her trip to see Jeff's parents, she sighed and followed 
the girl as Nabiki clenched and unclenched her fists and stuck out her 
tongue at the door.
     "He's awake," Nabiki told her as she stormed past, "I'm going to get 
something to eat, some tea, and a nap. 
_BECAUSE_THE_ALTERNATIVE_IS_WRINGING_HIS_SCRAWNY_NECK_!_"
     "You always hurt the one you love," Ritsuko shouted after her, Nabiki 
hunched her shoulders as if Ritsuko had hit her in the head.
     "That's not funny!" Nabiki muttered quietly as she stomped away.
     Forgot how good my hearing is, Ritsuko thought to Nabiki, then looked 
at the cabin, Just what did you say to her to set her off?  Even the armed 
Marines got out of Nabiki's way as she stormed into the dining car.  There 
are things even a combat veteran doesn't want to trifle with, she thought. 
The Marines waited until the door closed before shrugging at Ritsuko.  She 
replied with a 'what can you do' hands-up gesture.
     "Jeffrey, Jeffrey, Jeffrey, if you think you're driving her _away_, you 
have a lot to learn about Miss Tendo."  Ritsuko considered checking in on 
Jeff, then returned to her cabin instead.  I didn't see him wake, he's still 
asleep.  I want to confront them without that distraction on either side.  I 
_do_ wonder how the interaction of my _three_ charges will work out, she 
thought.
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     Nabiki stomped into the dining car, glowing with fury.  A Pullman 
steward, an older, black man, escorted her to a table with two other 
officers, a Marine captain and an Army major.  She noted in retrospect, that 
_everyone_ had gotten out of their way as she'd walked down the car after 
the steward.  She frowned inwardly at that.  Armed soldiers practically 
diving out of my way, she thought trying to school her face and apparent 
attitude, They aren't just being polite.  The steward handed her a menu and 
introduced her to her waiter, clearly the steward's own son.  Was this the 
time that the black railroad workers got no pay, but they got room and board 
and free rides for their families, or was that only Pullman porters?  She 
tried to release the tension, putting her anger aside.  I don't even know 
why it makes me so mad, she thought, Especially Jeff's and Ritsuko's last 
comments.  I shouldn't _care_, I only care about Ranma, but . . .
     "Are you all right, Miss Tendo?" the Marine asked nervously.
     "I'm frustrated by Pilot Davis," she said calmly, "I was unaware that 
the Americans had a kamikaze streak."
     "Ah," the Major said, then studied his coffee.
     She had wanted to seem, and people to perceive her differently than 
they had in Nerima.  Now she had that seeming and perception, it served.  I 
know as far as Davis is concerned - our contract to attach me to Ranma - 
that doesn't mean I . . .  she thought, the thoughts coming almost too fast 
for her to process.  "That's what he's doing," Nabiki said under her breath, 
her anger returning full force.  It cooled almost as quickly, as she sought 
an answer to her unspoken question 'Why is he doing it?'  He's not so knot 
headed as Ranma is, about keeping his promises, so what is he trying to 
accomplish? Nabiki wondered.  She placed her order, hamburger, fries, soda 
and coleslaw.  Coleslaw is the closest thing to Kasumi's pickles I've been 
able to find in America.  Forget the `pickles` around here, she thought 
disdainfully about the salted cucumbers that masqueraded as pickles, I 
haven't had a pickled plum in a month, I'm going into withdrawal! she 
thought, laughed at her own silliness, then looked at her table mates.  "Low 
blood sugar, I'm just tired," she explained, they nodded and left her to her 
thoughts.  She examined again why she was obsessing over food, of all 
things, as well as why her fellow pilot's behavior so infuriated her. 
'Taste of home', she remembered, then tried to work out why the lines of 
thought were so terrifyingly interconnected.  Home, she realized what the 
connection was, He's been home . . . or has he?  Or was his time in the 
dream with `Ritsuko-Nabiki` the only real `home` he's ever known?  He and 
Ranko sure worked hard to make our apartment in our dream `homey` . . . and 
it felt like home, more than what the house with Kasumi, Soun and Akane had 
become.  Food, a warm bed, people who'd listen to me; is that all it takes 
to buy me off? she asked herself quietly while she waited for her order to 
arrive.  There are other elements, I just have to find them, she thought, 
And figure them out.
     "Miss Tendo," the Marine Captain spoke up, "If you don't mind a bit of 
advice?"  He waited for her to nod.  "Relationships in war . . . get 
confusing, because part of it is whatever you're actually feeling, and 
another part is just that you survived, and that somebody who's been looking 
after you survived too.  It doesn't mean a romance, just that you can trust 
somebody and that you both lived."  The man stood, nodded and walked off.
     "How do you tell the difference?" Nabiki asked quietly.
     "You don't," the Major said as he also stood and left.
     She got the hamburger, three kinds of cheese on the side, pickle chips 
which she removed to eat separately.  She'd given up trying to figure out 
why they served them like this, she ate the cheese separately, then started 
on the hamburger.  Why does the thought of home and my . . . irritation with 
being shoved away by Raccoon, why are they all tied up together?  In the 
dream, I was so jealous of how Raccoon and Ranko carried on, even how Ranma 
and Raccoon interacted.  It seemed so free and easy.  And so intimate, she 
mentally added sadly, They let me in, but . . . I wasn't part of the initial 
group.  So was it _me_ who made sure I had to be included in, instead of 
being part of the original group?  She stared at the half-eaten hamburger, 
and the waiter replacing the empty container of coleslaw she hadn't noticed 
eating.  "Thank you," she said.  I want Ranma! she thought fiercely, But who 
does Ranma want?  Me, Raccoon, neither, both, does Ranma want one and Ranko 
another, or has Ranma even thought about it?  What will I do if Ranma 
doesn't want me . . . and if Raccoon doesn't either, and they want each 
other?  She sighed.  I'm missing something . . . that something is Raccoon's 
relationship with Ritsuko-Nabiki and his relationship with Sharon, she 
concentrated, If the relations among the pilots of NERV Tokyo are any 
indication, all those kids who'd walled themselves off from the world in 
general have opened up to each other, the relationship between Sharon and 
Raccoon would be cordial with a pervasive subtext of desperation.  She 
snickered at that, then sobered.  And how much of that applies to Tendo 
Nabiki as well?  Do I `need` Kasumi, then Shampoo, then Ranma, Raccoon and 
the others to invite me in?  Despite what I make myself and others believe 
about my desire to be separate, independent, etc., I've always wanted to be 
the center of attention when I chose, and then not, when I chose that.  But 
there was always somebody who ignored that and showed their affection 
despite what I `wanted`.  Kasumi, Shampoo, even Ritsuko, but Ranma isn't 
like that with me, Raccoon is, but we're just friends.  Ranko is that way 
with Raccoon, and so is Asuka.  Friend, but something more.  She wanted to 
throw up her hands and scream in frustration.  I'm not solving _anything_!_ 
I'm just confusing myself more! she thought in fury, immediately burying it 
deep within her, Okay, so what does the gap imply?  When I lost Hiroko, who 
was also able to ignore my on-off signal, I didn't try to beat people off 
with a stick, I practically crawled into Rei's lap and camped out there. 
Because I knew that she wouldn't reject me either, ever.  She wasn't sure if 
those memories of `emotionless` Rei comforting her should warm or terrify 
her.  As warm in an odd way as Kasumi.  She didn't just tolerate me, she 
cared about me.  I needed that, I wouldn't have survived if I couldn't have 
had a safe person to be with, a safe haven.  Raccoon knew what I'd do, and 
he stopped me without acknowledging what I was doing.  So what is he trying 
to do?  Nabiki asked herself, as she stood and left a tip.  I can't head 
back to my cabin, I have to go back to his, she thought.
     She walked in unannounced again.  Let him speak first, but I am going 
to encourage him to speak . . . as if he needs any, she thought.
     He lay with his back to the door, practically cocooned in the bedding.
     She remembered Ranko's way of approaching him.  Great, _I'm_ taking 
people lessons from _Ranma_, she wondered, Is that enough to indicate the 
imminent end of the world, or do I have to wait for the advice to actually 
work.  She sat next to the bunk, there wasn't much space, but she fit in 
easily.  She reached up and began carefully massaging his neck.
     I'm not as good as Ranma, she thought, But I do know the therapeutic 
techniques.
     "Please go away, Miss Tendo."
     One point for me, Nabiki thought.
