Subject: [FFML] [FFML][A!MG] Burned Insecurities
From: "Brad" <bn006j@mail.rochester.edu>
Date: 1/26/2002, 2:05 AM
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Disclaimer: Oh!/Ah! My Goddess, Keiichi Morisato, Belldandy, Skuld, and Urd are property of Kosuke Fujishima. This work is merely my tribute to Fujishima-san for creating such a wonderful series.

 

 

Burned Insecurity by Dezz

 

 

                        With an audible click, the alarm switched on. However, there was no annoying beeping or obnoxious radio morning show to be heard, as is wont with most wake-up alarms. Several moments of silence passed. Suddenly, a little hatch opened in the top of the 'alarm'. With a little pop, a small, metal sphere launched into the air from the hatch. It flew through the air before gravity started to pull the ball back towards the ground as it sailed towards odd shaped lump of covers located in the futon across the room. Its trajectory was perfect. What else would you expect from something constructed by a mechanical genius? With a sharp ping, the ball bounced off of the lump's 'head', landing softly on the futon. With a low groan, the mass of blankets stirred. Slowly kicking the covers off of himself, the lump turned man wondered what the hell hit him. He sleepily scanned the room, looking for a possible intruder. Seeing nothing, he was about to get back under the covers and return to a warm sleep when he noticed a glint in the corner of his eye. Reaching down, he picked the object up and brought it up to his face for a closer inspection. Blinking groggily, his eyes slowly started to focus in on the object that he held. Realization quickly brought him out of his state of half-consciousness as fear etched itself all over the sleepy look in his face. 

 

"Oh shit." Keiichi managed to say before the Skuld bomb exploded.

 

***

 

            "I never should have accepted Skuld's 'gift'." thought Keiichi as he cleaned up the wreckage of his room. His thoughts went back to the previous night. A sweetly smiling Skuld hands Keiichi and Urd two small, grey boxes. 

 

            "They'll wake you up in the morning without fail. Better than any alarm clock without the annoying buzzing."

 

            "Gee Skuld, thanks. I don't know what to say." Said Keiichi.

            

            "Way to go, kiddo." Urd managed to say. Urd must have already started hitting the Sake judging by the slurring, thought Keiichi.

 

 

            Keiichi cursed himself for his own stupidity. 

            "I should have realized she was up to something. The only things Skuld ever gives Urd are either a bomb to the face or Banpei in psycho-attack mode. At least I can take comfort in knowing that Urd can look forward to the same wake-up call." He thought.

 

            Keiichi softly chuckled as he pictured Urd storming towards Skuld's room with bolts of lightning crackling at her fingertips, not to mention singed hair. That thought put him in a slightly better mood as he swept up a small pile of debris into a dustpan. Something in the pile suddenly caught his attention. Bending down, Keiichi picked the object up. It was the remains of a small picture. The frame was in pieces, obviously destroyed by the small explosive. The picture itself had some charred edges but otherwise remained almost perfectly intact. It was a simple picture depicting Belldandy standing in the kitchen. Her hair was up in a long ponytail, not exactly an unusual look for her. She was wearing a plain yellow housedress and white blouse. She had a happy look on her face. Her eyes were closed and a small smile played across her lips. Keiichi thought she looked absolutely stunning in this picture. Making his way over to the futon, Keiichi plopped down and continued to stare at the picture. 

 

           His eyes lingered on the image of the one he loved. He knew every line to her face even though he rarely touched it. He knew how her eyes sparkled when she knew he was happy. Her cheeks always took on a slight tinge whenever he complimented her on her cooking. Her loved how her bangs framed her face, they often got in her eyes when she went swimming. Keiichi knew how her eyes would be filled with worry whenever she became concerned about something. Her mouth would curl into a tiny frown whenever she became upset. Her tears rolled down her cheeks in torrents whenever she was sad, but even then she was no less beautiful. 

 

            "If I was only able to remember one image of Belldandy, this would have to be it. This is Belldandy in her truest form. She is gentle happiness that is not extravagant. She seems so innocent in this picture, like she hasn't a single responsibility in the world. If I didn't know who she was, I never would have guessed that she is one of the most powerful goddesses in the heavens.", thought Keiichi. That last thought reverberated throughout his mind. 

 

            "She's an immortal goddess. She wields the powers of the cosmos, has the ability to grant your heart's desires, and has free reign across the heavens. Combine that with the fact that she is incredibly gorgeous and has a personality that could melt a solid block of ice. What do I have? I sit around and play with cars and bikes all day. I am barely passing my classes and have to constantly work just so we can get by. How did someone like me end up with someone like Belldandy? The contract? That was all a fluke. I didn't realize what I was doing. The best thing that happened to me was because of a fluke. It was nothing but a mistake.", he thought.

 

            Keiichi once again brought his attention back to the photograph of Belldandy. 

 

            "This was taken shortly after that incident with the bug ports. That was one of the most difficult periods of my life. I almost lost Bell. She would have returned to the heavens for good if it wasn't for Skuld and Urd. I don't know what I would do if she ever went back and left me here. What if they needed her back to do something? She might not be able to return for who knows how long. Monthes? Years? Sure, time means nothing to her. She's immortal after all. I'm not on the other hand. My lifetime can pass before her in the blink of an eye."

 

            Sighing to himself, Keiichi got up and resumed his cleaning still clutching the photo of Bell.

 

            "Sure, she says that she loves me. She says that she'll always be by my side. I believe her.right? Of course I do! The possibility of her suddenly leaving always haunts me though. Some higher power can come by and take her away and what can I do to stop it?" Keiichi bitterly thought to himself.

 

            A loud boom shook the house, followed by screaming from Urd's room. 

 

            "Better go make sure that she doesn't take out half the temple again." Keiichi thought as he put down his broom and left the room.

 

            The photograph, dropped by Keiichi after the explosion surprised him, slowly drifted downwards. It swayed back and forth as it lazily spun downwards. It finally landed facedown in the trash can.

 

 

Author's Note: Sorry if this fic depressed/offended/angered anybody. Lately, schoolwork has just been really frustrating. I got the idea for this fic after working for 30+ hours in a computer lab over the course of 3 days. At first, I tried writing the fic in first person view but I completely took Keiichi OOC and made him act too much the way I felt. I tried including Belldandy but I made her look extremely horrible so I decided to keep her appearance at a minimum. On a side note, I'm a huge fan of the whole Keiichi/Belldandy romance. My next fic will probably be a return to something more WAFFy, prolly a follow-up to "Tea Leaves" or something like that. Comments and Criticism are most welcome. Feel free to tear the fic apart, as long as it's constructive. *grin* I can be reached at bn006j@mail.rochester.edu. Ja n�.  





The greatness of one's sorrow when parting is the evidence of the deepness of one's love, so if one fears sadness, one wouldn't be able to love anything.


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