The Endurance of a Dream
Chapter 2 in The Death of the Void
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Standard disclaimer- I don't own these characters, Miss Naoko does. This is the second chapter I've revised because I've gotten
some feedback and building up to new chapters. All C&C is welcome.
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Usagi slowly sat on the blue comforter with the bunnies and
stars that once had brought her great joy, and she thought.
Thinking about how Kami has a sick sense of humor and it always
seemed to glance in her direction. Like today.

*~*~*~*

Usagi had had to leave the senshi meeting early, due to the fact
of an appointment at a new doctor, Dr. Ono Tofu. Usagi hadn't
gotten very far when she realized she had forgot her purse in the
temple. She cursed under her breath and dashed back, heels clicking
on the pavement.

When she got back, she paused before entering, to make sure she at
least seemed presentable, it was after all her birthday today. As
she was brushing the dust off her dress, Usagi heard some things no
one deserves to hear about herself. Especially from their friends!

Rei and Mamoru were sat on a low couch, each re-inventing the memory
of touch with each other's bodies and locking in a deep, throat
scorching kiss. The senshi were have a heated debate on her faults
and what kind of leader she was, completely leaving out Usagi's good
points. Except that every now and then, Makoto would try to interject
something, and then sit back as she was forcefully pushed down.

'Minna-chan?' she whispered. Makoto heard that barest whisper and
motioned to the senshi. They all turned in time to see Usagi rush
down the street crying her eyes out, not her usual bawling, but real,
bitter tears that seemed to rip apart her soul inside.

It was at that moment that Haruka walked in. "Minna-san! Did you know
today is Usagi's birthday?"

*~*~*~*~*

Usagi chided herself for thinking about it again. She had been ignoring
the calls of the senshi for two days now and refused to see them when
they came to the door. She explained to her mom she was sick and didn't
go to school.

Usagi reached in her bottom drawer and carefully sorted through the
stationary until she came across a haphazard stack of muted blues.
Drawing them up on her lap, Usagi now knew why she had bought this
stationary so long ago. Little blue moons and silver stars winked up
at her on the stationary as a waft of her French perfume, Amor, reached
her nose.

Pulling out a pen, Usagi sat at her vanity and started to write each
of the five letters, not noticing or caring anymore, when a tear fell
off her pale face onto the letter she was writing.

~*~*~*~

When she was done, Usagi took up her brooch and transformed into
Eternal Sailor Moon. As her alternate self, she took a deep breath and
called up the wellspring of powers lying deep in her. Then, eyes
snapping open, a burst of light and she teleported to Minako's room,
leaving a letter on her dresser. Mina-chan was the leader of the senshi
when Sailor Moon wasn't in residence.

Then, pulling up more power, she re-appeared in a shower of light
at Mamoru' s apartment.

Usagi wasn't sure she could face his bedroom yet, knowing what she
would find within.

Taking a deep breath and steeling herself, she slipped into Mamoru's
bedroom.

The tears were fast in coming and few in number as she watched with
a sort of horrid fascination when Rei and Mamoru reached their climax
and fell asleep instantly, the clash of energies leaving them
exhausted. Their sweaty bodies glistened in the soft light of a
single flickering candle. As she stared at it with hard eyes, it
disappeared, not even a trail of smoke to mark it's exit.

Coldly staring at the two lying in bed, Usagi decided her grieving
was over for the two who had caused these emotions in her rise up.
Hatred and vengeance bubbled up deep inside her as she looked on the
room with a sort of detachment.

Usagi didn't leave a letter at the Outer's house due to the fact that
Setsuna would sense the moment of her death and wake them.

Teleporting back to her room, she willed everything in the house to
sleep, all obeying a Queen's touch. For Usagi was a Queen now, she
had lived the prophecy foretold in the days before the line of
Serenity was formed.

No one knew of these powers or the prophecy, let them think her a
weak, pathetic loser, she thought with a surprising amount of
tranquillity. Usagi had come to a conclusion about herself, her
life, and her future. Now, she would live, or die, with the
repercussions. Demo, Usagi wasn't afraid, she knew, and knowledge
was everything in the universe.

Though, before the final stage of her plan could be put through,
she had one final stop.

~*~*~*~

Softly landing in an apartment much like the one she visited earlier,
Usagi padded to a certain door at the end of a very familiar hall.
Carefully turning the knob, Usagi walked into a sparsely furnished
room.

Taking in the surroundings, her eyes lit upon the figure tossing and
turning on the bed in the midst of a nightmare. Usagi smiled, Seiya
always did have an unusual bond with her.

