Subject: [FFML] (Lemon)BGC Blues 5 : Illusions 2/5
From: Shehulk
Date: 8/7/2000, 8:04 PM
To: ffml@fanfic.com

Title:BGC Blues 5 : Illusions Part 2/5
Author:Shehulk

A Story of Bubblegum Crisis



	

	Kutsuu had kept trying with the drugs. Different combinations, 
higher levels, until Priss had lost touch with everything and there was 
only Arashi's voice to hang onto. She existed in a surreal world that 
had no meaning, but Arashi kept talking to her, kept reassuring her 
that she was not alone. Hours after the last drug had been 
administered; Arashi had managed to filter enough out of Priss' system 
to allow her to fall into an uneasy sleep. She dreamed of Sylia and the 
images that filled her mind were not of her nightmares, but of the real 
Sylia. 

	Eventually though, the discomfort of her position began to 
penetrate the haze of her sleep and she began to wake. Priss opened her 
eyes, realized that the effects of the drugs had faded enough for her 
to think again, and sighed in relief. "Thank God." Only no sound 
emerged from her throat and Priss froze in horror. She tried again and 
again to make any kind of sound, but her voice was gone. 

	= Calm down, Priss. It's all right. You haven't lost your voice. 
Understand? You can still speak.=

	<Have I gone deaf?> She moved slightly and heard the clink of the 
chain holding her. <No, it's my voice! Arashi what's wrong with me?!>

	= Please Priss, calm down. You were hallucinating and beginning 
to babble. I blocked your ability to speak so you wouldn't betray the 
others.=

	<Okay. The drugs are out of my system now so give me my voice 
back.>

	Arashi was silent for a long moment.= I don't think I should do 
that Priss.=

	<What? Arashi... give me back my voice.>

	= Listen to me, Priss. Things are just going to get worse. I'm 
doing what I can but what if you slip and say something before I can 
stop you? I can't restore your voice, Priss.=

	<No! Give back my voice! Please... Arashi... don't do this!>

	Arashi steeled herself against Priss' pleas and concentrated on 
repairing the damage that had been done by the drugs.


?????


	Priss screamed as she came awake, clutching her throat. Sylia's 
arms were around her in an instant and she held her while the silent 
sobs shook Priss' body. "Shh. It's all right Priss, it's just a dream." 
The worry in her voice belied her reassurances. Priss had been haunted 
by her nightmares more than usual, but refused to talk to Sylia about 
it. Afraid that there might be a problem with the implanted memories, 
Sylia realized that she couldn't let Priss brush her concern aside 
again. "Priss?"

	Priss heard her and knew what she wanted. "I know, Sylia, but 
they just don't make any sense."

	"Tell me."

	"I keep dreaming that I'm locked in a small metal room. I'm being 
tortured." Priss shivered as she recalled the blonde haired woman with 
dead eyes. "There's a woman."

	Sylia had to agree with Priss, the dream made no sense. "Is that 
all?"

	Priss shook her head. "Each dream has been different. So weird. 
Like images out of horror movies. Blood and pain all mixed up with this 
hopelessness that I would ever be rescued."

	Not sure what to think, Sylia tightened her hold on Priss. "Do 
you know where I am in the dreams?"

	Priss laughed bitterly. "That's the worst part. Somehow, I know 
that you think I'm dead. That's why I keep thinking that no one is 
going to come for me." She buried her face in Sylia's neck and missed 
the stunned expression that spread over her face. 

	Sylia was beginning to think there might be another reason for 
these dreams. And she didn't know whether to hope she was wrong or pray 
that she was right. 'My God! Could it be possible?' "Why are you being 
tortured?"

	"Oh. They want me to confess to being a Knight Saber and tell 
them who the others are." She rubbed her face and sighed. "Freaky, 
huh?"

	"Hmm." Sylia paused and then asked quietly, "Did you tell her?"

	Priss flinched and Sylia watched her carefully. "No. Actually, 
that was what made this last dream so bad. I couldn't speak."

	"Why not?"

	"Arashi took my voice." 


?????


	Sylia waited until Priss had fallen back to sleep and then got 
out of bed and threw on her robe. She eased out of the bedroom and 
hurried out of the apartment. Three minutes later, she was pounding on 
Mackie's door. <Mackie! Mackie, wake up!>

	Setsu woke him and Mackie tripped his way to the front door to 
let Sylia in. "What's wrong?"

	She pushed past him and began to pace back and forth, as she 
spoke. "I think that Priss might be alive."

	Mackie blinked and shook his head. "Of course she's alive, her 
clone-."

	"No! I mean the real Priss!"

	That startled Mackie into a fully awakened state and he looked at 
Sylia in alarm. "What are you talking about?"

	"Priss... the clone... she's been having dreams, Mackie. Dreams in 
which she's being tortured. Dreams in which we all think that she's 
dead."

	"But how-."

	"I don't know. But what I do know is that if there is even the 
remote chance that she's alive then we have to find her."
	
	Mackie wondered if Sylia realized how insane this all sounded and 
sighed. "All right. I'll tap into a couple of surveillance satellites 
and start looking for Arashi's signal." His tone implied that he 
thought he would be wasting his time, but Sylia didn't care.


?????


	Priss felt the shackle release and knew she was going to hit the 
floor. But she didn't. Kutsuu caught her and guided her over to a small 
cot that the boomers had carried in. Priss felt herself lying down for 
the first time since this nightmare had begun and to her horror, felt 
tears sting her eyes. She blinked them back and summoned a glare at 
Kutsuu, who was dipping a washcloth into a basin of water. She picked 
up a bar of soap and ran the cloth over it.

	Priss felt the warm washcloth glide over her face and was very 
afraid that this might be the worse torture yet. As the dried blood and 
sweat was washed away, Priss felt a bizarre gratitude to her and began 
to question why she had been so stubborn. Priss suddenly realized that 
she could feel her body again and wondered why Arashi had unblocked the 
nerves.

	= Because I can't keep you numb indefinitely and she's not 
hurting you right now.= Arashi spoke harshly.= She's trying to trick 
you again, Priss.=

	Kutsuu gently washed her body, being careful not to cause Priss 
any pain and saw the look she had been waiting for begin to enter her 
eyes. 'Amazing what a little kindness at the right moment will do.'