     "I thought you might be hurt," she explained.
     "I am, and you're making it worse."
     Nabiki removed her hands.  "Sorry," she apologized, then she considered 
another approach.
     "Why don't you, ah . . . you know?" she asked.
     "I used all the power I had to simply wake up.  I won't have any more 
for a time."
     Okay, logical, she thought as she knelt next to the bed.  "I'm not that 
experienced with this stuff."
     "I can't teach you anything right now, give me a few hours to rest and 
heal.  I appreciate the repartee, but I'd rather be alone."
     "I'd think after being asleep for days, you might want something to 
eat, or hear what's going on."
     "Miss Tendo," he said frostily, "Two old friends arrived to kill me, if 
necessary."  He rolled over to face her, his expression made Nabiki take a 
step back.  "Then I turned around and lured an old friend atop 50 tons of 
explosives and set it off.  You are now well aware of how I dealt with the 
Phoenixi.  So who is the real bastard?"  He paused to let her respond, but 
she had nothing to say.  "It might explain why I don't _care_ what you think 
of me.  Good day to you."
     Nabiki felt the alternating hot and cold surges of raw fury.  I want to 
hit him, hurt him, do something . . . to assuage my anger.  She mercilessly 
stomped down the impulse to storm out.  That's what he wants, she thought, I 
know how to manipulate people too, and how to drive people away.  And I know 
_why_ I drive people away.  Because I don't want them to hurt me.  If I let 
them get close, then they could hurt me where it would _really_ hurt, where 
I can't defend myself.  She focused past the hurt.  He wouldn't be lashing 
out if I couldn't and hadn't hurt him, because that's exactly what I would 
do.  Funny, the flaw in Anything Goes that Raccoon pointed out was extremely 
close combat, letting someone get too close.  Both Ranma and I have the same 
vulnerability in ourselves, letting people get too close strips away all our 
defenses.  Isn't _that_ ironic?  I want to get close to Ranma and I'm 
terrified he'll get close to me in the process.  Then to add insult to 
injury, I'm trying to get close to another person and we keep hurting each 
other and lashing out when we get too close again.  She sat there trying, to 
calm down enough to do some good.
     All I have to do is swallow my pride, she thought as she waited 
silently, My not inconsiderable pride.  But I can outwait him.  My 
experience with my own pain tells me that too.  I remember Asuka's comment 
about the 'Hedgehog's Dilemma', but a hedgehog's spines go down when they 
relax.  All I have to do is get this one's . . . _these_two's_ . . . to 
relax, and hope neither his nor mine were poisoned.  She found she was 
looking forward to the challenge.  It's easier to lash out, she realized, I 
got suckered in by Sharon, that had to infuriate him with her.  I'm not 
going to be suckered into being uselessly angry by my own teammate.  And he 
doesn't want to hurt me as badly as he can.  He didn't simply obliterate the 
Phoenixi the first time they threatened Ritsuko-Nabiki.  If Ritsuko-Nabiki 
kept her distance, she wouldn't care how badly hurt he got, or the horrible 
things he did to keep her and the others safe.  But I don't want to not care 
about a fellow pilot, she thought, It would be too easy to let that extend 
to others, eventually to Ranma.  She sighed.  Besides, it would be too easy 
for them to reciprocate, or worse, put me in their debt, with no way to 
repay them.  Ranma/Ranko and Raccoon already did that, and it was the worst 
feeling, since Hiroko's death.  I'd like to _avoid_ that, she thought while 
she waited.
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     Nabiki was furious, "You just killed them.  What's all this 'forgive 
and forget' stuff, all that Christian mercy?"
     Jeff looked up from the project he was working on in the train's 
machine shop.  Nabiki had noted that the other workers had cleared out soon 
after the argument had started.  Jeff's placid acceptance of the events they 
had both relived was grating on her.
     "Being a Christian isn't a suicide pact.  As you obviously know," Jeff 
told her calmly, "I made a good faith attempt to negotiate a peace, not just 
a truce, but it doesn't work if the people you are negotiating with don't 
regard you as a person.  Every attempt made merely emboldened them."
     "Why not kill Saffron and take over!?"
     "Oh yes, after all, Akane, Kuno and Ryoga learned lessons so quickly 
and thoroughly.  A batch of inbred mental defectives would of _course_ be 
educatable to a new and more civilized way.  With the Amazons 'Obstacles are 
for killing' did you think any of the other tribes in the Martial Arts 
Balkans would be any different.  Maybe the other magic of Jusenkyo is that 
it attracts the violent and hopelessly stupid, after all Genma and Ryoga 
were both drawn there like a magnet, maybe Kuno isn't as stupid as everybody 
seems to think, he's managed to avoid it.  I didn't want to bring my wife 
out to the back end of beyond and raise my kids in a shooting gallery. 
Remember, until the end, I _never_ went back after Jusendo.  But after 
Jusendo, they launched their attack, traveling twice the length of Japan 
through hostile territory to make their attack.  Does _that_ sound like a 
rational action?"
     "No," Nabiki had to admit, "That doesn't give you the right to kill 
them all!"
     "What gave them the right to attack me and my family?" he asked, 
calmly.
     Nabiki had no answer.
     "So you can exterminate - "
     "As they exterminated the Amazons?" Jeff cut her off.
     Nabiki blanched at Jeff's suddenly intent stare.  "That doesn't make 
what you did right."
     "I never said it was 'right'," Jeff replied coldly becoming more calm 
instead of more angry, "They'd just killed my wife and son, for a political 
advantage over their partners in the extermination of the Amazons.  They 
didn't kill Ritsuko-Nabiki to prevent _me_ from reproducing, but so they 
could enslave me and my offspring to be used against the Musk.  They had 
just reduced the major players to two, from three, lying, duplicity, etc. 
were all part of their acceptable way of dealing with outsiders, i.e., 
anyone outside their little clique.  So even _if_ I had agreed to their 
terms, or conquered them, there is _absolutely_ no guarantee they would keep 
their word, or serve faithfully.  So since they had `said` that was an 
acceptable way to treat their enemies, I took them at their word and 
mirror-imaged what they were planning to do to all their foes."
     "That's . . . "
     "Repulsive, disgusting, unfair, Old Testament?" he asked, "The saying 
'Judge not lest ye be judged' doesn't prohibit evaluations, but proscribes 
hypocrisy, if you judge, you'll be judged by the exact standards and 
harshness you used.  I didn't start this, I tried to end it peacefully, but 
once they crossed the line at assassination and genocide, that made them 
acceptable tactics.  If I could do it better, too damn bad, that's why you 
don't cross certain lines," he said, then added with contempt, "I was _mean_ 
to them."
     "Yes."
     "Get over it, someone tried to kill me, I killed them back," Jeff said 
coldly, "I don't start these battles capriciously, you and I returned 
Cthylla, because our enemy was willing to make a deal and abide by it.  And 
that from something whose views have as much in common with humans' thinking 
on contracts and jurisprudence as ours does with a spider's.  I tried to 
avoid conflict."  He suddenly leaned close and coldly told her, "Cthulhu, 
the Great Old One, was more reasonable than a pack of . . . I don't have 
strong enough curses to use on them.  My point is, at some point, you - 
quit - being - nice.  If a cow births a two-headed calf, you drowned the 
calf and burn the body, you don't even eat it.  If that cow produces a 
second two-headed calf from a different bull, you drown the calf _and_ the 
mother and incinerate both of them."
     "People aren't cows," Nabiki protested hotly.
     "They were 3000 years ago, and that's the reality these people live in, 
that's what they understand.  So no incursions by the Lucky Gods Martial 
Artists, no attacks by the Origami Kingdom, or the PuppetMasters, or any of 
the idiots living in that region.  My family could be raised in the relative 
peace and security of my home.  They saw what happened to the Musk and the 
Phoenixi . . . maybe they _were_ taught in a language they understood, maybe 
they were too busy fighting each other over the bones of the Amazons, 
Phoenixi and Musk Kingdoms, I don't know, I didn't _care_!_  I had my wife's 
trauma at her murder to deal with.  Maybe I did act out of anger, but _they_ 
decided my family was an acceptable target.  At that point there _were_ no 
noncombatants on their side either.  And before you say 'the people had no 
say' they could have left anytime they chose, except they didn't, they were 
ready to stand by Saffron during the good times, they could share his 
downfall."
     "I can't ever forgive you," Nabiki said.
     "Miss Tendo, with all due respect," Jeff told her, "Your forgiveness is 
irrelevant."