Looking down on his sleeping face, Usagi was glad that being Queen
entitled her to a few privileges. Namely being the knowledge of the
universe. Usagi knew how the universe was created, the balance of
forces all acting on the same spot in a nameless void. The Void and
Chaos then clashed and twined, creating female and male.

Naturally, each side of these halves opposed each other and refused to
blend like they once were. One crafty force though, found a way to
combine them at least a short while and the force created Earth in the
midst of chunks of dead rock.

Enticing Yin and Yang to the planet, the force later known as Fate
placed a gaes on them. Both would grow into maturity from the womb
of a woman. The male would then spend his life searching for the
other half of his soul, both male and female creations of the two
Great Ones. Woman being Void and man Chaos. Together they created the
Dance.

Usagi knew this and she knew the threads of the Void. In a way, she
was the original Void re-incarnated. Fate hovered at Her shoulder and
Chaos stood to her right side. Only Chaos re-incarnated could court
her, and only Chaos could love her, truly, fully, completely.

Usagi thought Mamoru was Chaos re-incarnate until she had met Seiya.
That, she mused, was probably when she reached the first insight and
began the path to Queen. The prophecy had come to her in a dream,
telling her that Seiya had trials to face and obstacles to pass.

Usagi knew.

So she left the letter dresser and for a brief moment of time, she
felt almost happy knowing that her death would result in lasting
happiness. It almost seemed fitting somehow, her death birthing her
second life. Usagi was at peace when she looked at his face. She knew
what she had to do, making the ultimate sacrifice for the future to be
brought to full fruition.

Usagi kissed Seiya passionately on the lips. The Law said she remained
virgin in all ways until Chaos came and consummated the ancient pact.
Though for now, she ignored the Law and wrapped Seiya in ivory arms.
The sleep spell playing at his mind, Usagi commenced activation and
stepped back. A slight smile edged his lips as he fell into deep
sleep, faint memories of ancient kisses fogging his mind.

Usagi sighed, wishing for it all to be over with so she could lay in
her consort's arms again.

Lifting a delicate hand, Usagi snagged a reality thread and landed
back in her bedroom.

Conjuring up the ancient sword of times long past, she closed her
eyes and held up both hands in a gesture close to someone begging
supplication for an evil deed. "Heed me now forces that birthed me,
ancient elements of light and dark, the Prophecy is coming to a close,
heed me now and activate the cycle once more!"

Eyes snapping open, she watched steadily as the room glowed briefly with
all the colors of darkness and light. A ebony sword dappled with silver
threads and inset sapphires appeared shimmering in the air by her chest.

Dual voices echoed in the air. "What do you give in return, Child of
Our Blood?"

The voice was everywhere, yet nowhere. "I give you life energy! I
fulfill the ancient Prophecy telling of the Coming!" she screamed.

"Then it will be done!" A whirlwind centered on her as the sword sucked
the air into itself, solidifying into this dimension.

Concentrating the blade up and the night's emotions and revelations
echoed in her fuzzy mind. Usagi was tired.so tired.

Holding up the blade, tip shining, she prepared for the plunge.

Luna stirred, the foggy sleep was difficult to surface from. Lightning
pulsed at the top of the misty ocean she had been thrown into, waking
Luna up with a jolt. Feeling the gathering of energy, she knew, and
Luna also knew she couldn't stop it. The knowledge ached inside her
heart as she prepared to at least try.

Usagi held the blade above her heart and called upon the forces inside.

Then her face hardened and she plunged the blade straight into her body,
flesh parting like Usagi's ruby stained lips. The bloody wine of life
gushed forth from the lips of a queen.

Usagi managed a small smile at Luna and finished the spell.

The gizunshou shone brightly and disappeared with a white flash.

~*~*~*~*~

"Deepening of the dark, welcome a hunter of the night into your arms,
oh Great Ones who created I, Void, Female, Myself. Myself unto myself.
I leave this confining flesh to be my true self, I.cast this.body upon
the.stones of.humanity.

"Heart. be true.eternally for.Him."

The remnants of power being gathered.

"I LIE IN THE ARMS OF CHAOS HIMSELF! I AM NO ONE'S SLAVE!"

Falling limp, there was a pause in which Luna scampered up to the
unnaturally still body lying in the growing pool of blood. Whimpering
Luna backed away.

~*~*~*~*~

A single blood curling scream could be heard echoing off the silent,
lonely streets of a place that had once been seen as Crystal Tokyo.

--

~Sera Luanma
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