	She continued to bathe Priss, knowing that she was close to her 
goal. Kutsuu spoke gently as she worked, keeping her voice at an even 
level. "You're very strong Priss. I guess all the battles you've fought 
made you that way." She dried Priss with a soft towel and then began to 
treat the multitude of wounds. The fire in the burns and cuts eased and 
Priss exhaled in relief. "I'm amazed at your courage. Sylia must find 
you an important member of the team."

	Priss opened her mouth to agree and grimaced when no sound 
emerged. Misunderstanding the problem, Kutsuu slipped an arm around 
Priss' back and raised her up a little so that she could drink some 
water. The tepid liquid was quite probably the best thing Priss had 
ever tasted and she gulped it down, trying not to choke.

	Kutsuu eased her back down and smiled expectantly. "Better?" 

	Priss started to nod, but blanched as pain exploded through her 
skull. Her hand grabbed the side of her head and she writhed in agony. 
Kutsuu was alarmed. "Priss? What is it?"

	<Arashi! Help me!> The pain stopped as quickly as it had begun 
and left Priss shuddering in the aftermath. <What... what was that?>

	= That was me.=

	<What!? Why did you->

	= You were falling for it, Priss. Hook, line and sinker! She's 
playing with your mind and you have to stay focused. This woman is your 
enemy! She's going to kill you, Priss. It's just a matter of when. Stop 
letting yourself be deceived.= 

	Priss paled as she realized how close she had come. <Christ! You 
were right to take my voice.> She looked up at Kutsuu who was watching 
her in concern. Suddenly furious, Priss used her rage to force her body 
into motion and she heaved herself up. Kutsuu found herself on the 
floor with an enraged Priss on top of her, gripping her throat. 

	The boomer pulled her away and Kutsuu clutched at her throat as 
she struggled for air. She glared at Priss and motioned the boomer to 
chain Priss from the ceiling again. "You-you're going to regret that."

	Priss' grin was feral and she spat at the woman as she was lifted 
into the air again.

	Kutsuu got to her feet and took a small bottle of liquid from the 
cart. "I tried to give you a chance, Priss, but you threw it back in my 
face." She pulled on another pair of rubber gloves and poured some of 
the oil into her palm. "Now we have to do this the hard way." She began 
to rub the liquid into Priss' skin, making sure to thoroughly saturate 
the wounds. When she had finished, every inch of Priss' body was on 
fire. "Let me know when you've had enough." 

	She sailed out of the room and Priss waited until the door had 
slid closed before shrieking in anguish. <Arashi! Make it stop! Please 
make it stop!>

	Arashi tried to lessen the pain, but the total anesthetizing she 
had been able to achieve last time was beyond her abilities now. Priss 
drew ragged breaths and tried to deal with the burning that she could 
still feel. <Gonna kill that bitch.>


?????


	Sylia tightened the seal on the hardsuit's right knee and 
straightened to find Priss staring at her angrily. She picked up her 
helmet and turned to watch Mackie loading her bike onto the truck. 
"Something wrong Priss?"

	"Wrong? Why should there be anything wrong?" She waved an 
impatient hand towards Sylia's armor. "You feel the need to take on a 
job without inviting me along and you ask me what's wrong?"

	"Priss, the accident..."
 
	"Was weeks ago and I feel fine now. I'm going with you, Sylia and 
that's final." She spun around and glared at Mackie as he tried to 
slide past unnoticed. "Load my bike, Mackie." She paused, frowning at 
him in question. "What's bugging you lately? You have a problem with 
me?"

	"N-No Priss. I'll get your bike." He almost ran away from them 
and Priss looked at Sylia. "What's going on with him?"

	Sylia ignored her question. "If you're going then you'd better 
hurry. We're on a deadline." 

	Priss let it pass, filing it away for later. <Arashi? Have you 
had any luck with the other enclaves?.>

	= No. The other enclaves seem a little, well for lack of a better 
word... distant. I'm not sure what's happened, but something is going 
on.=

	<Since when is this new?> Priss heard the hiss as her suit closed 
around her and went to join Sylia.


?????
	

	Quincy watched the boomer drag the remains of one of his former 
executives from the room and turned to the others who were trying very 
hard to be invisible. "I would suggest that in the future, before any 
of you waste my time with incorrect data, that you thoroughly check 
your information and make sure that your not setting yourself up to 
suffer the same fate as your colleague." 

	He dismissed them with a wave and activated the large screen 
behind him again. Quincy scowled at the footage of the Knight Sabers 
destroying a malfunctioning boomer and realized that he was going to 
have to break the news to Kutsuu.
		

?????


	Kutsuu took the news surprisingly well and that made Quincy 
nervous. He knew what a thorough person she was and had assumed that 
Kutsuu would be more upset at his news. "So you see, Kutsuu, there is 
no need to continue with Miss Asagiri. Have her body disposed of. 
Perhaps we will be able to find you a real Knight Saber to break in the 
future. Your fee has been transferred to your account and I added a 
bonus for your... persistence."

	Kutsuu resisted the urge to smash the screen and smiled at 
Quincy. "Of course. A pleasure as always, Mr. Chairman." She shut the 
screen off and then gave in and shattered it. The fools! She had to be 
a Knight Saber! Nothing else made sense. 

	But as she studied the data that she had been sent, Kutsuu was 
forced to admit that it seemed very unlikely that any of the Knight 
Sabers and Priss Asagiri were the same person. The fighting styles of 
the Sabers seen yesterday were an exact match for those they had on 
record, so exact that there was almost no chance for an error.  


?????



	"Quite frankly, you should have died several times by now, Priss. 
I'm rather curious to see how much more you can take before you do 
expire." Kutsuu picked up a long, thin rod and smiled at her 
pleasantly.

	The cane whipped through the air and struck Priss across her 
ribs, but she did not cry out.