     Nabiki frowned at that and the way he returned to his work.
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     Nabiki had finally calmed down a bit as she watched Jeff working on the 
second of a pair of 'new projects'.  I'm really watching him avoid me, she 
thought as she watched the barrel, the mock-up of the mechanism and the 
stock slowly take shape.  Earlier she'd watched Jeff mixing and measuring, 
and they started arguing. Me screaming, him replying with greater coldness, 
she thought, disgusted by her loss of control, I'll do it better this time. 
Maintain control of my temper, thus maintain control of myself and the 
conversation.  "What is that you are working on?  Besides a huge rifle?"
     "A completely new weapon, or isn't it obvious that the current weapons 
are insufficient," he said as he walked around her.  "I made a superior 
version of the dust we use to give the regular forces' arms and artillery an 
effect on our enemies.  The existing material doesn't have a broad enough 
spectrum of targets, the new mix will be better."
     Colder that usual, she thought, He's trying to `behave` as well, or set 
me off.  "Can I help?"
     "Thank you, no," Jeff replied.
     "What _is_ your problem?  My finely trained instincts have determined 
your being an even bigger asshole than usual, and that's a feat.  Did you 
get up on the wrong side of the bed and hit your head or something, or are 
you always this grouchy in your home country?  Is there something else to 
which I owe this miraculous effort?"
     "It isn't _me_ who has the problem.  I've already dealt with the 
immediate problem.  Asshole, eh, useful just not discussed in polite 
company, I can live with that," he said as he stared at her, "_You_ work for 
_them_," he said so coldly that Nabiki retreated a step, "I'm feeling pretty 
stupid that I ever trusted you."
     Nabiki stiffened.  "What's that supposed to mean?"
     "You're dead, you just haven't fallen over yet.  I've lost enough 
friends.  I don't care to continue a friendship with a walking corpse."
     Nabiki froze at the unthinking callousness.  He's not being 
intentionally cruel, she thought, He's just giving me the facts.  She stared 
daggers at him as he returned to his work, having dismissed her from his 
mind.
     "I know whom you work for.  You're a spy, for them, so too was Sharon, 
they let her go insane when they replaced her with you.  I will give you the 
lessons I promised, because I gave my word, but now I know you can't be 
trusted, because your patron's can't be trusted," he told her, "Maybe you'd 
like to ask your dear friends why they're hounding Miss Ayanami."
     Nabiki felt sick. "I thought the angels were good guys."
     "Angels, and demons for that matter, are little more than robots.  They 
do what they're told.  They aren't God and they can fall, or redeem, that is 
switch sides, that is where demons originally came from: Angels who've 
jumped the tracks.  They never told Sharon her help was no longer necessary, 
they just picked the time she most needed help, but because they had a 
superior replacement, they left her to the Project's doctors, and 
Nyarlathotep.  Don't make the assumption they won't abandon _you_ when 
you're in extremis, they might even drop you into a mess just to get the 
rest of us to jump the way they want us to go.  Maybe you should remind them 
Sharon and I discussed a number of things before I - killed - her."
     "She was your friend," Nabiki stammered at his cold tone, and the 
revelations.
     "She would have killed all the pilots, then the world.  Funny, that her 
ex-patrons didn't help her when she most needed it.  They told her not to do 
something, she disobeyed.  Seems that when she really needed them . . . 
poof, gone.  Sharon was destroyed in that EVA simulator the next day, my 
friend died in that thing, I only finished off what was walking around using 
her body."
     "So why are you blaming me?" Nabiki asked, hating the coldness of his 
expression, he was resigned, not angry  Like when Ranma got hit, he is 
expecting it, she thought.
     "I'm not blaming you, I'm warning you.  You'll be their spy and their 
Judas Goat if they wish, and they'll lie to your face, because they believe 
what they've been told."
     Nabiki could only stare at him.  You can't mean that! she thought as 
she felt her gut tighten.  "I thought they were good guys."
     "They are good, but good also includes Abraham being asked to sacrifice 
his beloved son Isaac, good includes the Book of Job.  Good doesn't mean 
nice, or even easily explained."
     "I know you, you aren't someone who can accept limits.  I bet you 
already pushed _way_ too far," he said gently, almost tenderly, "I'll look 
after Ranma, if that's what you want.  I can't say I'll ever like him, but I 
will look after him."
     Nabiki wished he'd just punched her instead of saying what he said.  He 
stepped around her and continued with his work.  I was mistrusted back in 
Nerima, she thought, But being mistrusted by a _Christian_ because I'm 
working with angels, that hurts.  She stepped back out of the way and went 
back to just watching him.  "Thank you," she said, and meant it, "Giving the 
condemned one last request?"  She watched him stare at her and ignore her 
poor attempt at humor.  Damn, it's not fair!  I bet Belldandy is laughing at 
me.  I would get involved with someone who hates my patrons.  Well that 
simplifies things.  I can concentrate on Ranma, she thought, And will they 
abandon me when Ranma most needs me?  Or if Jeff needs me, that might fit 
things?  I get my cure for 'Touching the World Lightly' just as he most 
needs me to touch the world lightly.  They'd have a good laugh about that, 
'does the selfish girl sacrifice her chance at happiness so the boy she can 
never have gets a chance at happiness with someone else?'  Yeah, that would 
be a good laugh.  He thinks - he _knows_ I'm already dead, if Belldandy does 
what Sharon's `control` did to her, she thought, I did push, I pushed too 
hard, not like me, especially not _for_ me.  Big mistake.  _Fatal_ mistake. 
She sat down heavily.  "Thank you," was all she could say.
     "Do you know what Sharon's `terrible crime` was?" he asked.
     Might as well know, she thought numbly as she nodded.
     "Her control found out that Jason was going to die in the EVA simulator 
the next day," he said grimly, "So she _ordered_ Sharon to break off their 
relationship, not to give him clarity so he might survive, but 'to spare 
herself pain.'  Well, Sharon, being Sharon, decided to make Jason's last 
night memorable: dinner, a movie, dancing, all appropriately chaperoned of 
course, but a memorable evening.  Jason died, but he had one bright memory 
to take with him.  Sharon's control dropped her like a hot potato, and 
Sharon fell soon after."
     He knelt in front of her, smiling.  "Now, if you've never done or do 
anything like that, of course you'll be perfectly safe."
     "Ha ha," Nabiki told him.  Only a little more, she thought, Like a 
million times.  "You're exaggerating," she said, paled at his harsh stare.
     "They are machines, immensely sophisticated, composed of alien, 
Heavenly elements, but they are just cogs in the great machine, they have a 
purpose and any human-seeming aspects are there to serve that purpose. 
Don't make the foolish assumption that cost Sharon so much, that 'because 
she's so nice', that she has your good in mind.  These creatures may _like_ 
humans individually, but they only love God and take a macroscopic, 
long-term view of humans and the human race as a whole.  A baby born to a 
mother and neither baby nor mother survives the first week, but it ennobles 
the spirits of everyone even peripherally involved with the hopeless 
struggle, gives them all the strength to face and conquer greater spiritual 
trials ahead, 'eh, let the kid and his mom die', they'd say, the hundreds 
saved in the future more than balances things out.  The good of the many 
outweighs the good of the one, especially if the one dies in a state of 
grace.  And they can espouse such things with a smile, because they _know_ 
they're right.  Of course the demons claim they're right too, so sometimes 
it gets hard to tell them apart."
     "So, from where do you know them?" she asked.
     "I worked for them, and the demons, during the early part of El 
Nureenen's War.  I was a hunter for them, me and 59 others.  Walking dead 
men who - "
     "I thought you were a Christian," Nabiki said.  I'm grasping at straws, 
she thought, And I know it!
     "_God_ loves us, angels have lusted after us, but I don't remember 
angels saying they loved us.  Just because a valentine has 'I WUV U' printed 
on it, no matter how heartfelt the sentiment, it doesn't change the 
_paper's_ opinion of the recipient.  Why do you think that when a real angel 
shows up, the first words out of its mouth are 'be not afraid'?  They are 
reflections of God's awesome power and glory, not his love for us."
     "Ah," Nabiki said, feeling her heart sink.
     "They taught me a number of tricks, because it was in their best 
interest, but after we served their cause faithfully, and we could have used 
a little of their help after their mission was complete, they couldn't be 
bothered.  After all," he added in a mocking tone, "They'd already `helped` 
with what was 'truly important'."
