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Vier = "four";
Non è possibile = "it's impossible";
Ce n'est pas possible = the same as above;
Nein = "no";
Odiami perchè? = "why do you hate me?";
Warum bist du so = "why are you so"
Espèce de con = "idiot ('kind of cunt', litterally)";
Merde = "shit";
mich verstehst du? = "are you understanding me?";
amore mio = "my love";
dich lieb'ich = "I luv you";
Oui = "yes";
Ja = the same as above;
mein Vater = "my father";
Mädchen = "maiden";
Fräulein = "Ms";
Mein Gott! = "my god!";
Demoiselle = "Miss ('young lady')";
mon amour pour toujours = "my love for always";
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Zankokuna tenshi no youni
shounen yo shinwa ni nare
Aoi
kaze ga ima
mune no doa wo
tataitemo
Watashi dake wo
tada mitsumete
hohoenderu anata
Sotto
fureru mono
motomeru koto ni muchuu de
Unmei sae
mada shiranai
itaikena hitomi
Dakedo itsuka
kizuku deshou
sono senaka ni wa
Haruka mirai mezasu tame no
hane ga aru koto
Zankokuna tenshi no teeze
madobe kara yangate tobidatsu
Hotobashiru atsui patosu de
omoide wo uragiru nara
Kono sora wo daite kangayaku
shounen yo shinwa ni nare
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"And in this
world of
people
there's on-
ly you and I
There ain't nothing
come
between us
in
the end"
["Shadow Dancing" --- by: Andy Gibb]
-- *Vier*? Non è possibile! CE N'EST PAS POSSIBLE! How the hell an
idiot like HIM can be the Fourth Children? Nein! "Someone up there"
_IS_ kidding! I WILL *NOT* STAND IT!
"TO WHOM I GIVE MY HEART"
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Asuka was feeling so disturbed, confused and angry that she nearly
forgot why the hell she had gone *there*. But her opinion and feelings
about the Fourth Children should have the lowest priority --- for the
time being. "Kaji, today you WILL be mine!" --- she repeated to
herself for the thousandth time that day. But the words she shouted
next, looking into his eyes, were these:
-- Baka Kaji! Odiami perchè? Why the hell don't you want *me*? Warum
bist du so... Espèce de con! Damn it! Shit! I *am* damn beautiful, and
I have always wanted you, and you have always known it, and yet... ---
Damn it again! Whenever the subject is my sexual interest in you, you
regard me as a dumb and ignorant baby --- the hell, fuck you! You will
never know how much you have do offended me by acting as if my love
for you simply did not exist! Merde! It couldn't be because of the
stupid opinions and comments from the others --- it is not the style
of a man like you! It's a little too obvious that you have already
dated AND fucked around with _many_ "little girls" like *me*.
Knickers! What the hell did they have that I do not? What the fuck do
you see in someone like _Misato_? And what the fuck have you seen in
them all that you keep refusing to see in me? The fuck, Kaji! --- I
want you to answer me right now! --- mich verstehst du?
Kaji didn't think that Asuka could be --- and *look* --- so deadly
serious. Her eyes were pretty full of anger, and her face was beaming.
Definitely, she did look more beautiful than ever as well. For some
endless seconds, they looked deep into each other's eyes --- she,
impatiently awaiting a decent reply from him; he, carefully choosing
the words he would say, and planning how to do the... "inevitable". At
last, he calmly stood up from his chair, and very firmly laid his
right hand upon the left shoulder of Asuka; her anger and impatience
were instantaneously replaced by a mixture of great gladness and some
fear --- she could do feel her dearest dream was about to come true
finally; inside of her dress, she started to shiver; she blushed, and
her eyes didn't dare to face his eyes when his left hand touched her
face and he began to speak:
-- You are absolutely right, Asuka-chan --- I have to admit it. Gomen
nasai! To tell you the truth, _IF_ it depended entirely on my will, I
would never ignore something pretious like your love for me;
however... I had *no choice at all*.
Asuka *had* to look into his eyes again:
-- Nani?
-- Believe me, it's true! There *was* a very strong reason for me to
refuse to date you, and...
-- ?
-- ... no, Asuka, there is no use in insisting, I will *never* tell
you why I did it.
-- But
-- Listen: probably you would never understand, and, I am sure, if I
showed you the whole truth... you would prefer not to have come to
know it.