	She should be screaming, but she merely looked at her with an 
eerily calm expression and suddenly Kutsuu felt a flash of what might 
be called fear. Priss' eyes promised her death. She shook the feeling 
off and struck her again. "You're boring me, Priss. I hate to be 
bored." No response. "My employers have informed me that you are not a 
Knight Saber." She waited for her reaction.

	Priss looked at her and then at the rod she held. Her question 
was silent and obvious.

	"Oh! Why am I continuing? Like I said, I'm curious." She moved 
behind Priss and began to flay her in earnest.


?????


	Priss looked at the read out of communications from Sylia' 
apartment and squinted in exasperation. <What the hell am I looking 
at?>

	Arashi sighed and imprinted what Priss would need to understand 
the data. Priss yelped and cursed her as she began to scroll through 
the list of materials Sylia had ordered. <What does she need with an 
incubator?>

	= Like I know. Look at all the transmissions to Germany though. 
Looks like she's been talking to Dr Fujita about something.=

	<Doesn't Fujita specialize in robotics? It's probably just 
business.>

	= But that isn't the business line. These are all from the living 
quarters.=

	An uneasy feeling came over Priss. <Okay, that's a little odd.>

	= There's one almost every night. Arashi saw the outgoing signal 
light flash and checked the 
	source. Speak of the devil. Outgoing call to Germany.=

	<Can you listen in?>

	= Of course.=

	There was a brief silence and then, "-so when are you leaving?" 
The voice was not Sylia's, but Priss had no time to speculate as Mackie 
answered. 

	"In a few days. Sylia asked me to check on something for her, but 
I know it's a waste of time and shouldn't take too long. Then I need to 
finish packing and arrange for Dr. Raven to take over some stuff I was 
working on, but after that I'll be on my way."

"How did Sylia take it?"

	Mackie didn't immediately answer and the girl sighed. "You have 
to tell her, Mackie. She's your sister, she has a right to know."

	"I wonder. She's been so distant lately and she's done something... 
I don't agree with. I think she's gone too far this time, Kyouki."

	"Do you want to talk about it?"

	"No. I don't want to burden you with my crazy family problems."

	"You know you can talk to me about anything, Mackie."

	"I know, but I'd rather talk to you in person. This long distance 
stuff is for the birds."

	"I know. I miss you, too."

	"I hate to hang up, but I have some stuff to do tonight. I love 
you."

	"I love you too, Mackie."

	The call ended and Priss nodded thoughtfully. "Well this explains 
some things. I thought Mackie seemed upset with Sylia. I wonder what 
she's done this time?"

	= A very good question. Mackie's usually game for any of her 
schemes, no matter how strange they are. Something that he doesn't 
agree with? Definitely, cause for concern.=

	<Let's check the financial data for the last month.> Priss 
watched the numbers roll past and smiled. <So Mackie's got a girl. 
That's why he hasn't been around lately. I was afraid that he didn't 
approve of Sylia and me.>

	= I wonder if Sylia knows? =

	Priss whistled silently. <I seriously doubt it. You can bet that 
we'd be hearing about it and probably be running full background checks 
on this girl.> Which probably wasn't a bad idea.

	= You want to spy on Mackie's girlfriend? = Arashi was shocked. 

	<Let's just say that I want to make sure she isn't connected to 
Genom in anyway. That way if Sylia finds out, I can jump in and 
reassure her before she does or says something she can't take back.>

	= Not a bad idea.=


?????


	The pain had begun again, worse this time and Arashi could do 
little to spare her. Priss bit back a scream as the ache in her 
shoulder intensified and heard the whistle of the cane rod as it cut 
through the air. White-hot agony shot through her as it landed against 
her back and she jerked, trying to evade it. Priss could feel her mind 
reel and knew that had she been able in that moment she would have 
surrendered. 

	Laughter filled her ears and Priss began to draw into herself to 
escape this hell, trying desperately to find something to focus on. She 
summoned an image of Sylia to her mind but it burned away in the pain. 
Priss cried out for Arashi, but the collective could do nothing to help 
her as she was methodically stripped of her reason. Long buried rage 
burst forth in a torrent and was useless. Priss screamed silently and 
tears fell unbidden from her eyes as Kutsuu worked her craft, not 
realizing that Priss not only wouldn't talk, but couldn't.

	As the rage began to fade, Priss continued to draw into herself, 
desperately searching for a place to hide. Again and again, she tried 
to find something to center on, but they all fell before the pain that 
wracked her body. Sylia, Linna. Nene, Arashi, her motorcycle... her 
music. All were useless to her now in this one moment of true despair 
and Priss wept as she realized only now that she had used these 
crutches as her shield from the world and from herself. Turning deeper 
into herself, Priss began to see her life for what it was, a terrified 
flight. She had been running for so long that she had forgot what it 
was like to stand still and as the sound of the cane striking her body 
echoed in her ears, Priss went even deeper and there, at the center of 
all her pretenses, and posturing, between her rage and her 
indifference, she found herself.

	A strange calm settled over her and she opened her eyes and saw 
herself hanging in Kutsuu's playroom. I look like hell. Priss settled 
back into herself and her body inhaled sharply as the pain began to 
recede. Priscilla Asagiri had carefully pulled herself inside, to a 
point of calmness that she had long forgotten she possessed. The center 
and the core of what she was and as the rest of the world slipped into 
the shadows around her, Priss found something to focus on.


?????
	

	Priss saw the tap into the satellites and wondered what Mackie 
was up to. The source was originating from his machine, but she 
couldn't tell what he was looking for. <He's searching for something 
and according to the log in time; he's been doing it for a few days.>

	= I could try to slip into his machine and see what he's looking 
for.=

	<He and Setsu would spot you. No, I think it's time to confront 
Sylia and the others.>

	
?????


	Priss watched Kutsuu leaved the room and didn't trust the smile 
that she gave her before leaving. <She's... up to... something.>

	Arashi agreed. She scrambled to find something to work with, 
knowing that there was nothing left. Every stored resource that Priss' 
body contained had been exhausted in order to keep her alive and dull 
the pain. Nanobots were burning out rapidly and Arashi had nothing to 
make new ones out of. Priss' body was on the edge of collapse.