     "You don't sound convinced."
     "I wasn't," he finished assembling the piece as he spoke, "Now to have 
a full-sized mock-up made, then a working prototype."
     "You mean this isn't full-sized," Nabiki said, "It's huge."
     "Hopefully, this weapon will affect many more of our enemies that are 
immune now," he told her, "As I said, the powder will also have a broader 
spectrum of targets, but if you can pack more into a bullet, it will be even 
more effective."
     "I see," Nabiki said, trying to lighten her dark mood.  Worse, I was 
mad because I thought _he_ was mad, he just made a logical, reasonable 
choice based on his previous knowledge and his trained intellect.  Wisdom, 
experience, and logic all blending hand-in-hand, the bastard! she thought 
angry at him and at herself.
     "Do you hear that?" Nabiki asked of a distinct rumble followed by 
several others.
     "No . . . yes, thunder," he said as he cocked his head, "It almost 
sounds like an earthquake, it's artillery!"  Alarms sounded throughout the 
train and station, and the sound of gunfire.  "There's probably more to it, 
but I can't hear it.  Come on!"  He waved her forward as he turned and ran.
     "Where are we going?"
     "The EVA," Jeff said as he opened the door to the next car.  A Marine 
rushed in.  "We're under attack, we need you two to - " the Marine 
collapsed.  Standing in the doorway was a creature that looked like a Buddha 
wearing an elephant's skull for a head and carrying a short, bent staff.
     Jeff drew and fired, blasting out each of its eyes.  The creature 
collapsed.  "Or not.  Here," he shouted as he tossed her a box of 
ammunition.  She caught the box, then watched the creature start to get up. 
Jeff stepped up and shot it twice more.
     Jeff slammed the door and took off back the way they'd come.
     "Let's get to the EVA, there's more of them."
     Nabiki slipped the box into her pants pocket.  They ran down the car, 
Nabiki caught glimpses of men firing at the elephant Buddhas, too many of 
them.  "What is that?" Nabiki asked as she ran beside him.
     "Brothers of Chaugnar Faugn," Jeff shouted, "In the end times, he was 
supposed to return to their lair and consume them."
     "You killed him with Unit 04!" Nabiki shouted as they exited the 
machine shop car and continued into the barracks cars, "Wouldn't they be 
grateful?"
     "You'd think so, wouldn't you."
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You Can't Choose Your Relatives
     Ritsuko shifted nervously in her seat at the small air port.  I have to 
meet with these people, she reminded herself, Find out what they really know 
about all of this.  A soldier ran up to her, saluted and held it until she 
returned it.  "Yes, corporal?" she asked.  I'm a civilian, she thought, Why 
suddenly doesn't that matter?
     "Ma'am, ten minutes ago the train came under attack," he told her 
breathlessly.
     Ritsuko looked at Maya who blanched.  "What's the situation?" she asked 
calmly, while inside she wanted to panic.
     "I don't know ma'am, but I have orders to get you to the rally point 
and tell you that a counterattack is already underway.  The relief force is 
assembling and should be ready by the time we get there."  He gestured to 
the command car they'd arrived in.
     The `relief force` will be mostly National Guard, police and local 
deputies, she thought as she headed out, They aren't up to fighting anything 
that would give an EVA a run for its money.  "Lead on," she ordered, she 
glanced at their escort.  Great, now I'm thinking like him, best tactics for 
an inferior force to employ to engage and defeat a superior one, she 
thought, It's funny, but not 'ha ha' funny.  As soon as Maya was aboard, the 
convoy raced off.
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     "She insulted me!" Yuki whispered fiercely to Usagi as the teacher 
droned on and on about some kind of math.
     "All she said was she wasn't interested," Usagi tried to calm her ally, 
so she could go back to daydreaming.
     "Then she called me those vile things!" Yuki insisted in an angry hiss.
     "In _German_!_" Usagi insisted back, "Only you, she, and everyone 
you're translating them for knows what she said."  And if it had anything to 
do with your sexual habits and taste, in practices and partners, Usagi 
thought, It was probably mild, no matter _what_ she called you.
     "Tomoe Usagi, Yamajima Yuki, buckets, outside, now!" the teacher told 
them sternly.
     Usagi growled at her colleague before giving the teacher her most 
dazzling smile.  He didn't say they had to be full, she thought as she 
collected the empty buckets and went outside.  Once there, her smile 
vanished.
     "This is what I was talking about," Yuki continued the argument once 
they were both outside, "I could have gotten both of us out of this, so 
could you!  You're soft on them."
     "I am _trying_ to welcome them in," Usagi countered angrily.  How many 
times do I have to explain this? she wondered, prayed to the Goddess for 
patience with her loyal, but stupid followers.  "They are not other people," 
Usagi explained patiently, "They are gods, already.  You saw what Rei did to 
Tomoe, only a superb martial artist could do that, and Rei has _never_ shown 
interest or skill with martial arts.  What?  You think Ranma trained her 
during the entire break?  Even if you subscribed to that laughable idea, how 
could she learn so much so fast?"
     "They need to learn who is in charge," Yuki said flatly, giving Usagi a 
sullen gaze.
     "Yuki, if I am able to bring them in," Usagi explained patiently. 
"_THEY_ will be," she shouted, then returned to whispering, "They will be 
gods and goddesses under the tutelage and protection, and in the service of 
the Goddess.  If you can't wrap your mind around that, then maybe you should 
take a vacation until we're through.  Because _I_ intend to bring them into 
the Goddess's service."
     "I thought the idea was to break them down," Yuki said.
     Usagi sighed, tried to forestall the growing headache and a screaming 
match that would result in a visit to the principal and a `conference` with 
the principal and her parents, They've been getting better at sending clues, 
she thought, I'll have to be careful.  "We break them down to get close to 
them," Usagi explained patiently.  Why don't I just kill her and leave her 
bleeding corpse as an offering to Miss Langley? Usagi wondered as she 
wrestled with her temper, It would solve _so_ many problems.  "You're best 
effort is to apologize to her, tell her that you were using her to get to 
Ranma, or Kaji, then leave her alone, I'll assign someone else."
     "I'll leave her alone all right," Yuki muttered as the bell for the 
next class rang.
     This is going to have to stop, Usagi thought as she headed back inside 
as the teacher left.
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     The collection of police cars, personal cars, pick up trucks and men 
waited in a tangle.  Half of them shouting or blowing their horns at each 
other.  There was almost no sound of gunfire, and all of that very distant.
     Follow the cigar smoke, fat men _there_!_ Ritsuko `remembered` the 
Indian rule for finding the white officers.
     "There corporal," Ritsuko told the driver of her car who aimed the 
command car at a particular knot of men.  Even almost getting run down 
doesn't disturb the arguments, she thought, Have to get them all aimed in 
one direction.
     "We don't have authorization, we've got a General coming in," one man 
in a National Guard uniform was shouting at a police officer who was 
shouting back and poking the soldier in the chest with an unlit cigar.
     "NERV is taking over," Ritsuko announced loudly as she got out of the 
army command car.  She walked towards the collection of eight angry men: two 
police, a volunteer fire chief, a politician by his lack of uniform, two 
Guardsmen, a Marine and soldier from the train, both junior to the senior 
Guardsman.  She shoved a big Cadillac out of her way without breaking 
stride, and marched up to them.  With the armed escort, her escort, 
following close behind her.  Suddenly, only slack faces stared at her, or at 
the heavy car she'd pushed out of the way with such a piddling effort.
     "I want you to begin assembling teams to begin evacuating the wounded," 
she told the fire chief, "Commandeer the pick ups to get them to the 
hospital.  We need to assemble search parties for the casualties and the 
enemy.  Where are the pilots?"
     "Beg pardon ma'am," the Marine, a major, snapped off a salute that she 
returned just as crisply.
     "Yes?" she tried to sound and look like Commander Ikari.
     "The pilots engaged the enemy, they seemed to be the only ones having 
any effect.  We lost sight of them when the ammunition car went up.  But the 
gunfire continued, moving south and south south west."
     "The entry plugs?" Ritsuko asked sharply, she noted the locals were 
shying away from her.
     "They blew all three, we've sent a request to Las Vegas to get more, I 
don't know when they'll arrive."
     Ritsuko desired to set off in pursuit of the pilots.  But I can do more 
good getting these people organized, she thought, cursing her own decision, 
I have to be an officer, not a mother.  She turned to the Fire Chief. 
