Dear diary,
I guess I should put down my thoughts on my life.
Violent maniac, uncute tomboy, kitchen destroyer and other names are
used to describe me. And, a lot of them are correct. Why?
I think the insanity started when Kuno made that speech at the begining
of the year. The boy who can beat me in combat can date me. Sheesh.
I became a prize to the boys. And it didn't stop there. I was ignored
by the other girls. I could see them watching from the windows, hoping
that I would someday fail and be beaten by one of the boys. I
complained to Daddy once, but he said that it would make me a better
martial artist. Ha. All it did was make me angry and fustrated. I
had no friends. The only one I could talk to was Dr. Tofu and he's in
love with Kasumi.
Then Ranma came.
Magic. Turning into a girl when he gets splashed with cold water. I
thought I had a friend, but when I saw his real form and was told the
whole story, I kind of lost it. My world view had been shaken. I now
knew that magic existed. In a form he wasn't used to, he was abe to
defeat me in combat. I was scared, he could beat me and Kuno's little
ranting could be fulfilled. The next day, I found out differntly. He
insulted me in front of the whole school. I was seeing red, but also
some relief.
Everytime he insults me, it reminds me that he did insult me in front
of the entire student body.
Nabiki also decided to add in her contributions to the madness my life
was going to become. Seeling pictures of me and Ranma. Revealing to
Kuno of the marriage arrangement between myself and Ranma.
Who does Kuno think he is? He has no right to decide on who I can aor
can't see. I have the feeling that if he had found out about my crush
on Dr. Tofu, he'd be trying to pervent me from seeing him as well.
Kuno and Shampoo sitting in a tree...
Shampoo. What a bitch. She travels all the way to China to kill
Ranma's girl side, just because she lost a single match? Ranma
shouldn't have eaten the food, but that doesn't excuse her of being a
psycopath like that. She tried to kill me when she couldn't find the
pig-tailed girl and then Ranma interferred and now had to deal with
Shampoo trying to marry him. Her laws shouldn't apply here in Japan,
but she won't listen.
I wonder if Shampoo is descended from Happosai. He beats Cologne in a
fight and she marries him.
Shampoo doesn't believe in doors. She just smashes through the wall,
like she own the place.
Heck everyone that is after me or Ranma breaks in. Kodachi attacked me
while I was about to go to sleep. Shampoo snuck into the bath, when
Ranma was taking one. Gosunkugi. Ryoga. Kuno with that stupid bird.
When I want to be assuered of some privacy or quiet time, I have to go
into Nabiki's or Kasumi's room. Our house isn't a prision holding
people against their will and need to be broken out. Just knock on the
front door.
Previous engagements. Picolet and Ukyo. If it wasn't for his curse,
Ranma wouldn't have to deal with Picolet. Why do they always choose
me? Why not Kasumi or Nabiki? Don't I have a choice in what I want?
And not like that choice Mr. Saotome gave Ranma about Ukyo and
Okynamiyaki.
I'm getting kidnapped and harrassed by almost every guy that shows up
nowadays. Maybe I should leave.
Cologne isn't going to take no for an answer. She used a pressure
point against Ranma once. It's Ranma's weakness. Cologne starts
throwing pressure point attacks at him and it will be all over. Those
love pills almost cost me dearly.
I now have to hide my clothes so Happosai doesn't steal them and
Daddy's no use in stopping him. He just kowtows to the old pervert and
let's him get away with doing whatever he wants.
I wonder if I'm trying to hurry my cooking to keep up with the other
girls, since they are all good cooks.
I don't know why Ranma is jealous of P-chan or picks on Ryoga all the
time, but I have the feeling that I won't like the answer to either of
those questions.
I wrote earlier that maybe I should leave, it wouldn't work. Daddy
would send Ranma to find me or have Mr. Saotome to send Ranma. Why
didn't he come himself, when I went to that giant animal forest?
Doesn't he care about me?
I wonder if my constant anger comes from the fact that I can't even
treat my own room as a safe place to go and that I'm always in the
middle of one fight or another. Either as a participant or a prize.
Maybe my treatment of Ranma is bad, but I don't know how to deal with
him. He insults me constantly. He even deliberatley picked a fight
with me right after Kuno bought that first set of pictures. Why did he
keep forcing the issue of trying to get me to fight him?
School's become a joke ever since Principal Kuno returned. Bad hair
cuts, trying to flunk me because I can't swim, posting grades on live
television, and even trying force the entire school to clean the
bathrooms. He calls it discipline. I call him a sadistic idiot who
gets his kicks at seeing kids suffer.
Speaking of discipline. Miss Hinako. The way she just drains a person
of their chi so she can grow or as punishment is creepy. I don't want
her as a step-mother. I want to be myself, not another Kasumi. And if
she marries Daddy, she'll try to force Nabiki and I to become
mini-Kasumi's.
I can't run, I don't want to die, and I can see no end to the insanity.
I hate my life.