	A voice whispered through the room and Priss jerked her head up 
at the sound of Sylia's voice. "Priss."

	Priss looked around wildly, but she was alone. <Gone... nuts.> The 
voice came again and Priss realized that it was a recording. Endlessly 
Sylia spoke her name and after a time more voices were added until the 
room was filled with a cacophony of sound that assaulted Priss' ears. 

	"Priss. Priss. Priss. Priss. Priss. Priss. Priss. Priss. Priss."

	Her head pounded from the attack and Priss was vaguely aware that 
the sound was getting louder. <Arashi! Do...some...thing.>

	=I'm trying to. = Arashi rerouted what she could to the area, but 
the nanos didn't get there in time. The sound swelled suddenly and 
Priss screamed silently as her head seemed to explode and she lost 
consciousness.

	
?????


	<Kill me.> Her mind was wandering and it was difficult to focus 
her thoughts enough to speak with Arashi. 

	= What? =

	<Please...Arashi... kill me.> Priss knew it was the only way. The 
blood from her ruptured eardrums had dried and Priss could no longer 
hear the sound of her labored breathing. She had reached the limit and 
knew that there was no option left but death. 

	= Priss...=

	<Not getting out... alive... Arashi... you know.>

	= But... = 

	Priss grew angry and it gave her added strength. <No. Don't let 
her... I am in... control of this. I choose... when to die.>

	Knowing that she was right, Arashi agreed. As she made 
preparations though, something occurred to her and she moved quickly, 
using everything possible to set things in place. = When you're ready. 
=

	<Now.> Priss drew a deep breath, ignoring the pain radiating 
through her body. <Hurt?> 

	Arashi was comforting. = No. You'll just slip into sleep. I'll 
take care of the rest. = 

	Priss sighed and closed her eyes. <I guess ... goodbye.>

	= More like goodnight. Are you ready? = Priss nodded and 
immediately the darkness began to spread through her mind and she could 
hear Arashi as she lost consciousness. = I'm here, Priss. It's almost 
over. =

	The door opened but Priss did not move. Kutsuu stood beside her 
and held up a syringe. Priss didn't move and she touched her shoulder. 
She swayed slightly, her eyes open and dead. Kutsuu cursed and felt for 
a pulse. "Damn it! That's not fair." She threw the syringe across the 
cell and glared at Priss in frustration. "Well I guess playtime's 
over." She shrugged philosophically. It had been fun while it lasted. 
Kutsuu ordered the boomer in to dispose of the body and watched as the 
machine carried away what was left of Priss Asagiri. "How I wish we had 
had more time together, Priss. You were incredible!"


?????
	

	Priss gasped as her body spasmed and the glass she was holding 
shattered against the floor. She tried to catch herself on the counter 
top, but was too weak. Priss hit the floor and lay there as her body 
shook uncontrollably. 

	Sylia had heard the breaking glass and pushed open the door to 
the kitchen, her expression puzzled. "Priss? Are you all right?" She 
saw Priss' booted feet sticking out from behind the island and shoved 
the door open completely. "Oh no! Linna! Nene!"

	Sylia knelt beside Priss as she opened her eyes. "Priss? What 
happened?"

	Priss opened her mouth to speak and then closed it again. How 
could she begin to explain the feeling of loss that had overtaken her? 
She felt as if something had been ripped away from her soul. "I... don't 
know, Sylia. One minute I was standing at the sink and the next I was 
on the floor." She tried to sit up, but found that her muscles were 
still trembling too badly. <Arashi? What happened to me?>

	Arashi could find no cause for the seizure. Everything seems 
normal. I'll keep looking, but physically you're fine.

	Sylia gripped her arm as Linna took the other and together they 
helped Priss to her feet. She swayed unsteadily and Sylia looped Priss' 
arm around her shoulders and guided her into the living room.

	Priss collapsed onto the couch and they were alarmed at the sweat 
beading on her forehead and her bloodless face. Linna glanced at Sylia. 
"Could something have gone wrong?"

	Sylia stiffened. She knew what Linna was asking and she was 
furious that she had spoken aloud.  "I don't know." Mentally she fired 
off a warning to Linna. <Be careful! I don't think this is related to 
the cloning process but if it is then it doesn't need to be compounded 
by the stress of finding out what she is.>

	Linna's disapproving glare was her reply and it was Nene who 
broke the strained silence. "Priss? Would you like some water?"

	Priss nodded slightly, very aware that there was something going 
on between Sylia and Linna. Nene shot a pointed look at Linna, who 
turned without speaking and went back to the kitchen. "I don't suppose 
that anyone would care to tell me what that was about?"

	Sylia smiled reassuringly. "It's nothing. Linna thinks that I was 
wrong to let you climb back into a hardsuit so soon after your 
accident. I'm afraid she might be right."

	Priss laughed humorlessly. "I think she might be right too." 
Linna returned and Priss accepted the glass with a quiet thank you. She 
locked her fingers around the glass to keep itt from falling and sipped 
the cold liquid. Priss carefully handed the glass to Sylia and leaned 
her head back against the couch. "Damn! I feel like I've fought a 
battle." She closed her eyes and missed the worried looks that flew 
over her head. 

	Sylia reached down and gripped her hand, wondering if she had 
missed something in the process. 
Had she made a mistake somewhere? "Why don't you go lay down until 
dinner, Priss?"

	Surprisingly Priss agreed, making Nene and Linna stare after her 
and Sylia in concern as they moved into the bedroom. Linna's voice was 
flat. "Something's gone wrong. Sylia just won't admit it."

	Nene sighed and slipped her arms around Linna's waist. "I hope 
you're wrong."

	Sylia returned a few minutes later and went straight into the 
kitchen. Linna and Nene followed, finding her on her knees cleaning up 
the broken glass. She spoke without looking up as she swept the remains 
into a dust pan. "That was quite possibly the most reckless thing I've 
ever seen you do, Linna."

	Linna remained remarkably calm despite the clear censure in 
Sylia's words. "This isn't Knight Saber business, Sylia. This is 
personal. You're playing with people's lives and you better get used to 
the fact that some people don't like it."