"Wounded to the hospitals, MOVE!" she told the man, who scampered off. 
"What kind of weapons and terrain do we have here?" she asked those who 
remained.  At least the politician ran off when he had the chance, she 
thought as she followed the police officer to a car that seemed covered in 
radio aerials.  The Guardsmen were ordering up maps.
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     Maya walked around, examining the site.  Wounded men were being treated 
and collected for transport.  The dead were being covered and left where 
they lay.  I've seen this too often to be bothered by it anymore, she 
thought sadly, The `big men` have Sempai's full attention, but I should be 
doing something to help.  Something of use.
     The cars near the ordinance car looked like the remains of a toy train 
that had suffered from a child's tantrum.  The huge EVA was lying in an 
awkward pose, but appeared unmarked.  Unfortunately, the three entry plugs 
all suffered severe damage.  Useless, she thought, Unless . . .   She ran 
from one plug to the other.  One was opened like a flower at one end, the 
second had been broken in half, the third had the end blown off.  Maya 
glanced from the second to the third, and smiled.
     "Sergeant Kilrain," she asked the Marine accompanying her, "Can you get 
a mens to cut the end off that there plug and that there one?  Then weld 
them pieces back to into one right plug shape?"
     "I'll order up an oxyacetylene cutter," he ordered a private off on the 
mission, as Maya stepped into the damaged plug.
     Only the hatches were really damaged, she thought as she found herself 
smiling, Inner and outer.  It looks like there was no real damage to the 
electrical or hydraulic systems.
     "You NERV people learn that smile in school?" Kilrain asked, "It gives 
me the willies."
     Maya smiled, a friendlier smile.  "We fix, then EVA can smile at our 
enemies, is good?"
     "Gets my vote," the sergeant said as Maya walked to the second plug to 
begin inspecting it.
     She stumbled over something in the dirt, and glanced down.  I won't 
scream, I won't scream! she thought, staring down in horror at the elephant 
skull with ears like a bat's wings, as she stepped away from it.  "This you 
were fighting?" she asked.
     "Yes, ma'am," Kilrain said grimly, then something she didn't 
understand, "No effect, even the special rounds."
     "Bazookas, flamethrowers?" she asked in a small voice, her eyes wide 
with horror.  She covered her face for a moment, then forced her hands to 
her sides.  I have to be strong, she admonished herself, Nobody is shooting 
at me, and all I have to do is fix the EVA.
     "Yes."
     "No effect?" she asked in a tiny voice.  I'm a NERV officer, she 
thought, I should act like it.
     "It made them mad," Kilrain told her, "That's about it."
     "We get running on work, then we see them liking EVA, or not," Maya 
said fiercely.  The kids are out there, getting chased by these _damned_ 
things, she reminded herself, taking strength from her anger, I won't let 
them win.
     "_Yes_Ma'am_,_" Kilrain said as he smiled.
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     Ritsuko had left the ongoing operations to the Colonel from the Guard. 
She'd outlined the responsibilities of each group.  I've done all that I 
can, and the initial shock is wearing off, she thought, They'll soon 
`notice` I'm not a uniformed American officer and quit following my 
`orders`.  But it lasted long enough.  She joined Captain Madison and 
several others from the NERV force and the Bennington's Marine contingent. 
"Let's go after the kids," she ordered.  She still had the shotguns she'd 
gotten from Jeff's aunt and uncle at Harvard as well as the huge shotgun 
that Jeff had prepared for his own foray against Sharon, all the weapons 
were still loaded and in good condition.  As long as `anti-Sharon` weapons 
have full effect against the Brothers of Chaugnar Faugn, she thought.  She 
looked over the team, a mix of NERV SAR, Marines and seamen from Bennington, 
a platoon of troops all told.  All following my lead, and I'm comfortable 
with that, she thought, I guess I did pick up more than I figured.  I know 
the ways to sweep an area like this, and the words and gestures to command 
and direct troops.  I don't think I'll get used to this, she thought as she 
passed out weapons and ammunition.
     I heard the occasional gunshot, usually four at once.  We'll head 
towards those, she thought, Not the periodic flurries of gunfire that 
petered out.
     "You think the kids are okay?" Madison asked, as he walked beside her.
     "You hear that?" Ritsuko stopped and commented on four closely spaced 
shots, then silence, "I'd bet good money that's Jeff and Nabiki combating 
those things.  What I am worried about is why the other weapons aren't 
having any effect."  She started walking again, so did the troops.
     "I watched one take a hit from a 105, it flew back and got back up," 
Sergeant Armstead said, "Damn strange."
     Damn worrying, she thought as she glanced at the darkening sky, It 
won't affect _my_ vision, but once we lose the light, we lose any chance of 
an air search or ground support aircraft.  In these canyons and arroyos, the 
other search parties could pass within a dozen meters of the kids, or the 
enemy, and never know it.
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     Rei stood in the school atrium and tapped the plaster filling her 
outside shoes.  For that much plaster to have hardened and cooled, would 
have required several hours, she thought, Was the insistence that we eat 
lunch in the classroom part of the plot?   Or was it a coincidence?  Or did 
someone merely take advantage of the occurrence?  I have no answers.
     She glanced up to see Mein Grossfeldmarschall approaching with a 
worried expression on her face.  "Oh, they got you too?"  She tapped the 
plaster in the shoes Rei still held.  "They put manure in Hikari's and stole 
Horseface's backup thermos.  I haven't talked to either of the Stooges yet, 
even money they got hit too.  A real welcome."
     "You believe it was a coordinated action?" Rei asked, genuinely 
curious.
     "Maybe not coordinated, but definitely concerted," Mein 
Grossfeldmarschall said angrily, for her, "Do they haze all the student this 
way, or are we just special?"
     "We are special," Rei told her, she didn't understand why Mein 
Grossfeldmarschall frowned.
     "Do you have to be so literal?"
     Rei paused, considered.  "Yes, although I would choose to be."  Rei 
didn't understand Mein Grossfeldmarschall's deepening scowl.
     "I meant are they hazing us and our classmates more than a regular 
group of newcomers?" Mein Grossfeldmarschall asked Rei carefully.
     "Hazing?"
     "This kind of low-level terrorism/sabotage, that kind of thing.  Like 
filling your shoes with plaster, or Hikari's locker with manure, that's what 
I mean," Mein Grossfeldmarschall explained impatiently.
     I have no answer, Rei thought, disappointed with her inability, But I 
may have an answer if we treat them as we would . . . if they were Angels. 
"I believe we have sufficient unity and resources to perform a 
counterattack," Rei said, that also seemed to appeal to her fellow pilot.
     "Targets and good intelligence, that's what we need."  Mein 
Grossfeldmarschall smiled, then frowned.
     I envy her ability to easily express her feelings, Rei thought idly.
     "Ice Princess and Raccoon were running the intelligence gathering 
operations."
     "Natsumi Matsuda and Aida were senior members, they should be able to 
reactivate the network," Rei suggested.
     "You think a bunch of school kids are the same kind of threat a cultist 
is?" Mein Grossfeldmarschall asked.
     "Would you ask that question, if they had struck next week and 
destroyed your violin?" Rei asked.  That has been my concern since Mein 
Grossfeldmarschall mentioned sabotage.  My violin is precious to me, a gift 
from the Commander.  As hers is to her, for reasons I do not know, nor care 
to know.  Shinji-kun's cello is equally precious to him.  That importance 
would prove a poor shield against what was done here.  "Juri Kun can be 
placed to guard our instruments on the day of trials," Rei said quietly, 
noticing her own whitened knuckles for the first time.  She stared at them 
while she spoke, "I am certain the Navy would provide additional security 
forces, if we should request them."  She turned her hand, still holding the 
shoe, this way and that, some plaster poured out as dust and small chunks. 
She stared at them, then back at her hand, her knuckles were no longer 
white.  She stared at Mein Grossfeldmarschall who was staring back with 
equal intensity.
     "I think you're right Wondergirl," she said, glancing down at the small 
heap of plaster bits, stirring them with her foot, "Usagi invited me to a 
tea party, private, with just her."  She paused to consider.  "I think I 
will bring Erin, and my Peacemaker.  I think that's why I didn't get hit."
     Rei felt an alarm she couldn't put into coherent thoughts or words.  "I 
would advise against it," Rei quietly gave a completely inadequate warning, 
"There is something wrong with Usagi Tomoe, Tomoe Tomoe and the rest of 
their coterie."