-- Kaji... --- she sobbed, pleafully.
After having locked the door, he continued:
-- Asuka-chan... now that you dare to ask for my loving *so*
explicitly... I mean: that reason isn't valid anymore
-- ???
-- So, if you really want me that much... then I will be yours too.
-- Kaji! --- Asuka exclaimed, her heart full of joy.
-- For today only --- he added.
These words disappointed her deeply.
-- Damn it Kaji! Why the hell "only today"? --- Asuka complained.
"Because, bishoujo senshi, very soon I will be dead anyway", Kaji
answered her mentally. Very seriously he replied:
-- The why and wherefore it may last for only one day *does not
matter*. It's none of your business...
-- !
-- ... and, besides, nobody else will ever know that it happened, and
from tomorrow on, you and I will pretend it never happened. This is my
only and final... "offer"... to you. Will you accept it?
--
--
-- Are you serious, Kaji? Do you
*really* mean it?
-- Hai.
"Knickers! If there may be no other way of possessing you, so be it!
Yes, my Kaji, make me your woman for today!" --- Asuka told herself.
Giving him a quite explicit answer, she kissed his mouth as
passionately as possible --- and, for the second time in that month,
she was disappointed by her own heart. His lips and his tongue
*did*
have the taste of the mouth of Shinji... to her deepest disgust. She
was perfectly aware that there was a part of herself that was in love
with Shinji... but she was quite damn afraid of admitting that part
probaly was the truest one in her psyché. Her most desperate effort to
overcome the truth of her soul was just failing, failing
spectacularly... and there was nothing she could do to help it. Oh
well... Anyway, being kissed by the man of her dreams was also making
her feel
*so* fine, and... while that pretious moment lasted, nothing
else mattered. Fifty-four seconds later, Asuka restarted the
conversation:
-- Kaji-chan!... amore mio... dich lieb'ich... --- May I tell you a
secret?
-- Of course you may.
-- A very horrible secret, I mean...
-- More "horrible" than this our one-day love affair? --- he
commented, ironically.
-- Oui.
--
--
-- Ja?
-- Kaji... I wish... I wish that you were... mein Vater... so that I
could love you even more --- Asuka confessed, pretty sure about the
things she learned from life itself.
Unperturbed, Kaji felt like testing Asuka's reactions:
-- You know what, Mädchen...
-- Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
-- ... even Misato wouldn't be able to behave so maturely as you are
doing now.
-- "Even" Misato? ANTA BAKA? "Especially" someone like her, I must
say! And do
*not* call me "virgin" if you really intend to keep your
promise --- you fag!
Seeing her response had been more than appropriate, he could not help
laughing --- and she either.
-- Well. We cannot do it here, Fräulein. Let's go to a better place.
-- But...
-- Yes?
-- A couple of minutes ago, when I walked in this room, you said you
were sooooooooooooooo busy --- Asuka observed with a wink of her left
eye.
-- Presently my job doesn't have maximum priority. Your sexual needs
do --- Kaji stated, making Asuka admire him even more.
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Did it all begin when she kissed Shinji? No --- it all began by the
very day she knew the (in)"famous" Third Children. She should have
known better! The
*real* reason why she decided to share the entry
plug of her Evangelion Unit-02 with Ikari Shinji could not be other
than love. --- There's a thin line between love and hate, as everybody
should always keep in mind, and... actions speak louder than words,
after all. Oh well...
How long had she been having a crush on Kaji? Since she was eight
years old... however, as she believed that a "real man" like Kaji
would never be sexually interested in a "mere" little child, Asuka
"had" to hold back her feelings for him during three more years ---
until the day she "became a woman". From then on, she believed,
everything would be pretty easier to her lusts... "Things are not
always that easy" --- this lesson she learned through the hardest way.
As a sort of compensation for the lack of appropriate response to her
desire, Asuka started to flirt and to date, say, "just for fun" ---
actually, the only way she could stand kissing a boy(yuck!) was by
making believe she was doing it with her beloved Kaji... since
she could not possess the man she really wanted, the trick was so
convenient and easy! So practical and efficient indeed, that one day
she believed that she could do the same with an idiot like Shinji as
well --- but life would prove she was wrong.