	Sylia rose and tossed the shards into the trash. "Perhaps, but 
what you're doing will only harm Priss."

	"Why not let me decide?" Priss leaned against the doorframe and 
waited for Sylia to answer her. Linna and Nene were looking at 
everything except her and Priss ground her teeth in an effort to stop 
herself from strangling the truth from them. "What are you hiding from 
me?" 

	Sylia spread her hands helplessly. "I don't know what you want, 
Priss."

	"I want to know why you're all acting so weird! What have I done 
to make you look at me like this?" She pointed to Linna. "Please, 
Linna! You're my friend and I know that you'll tell me the truth."

	Sylia flinched at the implication that she wouldn't and wondered 
what Linna would say.

	Linna knew that Priss had the right to know and was about to tell 
her when they heard the front door open.

	Mackie stood in the doorway, his face pale. "I found her."

	Sylia felt her world shift. "You're sure?"

	"It's Arashi's signal, but it's very weak. We need to hurry."

	Priss stared at Sylia, but her lover would not look at her. 
"What's he talking about Sylia?"

	Sylia shook her head. "Not now, Priss. Everyone suit up."


?????


	Priss could feel herself floating weightlessly, but it was the 
absence of pain that made her open her eyes. She stared at the vague 
twilight surrounding her and tried to remember how she had come to be 
here. She felt disconnected and in a strange way, free. 

	A faint sound in the distance drew her attention and she turned 
towards it. Priss could hear Arashi's frantic calling and frowned 
slightly. She didn't want to leave. It was quiet here and there was 
only pain waiting for her where Arashi was. Pain. Priss knew there was 
something important she had to remember, but thinking seemed like too 
much effort and she closed her eyes and continued to drift.

	
?????


	The van slid quietly down the darkened alley, the Knight Sabers 
riding on the roof and focusing search lights on every crack and 
shadow.

	Linna watched as her light flared across a set of red beady eyes 
and sighed as the rat turned and ran. "What are we looking for, Sylia?"

	Sylia was enigmatic. "You'll know when you see."

	Priss held her tongue, knowing that Sylia wouldn't answer her if 
she asked. She swept the light over the ground and then to a dumpster, 
but something made her swing back. She stared hard at the pale hand 
sticking out from behind a pile of trash and suddenly realized what 
they were looking for. "There!" She jumped down from the roof and 
landed next to the body, Sylia with her every step. Priss knelt and 
rolled the figure over. She let out a gasp and stood up, moving away 
from the woman. Sylia's voice whispered through her helmet. "Priss." 
She wasn't talking to her, but to the woman she was now cradling 
tenderly in her arms. Pale and gaunt, her face bruised and her body 
covered in cuts, she was still recognizable.

	Priss watched the readouts of her suit and heard Arashi's 
startled exclamation that the woman was exactly like them, but she had 
yet to put it all together. In the back of her mind, she knew, but if 
she let herself think it then she would go mad. Priss drew a deep 
breath and made herself go to Sylia. "She's badly hurt. She needs 
medical attention."

	Sylia heard her and lifted Priss gently, trying not to injure her 
further. <Taisei! Can you connect with Arashi?>

	Arashi burst into their minds like a hurricane. = Where the hell 
were you? She's been through hell trying to get back to you and you've 
already replaced her? Never mind, get us out of here! I need materials 
to work with and she's badly dehydrated. = 

	Sylia laid her down inside the van and removed her armor. The 
others did the same and as soon as Priss was free, she knelt beside her 
double. Sylia was staring at her battered face in shock and Priss made 
a disgusted sound before reaching for the medical kit. She tossed an IV 
set at Sylia and prepared an injection of antibiotics. Some of the 
wounds were red and swollen, obvious signs of infection. She injected 
the antibiotics and looked at Sylia. "Who is this, Sylia?" 

	She refused to answer and readied the IV with shaking hands. 
Priss watched her fumble with the needle and swore softly. "Damn it. 
Move, I'll do it." She took the needle away and inserted the catheter 
into her double's arm. As she looked down at her own face, an idea too 
horrible to imagine sprang to mind. The list of strange equipment and 
supplies that Sylia had been ordering in the lastt month was fresh in 
her mind and she caught Sylia's eyes with her own. When she spoke, it 
wasn't a question. "I'm a clone."

	Sylia nodded helplessly and handed her another syringe and a 
bottle of vitamin supplement. Priss choked back the bile rising in her 
throat and took them from her with barely restrained violence. "You 
bitch." She gave the injection swiftly, careful to do it exactly right 
and not give in to the wild urge to kill the original Priss. She tossed 
the needle away and took the blanket Nene handed her and covered her 
double with it. Nene couldn't meet her eyes and Priss felt abandoned. 
She turned on Sylia. "How could you do this?"
	
	Sylia couldn't answer her. "Mackie, take us to the clinic."

	Arashi protested. = No. There's nothing they could do there that 
you can't do at home. I need time and materials, Sylia. She can't 
handle waking up in a strange place again. =

	<What happened?>

	= That's for Priss to tell. Needless to say, she's been pushed 
past her limits. =

	The van pulled into the garage and they carried the original 
Priss upstairs. Sylia automatically placed her in their bedroom. 

	Priss stood at the foot of the bed she and Sylia had made love in 
and watched her bathe the other woman's face. She felt something inside 
her break as Sylia cared for Priss. <I'm nothing now. Arashi? My 
Arashi?>

	= Yes, Priss? =

	<What are we going to do?>

	= I don't know. The other enclaves have shut me out. =

	Priss looked at Linna and Nene, but they couldn't meet her eyes. 
She spun away and walked out.

	
?????


	Sylia felt the tears running down her face and did nothing to 
stop them. The number of wounds and burns was horrifying and she knew 
that Priss had been brutally tortured. <Arashi? What happened? We 
thought she was dead.>

	Arashi was distracted, but she spared Sylia a short answer. = 
Genom happened. Someone drew the conclusion that Priss was a Knight 
Saber. They wanted to know who the others were. I need more materials, 
Sylia and start another IV. They only gave her enough water to keep her 
alive and almost no food. =

	Sylia blanched and did as Arashi asked. She heard the murmur of 
voices from the living room and knew that she had succeeded in digging 
herself a very deep hole this time. <What else can I do?>

	= Nothing. She needs rest and sleep. = Arashi could sense that 
Priss was struggling to wake and was torn between letting her awaken 
and making her sleep. 