     "Coterie, you really think they're a coterie and not just friends or 
sycophants?" Mein Grossfeldmarschall asked with interest.
     "Jawohl, Mein Grossfeldmarschall," Rei said, looked for the sour 
expression that statement had always elicited.  Disturbing, she thought, It 
did not occur.  She didn't know why she treasured that sour look, but she 
did, so she used the name occasionally.  This lack of reaction left her at a 
bit of a loss.
     "I think we'll need to analyze what we know.  After meeting with Usagi, 
we'll meet at Sammi's apartment," Mein Grossfeldmarschall said, looking 
exactly like the Meliorist for a moment, "Then we'll plot some strategy."
     "I will inform those I can find," Rei said, "It has security from 
observation."  She returned to her ignored status.
     Mein Grossfeldmarschall sighed and headed back the way she'd originally 
come.  Rei took off her 'inside' shoes, considered.  Then she put them and 
her 'outside' shoes in her bag and headed off.
     Whatever plan is developed to deal with this attack, Rei thought as she 
walked out onto the school grounds and began looking, I will also inform the 
Commander, Security should inform him automatically, but they have been 
unforgivably lax in doing such things for too long.  Perhaps they are merely 
incompetent.  Their incompetence cannot be intentional, as has been 
suggested.
     She found Aida-san with Suzuhara-san, the latter was comforting 
Hokari-san.  "Mein Grossfeldmarschall has developed the idea that the 
'accidents' were intentional actions," she said, watching Suzuhara-san and 
Hokari-san grow angry, but they said nothing.
     "That's awful," Aida-san announced, "Why would they do something like 
that?"
     "Many reasons," Rei told him, "For power, for enjoyment, they were 
under orders.  Their motivations are unimportant."
     Aida-san nodded, Hokari-san and Suzuhara-san shook their heads.
     "The plan is to assemble at Kraznyzamok-san's apartment.  Aida-san, 
assemble the available members of the network that Nabiki-kun and Roku-kun 
assembled.  I will locate Matsuda-san and transmit the information to her as 
well."
     "Assemble all that are available," she enunciated each word even more 
clearly than she usually did, taking a step closer with each word, as she'd 
seen others do.  The effect was successful, Rei thought, as Aida-san gulped 
and nodded.  Rei paused and considered Hokari-san, who quailed at the stare. 
"You two also had a group of allies, fellow class presidents."
     "Only two - or three - " Hokari-san fell silent as Rei took one step 
towards her.
     Suzuhara-san stepped between them.
     "She'll get them," he said.
     Your confidence is forced, Rei thought, she turned and ran off to find 
Matsuda-san.
     "What's got her worked up?" she heard Suzuhara-san ask.
     "You need to ask?" Aida-san asked in reply.
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     Ranma stared at the boy he had pinned against the wall with his foot. 
His other foot moved randomly, as if ready to deliver another kick at any 
time.  The boy's feet dangled off the floor as Ranma pressed both of them 
into the opposite walls of the small room.  He was very much aware of his 
smaller and female body compared with the boy, who would be larger than even 
his male form.  He was also aware that his superior skill and his opponent's 
arrogance made victory assured.  I can't let what he tried to do make me 
angry, and I'd make a mistake, Ranma reminded himself as he suppressed a 
shudder.  He stared at the boy, trying to keep his emotions in control, and 
his face as expressionless as Rei's.
     "You _are_ going to tell me," Ranma said as he slowly tore the cast 
iron skillet into pieces, each 'ping' of metal accenting a word, "It is 
merely a matter of time."
     The boy's eyes rolled up in his head and his entire body sagged.
     "Crap!  Now I have to wait for him to wake up," Ranma cursed.
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     "Nabiki!"  Ritsuko charged out of the darkness straight at the creature 
and unloaded the shotgun right into the back of its head at powder burn 
range.  A second shot finished it off when it began to turn after taking the 
first round.  Well, at least _these_ work with regular shells, although it 
takes two not one, she thought.  She knelt down to Nabiki, who was a mess. 
The bone sticking out of her leg worried Ritsuko most, but both of the 
girl's hands were bloody as well.  The other blood stains and tears on her 
clothes were not as apparently life threatening.
     "Here," Nabiki said as she handed her Le Mat, butt first, to Madison, 
as Ritsuko applied a tourniquet, "It's empty, has been a while.  Jeff gave 
me a box of ammo, used it all, plus my two speedloaders and the ten rounds I 
started with."  Nabiki's head lolled as she gasped out her emotionless 
report, "He had two boxes, plus his usual load out, you see the problem."
     "Oh no," Ritsuko said, "You said there were sixty of them."
     "That's what we saw," Madison said.
     "What's the problem?" Sergeant Armstead asked, "You talk like it's the 
end of the world."
     "50 rounds in the box, three boxes, 30 rounds Nabiki was carrying, four 
clips plus one up the pipe Jeff was carrying," Ritsuko said, "209 out of the 
240 needed, we got three so it's only 228, that's still short."
     "I didn't get all of them with just four shots, I missed occasionally," 
Nabiki admitted, the rescue leaving her drunk with fatigue.
     "So unless we catch up, he's going to run out of bullets before he runs 
out of those things," Madison said, earning a glare from Ritsuko.
     "Beating them up hand-to-hand didn't get me anywhere," Nabiki admitted 
drunkenly, "Right now, I'd like to get these wounds treated.  Ritsuko, the 
arrogant - gentleman - led them away, they followed him in favor of anything 
else."
     "So he's drawing them away from everybody else," Ritsuko turned away 
and cursed in Japanese, "Dammit!  That's not what he's supposed to be 
doing!"
     "Tell him that," Nabiki said, "He led the last one into a killing zone 
and blew it up with a couple dozen tons of explosives.  I think he's hoping 
to do the same."
     "We don't happen to have a battleship handy," Madison admitted.
     "But there is an air wing at Roswell," Nabiki brightened, then fell 
back.  A medic gave her a syrette of morphine, made a note on her forehead 
with a marker. "'S not an 'F' is it?" she asked worriedly.  The medic shook 
his head 'no'.
     "They can't get into the air until the morning," Ritsuko told her as 
she helped the stretcher bearers put Nabiki on a blanket, "We already 
thought of that."
     "Nightfighters," Nabiki said as they lifted her by the blanket she lay 
on, "Let their radar see if they can pick the things up."
     "Corporal," Ritsuko barked to the radio operator.  Once she had the 
handset she continued, "Colonel - "
     "Chambers" the corporal offered.
     "- Chambers, can you contact the Air Force group at Roswell and have 
them send their nightfighters out to help with the search?"
     "No, but I will," came the reply.
     "We have a pilot casualty, we'll be sending her back to get treatment." 
Ritsuko watched them lower Nabiki onto the stretcher, then wrap the blanket 
around her.  The blood from her wounds soaked through the blanket almost 
instantly.  Get a grip, Ritsuko reminded herself, Screaming with rage won't 
help Nabiki, Jeff, or the people who know their jobs, and know the 
importance of their jobs!
     "We'll have transport available as soon as she gets here," Chambers 
replied.
     "Go," Ritsuko told the stretcher party and the escorting squad, as soon 
as she'd given the leader Jeff's shotgun, "How much .45 ammo do we have?" 
Ritsuko asked the remnants of the platoon.
     They came up with 400 rounds.  Ritsuko and Madison split the load 
between them.
     "If Jeff's pistol is still working," Madison said, "It should have full 
effect."
     "I think the clips are compatible with standard Government .45 clips," 
Ritsuko told them as she headed out.  Now what? she wondered, Am I strong 
enough to kill one hand-to-hand if it comes to that?  Why are you heading 
out?  Why not fort up somewhere and wait until help comes?  You two drew 
them away from the main body, but too far means no chance for rescue.  What 
is it you two had in mind?
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Home Where They Must Take You In
     Asuka knew a seduction when she saw one.  Kaji fooled me for so long 
because he was very good, she thought as she accepted the tea offered, He 
could make himself believe the person was important.  Once you could fake 
sincerity, the rest was easy.  That, and I was lonely . . . maybe too 
lonely.  I'm not that lonely anymore.  However, I _am_ curious, all these 
girls running the school.  It was an open joke at the old school, then they 
were part of Ice Princess's plans.  These girls are neither, they control 
everything and _nobody_ raises a fuss.
     "Connections . . . are the most important things," Usagi offered her 
cream, not milk, and sugar as they sat in the dining room of the Tomoe 
house.