Of course she had good reasons to dislike Shinji. He hadn't needed any
type of training to synchronize with his Evangelion Unit-01 --- "it
was not fair!", in her opinion. Besides, in several ways the son of
Ikari Gendou
*was* an idiot --- so, "he didn't deserve to have become
an EVA pilot". Considering these facts, Asuka
*had* to demonstrate
that she
*was* better than Shinji at piloting an Evangelion. However,
she was not. To hurt her pride even more, she
*truly* enjoyed to have
her body touched by his when they were alone together in the entry
plug of her Eva...
No, she should not, could not, and would not admit falling for an
idiot like Ikari Shinji. Then, though beginning to accept that she
really wanted him somehow, she decided to convince herself that her
hate for Shinji was much greater --- and stronger --- than her love
for him. How? In Japan, she hadn't begun to date "just for fun" yet
--- because she didn't think Japanese boys might ever be handsome;
Japanese
*men* might be handsome, and Kaji was the only one she was
interested in. Because she planned to dedicate her loving to Kaji
only, one fine day she forced herself to kiss Shinji. Asuka thought
that she would manage to use Shinji like she used the German boys to
perform her virtual datings with her beloved one. What a not-so-nice
surprise. When she kissed him, for the first time she could not keep
her eyes closed and imagine that she was doing it with Kaji; after
eleven seconds of a tremendous effort to keep the eyes shut, her
eyelids totally refused to obey her conscious will. Worse: the kiss of
Shinji
*did have been* so very special to her --- Asuka had never
before felt the touch of a tongue that tasted so sweet, that really
set her lips on fire, that did make her breasts go harder than ever,
and that drove her pussy throbbing so strong... no, it was not a
coincidence, that was the day her diary read (in Russian): "Baka
Shinji! I hate myself for loving you!". To hurt her foolish pride
again, her eyelids refused to open while she kissed Kaji; her
imagination didn't obey either, and made her feel as though she was
kissing Shinji once more.
And things didn't run quite differently when Kaji sucked her teats,
licked her clit, screwed her pussy and her ass. After four hours of
love, she prayed in silence:
"Mein Gott! I will belong to Ikari Shinji as you wish, but please do
not make it happen so soon, please do not let it happen that soon!"
before starting to fall asleep. Few minutes later, Kaji went very glad
to hear Asuka muttering:
-- Baka Shinji-chan!... Aishiteru...
-- As it should be... Demoiselle --- Kaji thought, but didn't speak.
Asuka would hate to be called "Demoiselle" by Kaji.
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In the end, the Angels got what they wanted. They lost all the battles
against the humans, and yet they won the war. Like perfectly stupid
robots, the oldies from Seele and Ikari Gendou were manipulated by the
One that sent the Angels to this planet; driven insane, they fought
each other for the privilege of annihilating the whole humankind. The
so-called "Instrumentality" was never meant to save the humans after
all; their Creator just got tired of Its old puppets and so made them
destroy one another. That simple...
Shinji and Asuka were allowed to survive the Third Impact not only
because they had never been completely human (no mere human being
would ever be able to pilot an Evangelion --- with or without
training), but also --- and especially --- because they were chosen.
They were not Angels, but their children sure would be. The planet
named Earth now belonged to an ancient and superior species --- again.
Forty-nine sunsets after the end of the humans, Shinji and Asuka
hadn't yet done anything except eating, sleeping, talking, travelling,
and fucking around. When they discovered that they could easily
copulate tens of times a day, they understood that the future of the
world they were given should have nothing at all to do with the past
they once knew and lived. With the help from his mate, Shinji was
becoming smart. Quickly he was turning into an adult, a "real" one,
and to the joy of Asuka, he was also getting not handsome, but
beautiful.
Forty-nine days... They had been alone together for seven entire
weeks, and Shinji still hadn't told Asuka how much he had always loved
and admired her; on the other hand, every night she repeated in her
sleep:
-- Shinji... Shinji-chan... Mon amour pour toujours... Aishiteru.
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Fly
me to the
moon
And let me
play
among the
stars
Let me see what
spring is like
On Ju-
piter and
Mars
In other words
Hold my
hand
In other words
Dar-
ling,
kiss me
Fill
my heart with
song
And let me
sing
forever
more
You are all I
long for
All I wor-
ship and
adore
In other
words
Please
be
true
In other
words
I
love
you
.