	Priss felt herself pulled back in a sudden rush and her eyes 
popped open. She saw Sylia beside her. "S-Sylia?" She had to be 
dreaming.

	Sylia smiled down at her through her tears and laughed softly. 
"Hi."

	= She can't hear you. Her eardrums were punctured. = Arashi's 
quiet explanation made Sylia wince.

	<Priss?>

	Priss smiled faintly as she realized that Arashi had accomplished 
a miracle. <Guess I missed dinner?>

	Sylia shook her head and raised Priss' hand to her lips. <No. 
It's ready when ever you are.>

	Priss closed her eyes and sighed. <It's good to be home.> 


?????


	Sylia stepped out of the bedroom and saw Priss at the window. 
"I'm glad you didn't leave."

	Priss snorted and paced towards her. "Oh, I'm not leaving until I 
have some answers!" She saw Linna and Nene enter, but ignored them. 
Sylia was the target right now. "How could you do this, Sylia?" She 
gestured to her body. "Was I a good replacement, Sylia? Did I give you 
as much pleasure as she did?" She moved closer, crowding Sylia back 
against the wall, her voice low and tightt. "Was I a good fuck, Sylia? 
Tell me, Sylia. Tell me!" Her left hand flew out and through the wall 
beside Sylia's head. Sylia stood frozen and let her continue.

	"Damn you! What the hell am I going to do? Wander off into the 
night while you take back up with the original? How do I live a life 
that's not mine?!" She whirled around, not sure she could keep from 
striking Sylia and faced Linna and Nene. "Well. I guess I know why you 
guys were uncomfortable around me. Sorry to upset you. I'll just scurry 
away and let you all get back to your nice, neat little lives." 

	Sylia shook her head and approached the clone cautiously. "You 
can't leave... Priss. I'm sorry you found out this way, but you can't run 
from this. We need to decide what to do."

	"Do? About me, you mean?" Priss laughed wildly. "I know what 
you'll do, Sylia! Strangely enough I don't think that letting you kill 
me is a solution that will work for me."

	Sylia flinched, her expression shocked. "I would never... could 
never.... Priss please!"

	Priss reached out and grabbed Sylia by the throat, lifting her 
from the floor. "Please what, Sylia? Please follow orders? Please 
conveniently cease to exist? Please kiss me?" She took Sylia's mouth in 
a rough kiss and Sylia struck out, hitting her face. Priss jerked away. 
"See? Not good enough for you now, hmm?" She thrust Sylia away, 
watching her crash into the wall with a bitter smile. Priss suddenly 
heard a familiar voice echoing through her mind.

	<Don't hurt her. She's not yours to hurt.>

	The original Priss saw the bedroom door swing open and watched 
herself enter the room. <Close the door.>

	The door shut in Sylia's face and left her and the others 
wondering what had just happened.


?????


	Priss watched the clone move to the foot of the bed. <I'm sorry.>

	The clone frowned at her. <What the hell are you apologizing 
for?>

	<I think... for being alive.>

	<Not your fault.> She paused and looked at the rapidly healing 
injuries on Priss' arm and face. <What happened?>

	Priss shrugged. <Got kidnapped. Got tortured. Got killed. And 
apparently, along the way I got cloned as well.>

	<Yeah, well, you know Sylia.> She shifted uneasily, tucking her 
hands into her pockets.

	<Hmm, better living through science.> There was no anger in her 
statement, only a sad resignation. She would have to deal with Sylia 
later. 

	<So what happens now?>

	<I don't know.>

	<I still love her.>

	<You can't have her.>

	<I guess we have a problem then.>


?????


	Priss2 walked out of the bedroom and straight to Sylia. She 
caught her face in her hands and kissed her thoroughly before releasing 
her and heading for the front door. Sylia struggled to catch her breath 
and called after her, "Stop! Where are you going?" 

	The door closed.


?????


	Priss2 stepped out of the elevator and found Mackie waiting for 
her. She froze, waiting to see what he wanted. Mackie smiled sadly and 
gestured to the black motorcycle that Sylia had just finished. "Take 
it. She made it for you."

	"She made it for Priss." 

	"No. She knew what you were; she knew what she was doing. The 
bike is yours and if you don't take it then I'll destroy it."

	Priss2 took the helmet he offered her and searched his face 
intently. "Why are you doing this?"

	Mackie's features hardened. "She had no right to do this to you. 
Had I known what she was doing I would have stopped her. I should have 
been paying more attention."

	Priss2 smiled suddenly and Mackie blinked. "Don't blame yourself, 
Mackie. You've been busy with your own life."

	Mackie blushed and stammered, "H-how did you know?"

	She shrugged. "When I realized that everybody was keeping 
something from me I began to snoop and I overheard one of your 
conversations with her. She sounds nice, Mackie."

	He turned even redder and grinned sheepishly. "She is."

	"Does Sylia know?"

	Mackie grew sober. "No. I'm not sure how to tell her."

	Priss2 nodded and climbed onto the motorcycle. "Don't tell her 
Mackie. Not until it's too late for her to 'help'."

	Mackie watched her ride away.


?????


	Sylia slipped into the bedroom and saw that Priss was still 
awake. She approached the bed slowly, still not quite believing what 
she was seeing. <Hi.>

	<I was going to ask if you missed me, but I guess I have my 
answer.>Priss wondered why she felt so calm. Sylia's actions had taken 
an already tangled situation and made it a thousand times worse. She'd 
even added a new victim to the growing list and Priss wondered if Sylia 
had comprehended yet that she had destroyed a woman's entire life. Had 
ripped apart her very existence and left her to fend for herself. Priss 
wondered why she still felt happy to see Sylia again, despite what she 
had done.

	Sylia closed her eyes, unable to witness Priss' disappointment in 
her. <I did miss you. So much I was insane with it.>

	<Obviously.>

	<Priss please. I thought you were dead.> Priss' harsh laugh made 
Sylia look at her. 