     Asuka accepted the cream, not the sugar.  Asuka glanced at Erin, who 
was in the living room with Usagi's mother.  The fancy dress I understand, 
the white gloves are a little extreme, she thought, But I do want to get to 
the bottom of this.  Something about all of this gives me the creeps.  As 
though some ill-defined threat looms on the horizon.  Wondergirl urged me 
not to go, that was shocking enough, then I explained my reasons, Wondergirl 
accepted and went away.  I don't know which worried me more, that she 
accepted my reasoning, or she argued in the first place.  _Something's_ 
gotten into her, since Spineless went into his coma.
     I do wish I'd brought somebody else, she thought quietly.  "Perhaps I 
should have brought Ranko with me," Asuka said with a smile, "She's such a 
charming young lady, at least when there are no boys around.  I think she 
believes she has to be more of a boy than the boys, so tragic really."  Like 
throwing a horse turd in a barrel of wine, Asuka thought of Usagi's reaction 
to her suggestion.
     "Connections decide who is promoted, who gets hired, who succeeds.  You 
understand," Usagi tried to continue as if Asuka hadn't spoken.
     "Of course," Asuka said.  Like a recording, or a religious service, 
can't break the pattern, Asuka thought.  "I had always understood that Japan 
considered connections with outsiders . . . perverse, or distasteful," Asuka 
replied as she appeared to sip her tea.
     "There is a certain reticence," Usagi answered, sipping her own tea, 
"But considering the unification, or perhaps globalization of the world and 
interests, it is important to make connections with those you might not have 
previously considered.  You do intend to return to Germany when the war is 
over?"
     The girl sounds almost hopeful, Asuka thought.  "The opportunities 
available will dictate that.  German firms may want someone who can speak 
the language and knows the ins and outs of the culture.  As well as 
engineering skills.  There may be Japanese firms who expand into Germany. 
The same applies."  If you think I'd really work for a pack of two-faced, 
head-bobbing, ever-smiling . . .  Asuka thought through a saccharine smile, 
You've got another think coming.
     "Then we are agreed," Usagi said with an equally happy smile.
     There is something not quite right about that girl's eyes, Asuka 
thought as she smiled, Not just how they look, but how they look _at_ 
things.  "In principle," Asuka agreed to be sociable, "But details are 
always the thing that hold things up."
     "Oh, of course," Usagi said enthusiastically, "I guess that's what 
these kinds of meetings are necessary for.  We all have to be sure that 
we're 'the right sort'.  Dealing with people who don't stand up for 
themselves, who are afraid of new experiences, can be . . . tedious."
     First flash of real anger, Asuka thought, Again, the eyes aren't right. 
"So you have met Katsuragi Misato."
     "Your - "  Usagi gave a knowing smile.  "Commander?  No, I've heard 
about her, good and bad things.  They do say she's a . . . free spirit." 
Usagi smiled sympathetically.
     "Oh, she's free all right," Asuka agreed.  Nobody would pay for it, or 
take it home, Asuka thought, but kept smiling.  "She does perhaps, not keep 
up with her appearance in private, or a distinct lack of pride I would say."
     "Regrettable," Usagi agreed, "Pride is a fine balance, too much makes 
one foolish, too little and one is a coward, no better than a beast in the 
field."
     That's Misato, every day is mating season, Asuka thought, as she nodded 
sagely, Of course, drowning yourself in booze helps, someone who does that 
is as good as dead anyway.  And this little girl knows enough to push my 
buttons, either she's got a spy network to rival Ice Princess's, or a skill 
to match Kaji's, or some combination of the two.  Congratulations, but I'm 
back on my guard, you overcommitted.  Misato is a military genius and would 
be the dream of any teenager to have as a guardian.  Not that it's true in 
_any_ part, but it _is_ the common mythology, you shouldn't know any 
different.  "You've given me much to consider," Asuka said in a friendly 
tone, setting her tea aside, "I hope I have done the same for you, I do 
enjoy dealing with someone who . . . speaks my language, if you take my 
meaning."
     "Oh, I do, I do indeed."  Usagi stood, clasping Asuka's hands. 
"Although, I'm sure our next meeting will include a more free exchange of 
ideas," Usagi told Asuka.
     "Thank you for the tea and conversation."  Asuka stood to take her 
leave.
     "Of course.  Do you play chess by any chance?"
     "No, I'm sorry.  I never could understand why all the restrictive 
rules.  Draughts, or as the Americans call it checkers, is a more 
interesting diversion," Asuka said, "Enticing an opponent into making a 
mistake that lets you win the game in one stroke.  Much more entertaining."
     "I hadn't considered that," Usagi said, posing and being cutely 
confused, "I thought it was a children's game."
     "All games can be children's games, and all games can be games for 
experts.  'The blame is not within our stars, but in ourselves.'"
     "So true."  Usagi smiled cutely again.  Asuka thanked God for her 
immunity.
     Asuka left.  Erin fell in behind her before they left the house.
     "Okay," Asuka said, "Don't play silent and inscrutable.  I get that 
from my `fellow pilots`."
     "Not here," Erin told her in German.
     Asuka moved out smartly, she saw Wondergirl detach herself from the 
shadows once they were clear of the house.  Okay, you followed, what would 
you do if help was needed? she wondered, Like the thing that pursued me 
through the Dreamlands, why do you chase after me here as well.  I've never 
been `nice` to you, or your `beloved`.  So why follow me?  Half the time I 
want to kick you down the stairs just to have you actually make some noise 
that hasn't been crafted and polished for ten minutes.
     "There was something wrong there," Erin told Asuka as Wondergirl fell 
in behind, close enough to be part of the conversation, "Something, I'd 
guess that woman is terribly afraid of something."
     "With those daughters, she has every right to be afraid," Asuka agreed. 
She noted that the sounds beyond their little circle seemed muted and 
distorted, as if underwater and far away.  She glanced around covertly, but 
ignored it.  I'm imagining things, she thought.
     "You should not return there," Rei said.
     "You're worried about me, Wondergirl.  I'm touched, but I can take care 
of myself.  Unless you know what it is, I'm going to keep looking into it."
     "They are . . . wrong," Wondergirl told her.  Asuka stopped and stared 
at her.
     Wondergirl seems frustrated by her inability to . . . what? Asuka 
wondered of her usually quiet fellow pilot, Her inability to communicate 
her - concerns, _fears_?_  What?  "Can you be any more vague?  We need 
something concrete and quantifiable.  Unless you can give me details, I'm 
going to keep this up.  I can take care of myself."
     "No," Wondergirl said, "You can't."
     She actually does seem worried, Asuka thought, Strange.  "Well in case 
you didn't notice, they want nothing to do with you, or with she-Horseface, 
and they keep wondering if Spineless and he-Horseface are going to come 
charging in and be either too much or not enough of what they're looking 
for.  One interesting thing, none of them, not one ever mentions either Ice 
Princess or Raccoon, not in passing, not directly, not even alluding to 
them, did you notice that Wondergirl?"
     Wondergirl blinked and cocked her head.  "No, I had not," Wondergirl 
admitted, she cocked her head in the opposite direction and stared at Asuka 
with an odd expression.
     "So that leaves me," Asuka said firmly.  I'm not about to admit to Erin 
or Wondergirl how creepy Usagi seemed to me, Asuka thought, stifled the urge 
to reach over and tousle Wondergirl's hair, Now that they're creeping out 
Wondergirl by remote control . . . I still have a few tricks I learned as 
the Meliorist.  I think I may have to fully reactivate Raccoon and Ice 
Princess's eyes and ears to seek out the facts I need.  They could be 
harmless, but I am not going to bet on that.
----------------------------------------
     "So Tomoe."  Usagi let her sister out of the closet where she'd watched 
the entire conversation.
     Tomoe cogitated a moment.  "Risky, if you can bring her around, we'll 
have a powerful ally, if not . . . it will cause complications."  She 
shrugged.
     "You sound jealous," Usagi accused.
     Tomoe frowned at Usagi.  "I'm not afraid she'll be a powerful aide to 
the Goddess, I'm not afraid she'll be more powerful than I am.  I am - 
concerned - about failure."  Tomoe put her hands on her hips and stared back 
at Usagi.
     Usagi turned to Tomoe.  "My question was about what you thought of her 
potential, you are supposed to be the expert.  Or is that just luck?"
     "I would _advise_ breaking this off.  We can't trust her," Tomoe said 
through gritted teeth.