	Priss watched Sylia through narrowed eyes and the first hint of 
anger entered her words. <I can't believe you did this. Most people 
grieve and move on Sylia. They don't go mad scientist and start cloning 
people! Did it occur to you that I, the real me, would be horrified by 
this?>

	Sylia knew she was right, but she was so happy to have Priss 
yelling at her again that she was quite willing to let her do it all 
night. <I know, Priss. I wasn't thinking.> She sat down on the bed 
beside her and touched her hand.

	The underlying joy in her voice made Priss scowl more fiercely. 
<Damn it, Sylia! Do you realize that you've ruined a person's life?> 
Admittedly, it was her life first, but that was beside the point. 
<She's lost everything because of you!> 

	Sylia knew it, but she did not know how to fix it. <What can I 
do, Priss?>

	<Nothing. It's between us now.>

	<What do you mean?>

	Priss looked at Sylia calmly. <She challenged me. We'll fight in 
a few days.>

	Sylia froze. <What!? Priss, you can't be serious.>

	<Yeah. The winner takes all so to speak.>

	Her stunned look of disbelief made Priss smile. <What happens if 
you lose?>

	Priss' smile turned dark. <You won't know if I win or lose. 
That's part of the deal.>

	<How can you think this is funny?!>

	<I don't, but its either laugh or scream and I've done enough 
screaming lately.> Her blunt statement seemed strangely detached and 
again Priss wondered at the level of control she had achieved in the 
bowels of hell.

	Sylia flinched. <I'm sorry, Priss. I really thought you were 
dead.>
	
	Priss shook her head. <And that makes what you did all right? 
Sylia I can't begin to tell you what has happened to me in the last few 
weeks and I'm not sure I want to. But the one thing I have realized is 
that I'm a hell of a lot stronger than I could have ever imagined. So, 
I'm going to do something I should have done a long time ago.> She met 
her eyes, expression resolute. <As soon as I'm able, I'll be leaving.>

	Sylia felt her breath catch, very much afraid of what Priss was 
saying. <You... you're leaving?>

	Time seemed to stop as Sylia watched Priss nod slowly. She 
realized that she couldn't marshal her thoughts enough to send them to 
Priss and her voice was a whisper. "For good?"

	Priss took her time in answering. She studied Sylia's expression, 
easily seeing the pain and remorse. But it was not the first time Priss 
had seen these emotions from Sylia and each time Priss had hoped that 
it would be the last. Obviously, she had been expecting a miracle. <No, 
not for good. I have things I need to do. Things that you would only 
complicate.>

	Sylia was confused and more than a little hurt by Priss' comment. 
<I don't understand.>

	<You don't need to, Sylia. Just know that despite the fact that 
you're a mad scientist, I still love you.> Priss grimaced. <Which 
probably doesn't say too much about me.> She leaned back against the 
pillows and sighed. <Just bear with me, Sylia.> 

	Sylia was still disturbed but she let it go and, realizing that 
Priss wasn't going to discuss it with her, she changed the subject. 
<How do you think Genom found out about you?> Sylia had been racking 
her brain since Arashi had explained why she had been taken. While 
Priss had said nothing about what had been done to her, Sylia could 
easily see something shadowing Priss' eyes that had not been there 
before. A hardness that spoke of something dark and dangerous. Priss 
had been strong before, but whatever fire she had walked through this 
time had tempered her in a way Sylia could not define. She found 
herself a little uneasy of this Priss and wondered if this change was 
permanent.

	Priss shrugged with a nonchalance she did not feel. <Got no idea. 
Kutsuu never said why they thought I was a Knight Saber.>

	The lack of information worried Sylia. <If someone knows or 
suspects that you're...>

	<I think Genom is pretty convinced that I'm not. Apparently while 
I was being held the Knight Sabers were seen in action and Genom 
realized that there was no way I could be in two places at once.> She 
laughed humorlessly. <If they only knew.>

	<So they let you go?>

	<No. I died.>

	Sylia stared at her in horror. <What?>

	<Arashi killed me. I was as surprised as anyone when I woke up 
here.>

	<God.>

	Priss' laugh was harsh. <So, I sort of owe my life to the fact 
that you cloned me. They probably wouldn't have disposed of my body so 
quickly if they hadn't thought that they had made a mistake.> She shot 
Sylia a questioning glance. <How did you know where to find me? Hell, 
how did you know to even look?>

	Sylia shifted slightly, but didn't rise. The urge to pace was 
rather strong. <She started to have dreams. Dreams about being 
tortured. It didn't take long to figure out that what she was dreaming 
of was something more. Mackie began to scan the city for any trace of 
the original Arashi's signal.>

	Priss wondered just how connected she and her clone were. To 
dream of each other suggested, that there was more than just shared 
memories and DNA. Priss could feel the fatigue trying to pull her into 
sleep. <I need to sleep.> She closed her eyes and Sylia watched the 
rhythmic rise and fall of her chest. 

	Priss' intention to leave troubled her greatly, but she had to 
admit that Priss had good reason to want to leave. She had gone too far 
this time and Sylia was very much afraid that there was no way to 
repair the damage that she had done. <Is Arashi all right?>

	=Yes, but she's got her hands full repairing the damage. She 
doesn't seem too willing to talk to me at the moment. =

	<I'm sorry. She must be feeling as betrayed as Priss is.>

	=Yes. =

	<I can't blame them.>

	Sylia lost track of time as she watched Priss sleep and 
eventually she kicked off her shoes and carefully slid under the covers 
with her. Sylia turned onto her side so she could see Priss' face and 
she fell asleep that way, knowing that Priss was truly back.


?????