     "And let her poke around our business?" Usagi asked seriously.
     "There are ways of dealing with her," Tomoe said, "Two or three more 
days at most, and we'll be ready.  Maybe we should allow Yuki's plan to go 
forward, with or without our blessing."
     "True," Usagi said and smiled.
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     He heard them, felt them, three.  Spread your spirit out over a large 
area, Jeff thought, They never figured you could _hide_ using this 
technique, because it makes finding someone too easy, notwithstanding that 
it made localizing them completely impossible.  He looked into the fabric of 
his hat which covered his face, while dirt and loose rocks buried him in the 
walls of the arroyo.  Passing, searching, but passing,  he thought, These 
aren't like the first.  I should have killed _them_ hand to hand, and 
absorbed them, and incidentally, saved my ammunition.  He considered his 
dwindling supply.  They've gotten too smart too fast for that.  Damn my leg 
hurts, what are they using? he thought and tried to ignore the aches he'd 
received in the fighting, They resist healing and do they _hurt_!_  I 
shouldn't have assumed that one was a straggler, it was bait.  I should have 
realized, because they are the Brothers of Chaugnar Faugn, servants and 
lesser versions of the one I `ate`.  I can remember the original's rage at 
their rebellion, but Chaugnar Faugn never was strong enough to destroy them 
all.  He returned from memories that weren't his, and considered his current 
enemies, I suspect they are trying to avoid their `Eldest` Brother's curse, 
that he would destroy them all, starting with the 'youngest' and the 
inferior, once the White Disciple came.  I wonder if that's me?
     I feel like Joseph, except I don't think my `brothers` will let me go, 
he thought as he waited for them to complete their fruitless search and move 
off, there were none behind them.
     He unburied himself, pulling his hat off his face and grimacing at the 
dirty mass of wounds on his leg and arm where their weapons had caught him. 
The leg wound still oozed blood.  No idea why neither healing nor my 
shoggoth-stolen abilities can close it, he thought, Maybe a special effect 
of their weapon, one shot certainly doesn't have any effect on _them_._  Bet 
the Elder Things would have loved weapons like that to use on their slaves. 
Have to warn Ritsuko . . . when I see her.
     He sighted on the rearmost of the trio and fired rapidly four times, 
his target stumbled and fell as he ran off down a tributary of the wash, 
replacing the half empty clip with a full one as he scrambled.  How many of 
you do I have to kill before you give up? he thought as he turned and fired. 
Eight shots, four to a target, eliminated his pursuers.
     They're immortal, why would they be so casual with their lives? he 
wondered as he reloaded the two clips, slid one home then released the slide 
and topped the clip up.  He looked at the empty box.  I'm almost out of 
ammunition and I doubt going hand-to-hand, or hand-to-trunk and claw, is a 
winning proposition at this point.  He climbed out of the wash and proceeded 
over the desert floor.  Enough moon to see by, he thought, Enough moon to be 
seen by.
----------------------------------------
     Nabiki let them load her stretcher into the hearse.  Bad joke if there 
ever was one.  I guess this is the best they've got, and Nabiki Tendo 
desires and deserves the best, she thought, trying to avoid laughing at the 
lame joke, because it hurt too much, Why am I worried about him?  He made 
his decision, he should have to live with it.  She looked at the EVA and the 
teams surrounding each of the ruined entry plugs.  All I want to do is get 
out there and make those bastards _pay_ for what they've done.  But not 
_just_ what they've done to me, she thought as she lay back, But what they 
did to all the others too.  But he's the one who's sure he's going to lose 
me, but _I'm_ the one being evacuated and he's by himself out there.  Or is 
it that I don't want him to die until we hash this out, I was never able to 
explain anything to mother before she died, too much left unsaid, too much I 
didn't know what to do about.  She wanted to cover her face with her hands, 
so no one would see her cry from rage, pain and worry.  But I'd mess up the 
IV's, she thought of the bottles of blood pouring into her, I wish they had 
given me more morphine, side effect of a Nerima constitution: pain killers 
only make you loopy and weepy, they don't kill the pain a whit!
     She chuckled, then groaned as they closed the door.  "I've gotten more 
beaten up in a few months here, than in five years in Nerima, only my 
mother's death compares with what I've gone through in the last few weeks," 
she complained in Japanese to the empty confines of the hearse, "It isn't 
right and it isn't fair.  If I meet `my angel` again, I'll beat her 
senseless if she doesn't answer _all_ my questions.  Nobody plays me for the 
fool and gets away with it, not the Inspector and not some angel."
     She closed her eyes and enjoyed the hearse's smooth ride over the rough 
roads.  "Hope they get me fixed up soon," she said, "I _hate_ being hurt and 
helpless, somebody is going to pay dearly for this!"
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     She had felt them.  Six of them, Rei thought, It is ironic that 
Belldandy has found herself at the place the trap will close.  She sought to 
chasten me, no doubt.  How will she resist?  Or is she just here to prevent 
me from using my full abilities?  Rei watched as the six large boys 
surrounded the two of them.  Odd, they do not seem to be the same as the 
cultists, they . . . feel different, she thought.  She narrowed her eyes and 
waited, analyzing and absorbing all the data.
     "Rei Ayanami," the largest of the six said dully.
     "Yes, I am me," Rei said.  I am not the fighter the Fourth is, but I 
can fight adequately, she thought.  "She is not with me," Rei said as she 
pointed at Belldandy.  It is the truth, but it should cause them to include 
her as a target, Rei thought, I have learned much from the Fourth, perhaps 
he is not _completely_ useless.  Better they attack me, than Mein 
Grossfeldmarschall, now she will have the proof she requires.  I am pleased. 
It will also be enjoyable watching the `goddess` deal with those who do not 
seek the light as she believes all do, that is even _more_ pleasing.
     "Ain't that sweet, protecting her friend," one boy said with the same 
curious lack of expression, "We won't beat you up, we'll just have some 
fun."
     No grin, Rei thought, That would be standard, to display their belief 
in their own power, and contempt for their enemy's power.  "They are 
planning to rape you," Rei told Belldandy, "Repeatedly, perhaps until you 
die of it."  I should not enjoy this, she told herself as she took in 
Belldandy's horrified expression, But it is the truth, and she still does 
not believe this can happen.  Not to _her_._  Humanity _must_ survive, your 
foolish rules cannot be allowed to prevent that.  _I_ will not allow your 
foolish restrictions on me to prevent it.  It is against the Commander's 
plan.  It is against common sense, it is against what I desire for myself, 
and for all the other pilots, she thought darkly, If you do not understand. 
I will allow humans to punish you for it.
     "You are in the battle," Rei told her another truth, "Whether you wish 
to be or not.  Are you prepared to inflict or receive pain?"
     The goddess looked from face to blankly, leering face, searching for 
something she was unlikely to find.
     I will not use my full abilities to defend her, Rei thought, Unless she 
requests it.  Mein Grossfeldmarschall has counseled that when you have the 
enemy's `full attention` you make the rules.  From the Fourth's discomfort 
with that assertion, I suspect she did not relate the original quote.  Rei 
paid no attention to the angels soft words, on humans they would have been 
the right words.  But these are not human, except in appearance, Rei 
realized, Why can she not see that?
     Belldandy went down in a heap from the boy's first punch, she looked up 
at the looming figure with utter surprise, as if the impossible had 
happened.  Rei waited, watching Belldandy for some sign that attacking, in 
Belldandy's defense, was permissible.
     "This one likes to watch," one of the boys said, again 
expressionlessly, as he tried to stomp down on the angel, "We'll make it 
good to watch."
     Rei watched another boy aim a kick at Belldandy, the angel rolled out 
of the way, and kept rolling until she was out of immediate range.  Rei 
allowed herself a brief smirk.  One of her Heavenly distinction is 
ill-equipped to deal with hostile humans, she thought as she remembered the 
points and methods to strike, that the Fourth and Mein Grossfeldmarschall 
had drilled her on.  "This will not hurt me as much as it will hurt you," 
Rei told them, giving them a chance to escape, as she'd been instructed, 
"Flee."
     Rei moved, not using her full strength, but using her full speed and 
precision.  Striking hard at the points instructed, the points that would 
disable to prevent pursuit.  She finished and jogged in her bare feet to her 
apartment to get new shoes.
     Did the angel learn _her_ lesson? Rei wondered as the buildings sped 
by, That humans can be evil.  She believes it is not so, I know that is a 
delusion.


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