	Priss woke in the night and felt Sylia next to her. She smiled 
faintly and spoke to Arashi. <I need to speak to Mackie.>

	Setsu woke him. <What is it Priss?>

	<They took my arm, Mackie. I know that Sylia will want to build 
me another one, but I want you to do it.>

	<Why?>

	<She put a kill switch in my old arm. A way to deactivate it. I 
don't want that in this one and I want a few extras that she would 
question. Can you do it? And as quickly as possible?>

	<Okay, but what's the rush?>

	<I have things that I need to do. I'm leaving as soon as 
possible.> 

	She didn't elaborate and Mackie sensed that she wouldn't if 
pressed. <What extras?>

	Priss thought about what had happened to her in the last few 
weeks. <Sylia once tried to deactivate the nanos and they sent a pulse 
of electricity through my arm to stop her. Can you rig something like 
that, but let me control the level of current?>

	<Um, yeah, I guess so. Anything else?>

	Priss smiled and they began to discuss a few other ideas she had. 
Eventually they had a design worked out and Mackie agreed to get 
started on it first thing in the morning

	He hesitated a moment and then blurted, <I'm sorry, Priss.>

	<For what?>

	<For not stopping Sylia.>

	<Mackie, I don't think anybody could stop Sylia, short of 
knocking her on her ass. You have nothing to apologize for. Now get 
some sleep and we'll talk later, okay?> She bid him good night and let 
him get back to sleep. <Arashi? How are the repairs coming?>

	= Well I'm doing the best I can, but it's still pushing it. =

	<Create more nanos.>

	= I'm sorry, I thought you said create more nanos. =

	<I did. Make as many as you need to heal me. Alter what ever you 
have to and add what ever circuitry necessary so that you can remain 
fully active under any conditions.>

	= Priss... do you know what you're saying? =

	<Yes. Just do it Arashi.>  


?????


	Priss awoke to the sound Linna's voice and realized that she 
could hear again. She threw the covers back and sat up, looking down at 
her body. She was pleased to find that Arashi had made great strides in 
healing the rest of her injuries. "Quick work." Her voice was a little 
hoarse from her ordeal, but she had it back and her relief was a 
tangible thing.

	= Well with you making plans to fight that imposter in a week I 
figured I'd better hurry.= Her disgruntled expression did not disturb 
Priss but her reference to her clone did. 

	"She's not an imposter, Arashi. She's my clone and if there are 
any victims in this tragedy then it's her."

	= A victim that wants your life. I'd be a little more concerned 
if I were you.=

	Priss smiled. <I thought you were me?> She crossed to the closet, 
glad that her legs were steady.

	Arashi was quiet for a moment.= Not anymore. The aspects of my 
personality were recorded into the backup circuits I created in your 
head. From that point on, we both began to change as all living things 
do. But even without that we wouldn't be the same. Not after what 
happened to you.=

	"What do you mean?"

	=You're different. I can't explain it really, but you're surer of 
yourself, more...=

	<Focused?>

	=Yes.= 

	Priss shrugged and pulled out a pair of jeans and a black t-
shirt. <I just let go of all the bullshit.>

	Arashi knew it was more than that, but she still didn't know how 
to describe what had happened to Priss. The level on which her senses 
operated had more than doubled. Priss' mind seemed to be in full gear 
and there was something else. After such an ordeal, Priss' nightmares 
should have been nerve shattering, but her dreams had been calm and 
peaceful. Arashi knew that there was rarely a night that Priss did not 
have a nightmare and this sudden halt to the endless phantasms of her 
mind worried her more than anything else that had happened. = I was 
surprised you didn't have a rougher night. =

	<Why?> Priss knew exactly what she was talking about and her tone 
wwas patient. <Everything that haunted me Arashi was burned away by 
what happened. You've seen my dreams. Was there really anything in them 
that was as frightening as Kutsuu?>

	Arashi had to agree that nothing compared to Kutsuu. =So, you've 
put your fears aside? =

	<Not aside. That sounds like I'm avoiding them entirely. No, I've 
just faced them and seen them for what they truly are.> Priss pulled 
the shirt over her head one handed and got into her jeans with 
difficulty. <Man, this feels weird.>

	=What does? =

	<Being dressed.> 

	She padded out into the living room in her bare feet. Priss saw 
Linna and Nene in deep conversation with Sylia and spoke quietly. "Hi 
there."

	Nene beamed when she saw her and Priss returned her enthusiastic 
embrace with one of her own. Linna was only slightly more reserved and 
as she ended the hug, Priss cupped her cheek. "Its good to see you 
again. Both of you." 

	Caught off guard by the wealth of emotion from the normally 
reserved Priss, Linna stammered, "I, uh, its good to see you too, 
Priss." She paused. <Can you hear again?>

	"Yes. My hearing's fine now. Arashi's been busting her clusters 
trying to fix me." Priss released her and settled herself on the couch, 
gesturing for them to sit. "I guess Sylia filled you in about what 
happened?" 

	Nene's nod was hesitant. Something was off here, but she couldn't 
tell what. "Yes she did. I'm surprised to see you up this soon after... 
I mean..."

	"It's all right Nene. You can say it. After I was tortured." She 
smiled to ease any sting her words might have held. "I'm all right, 
guys and very glad to be home."

	Linna wondered how she felt about what Sylia had done. "I... damn 
this is hard."

	Priss shrugged. "It doesn't have to be, Linna. Stop worrying that 
you might upset me or hurt me. 
Just say what's on your mind."

	Linna blinked at the frank request and it was a moment before she 
could speak. "I... I feel like I should apologize about the... 
about..."

	"The clone? Why? She's me. If you were able to accept her and be 
her friend then I'm glad."

	Nene spoke quietly. "I think we wanted her to be you."

	"And she was. I'm beginning to feel a little guilty for being 
alive. I've wrecked her life by returning."

	"But it's your life." Sylia's quite comment drew their attention. 
She sat in the chair furthest away from them, tucked into the corner. 

	Priss looked back at Linna and Nene. "I would ask you to do me a 
favor, though. If you run into her, please, be kind. She's feeling like 
an outcast right now and is very hostile, but she has reason to be."

	Nene glanced at Sylia and then back to Priss. There was 
definitely something wrong between them. <I think Priss is pissed>. "Do 
you think we will see her?"

	Linna kept her expression bland. <Do you blame her?>

	Priss smiled slightly. "It's likely. MegaTokyo is big, but she'll 
probably stick to familiar places."

	"I guess we just assumed that she would leave." Nene didn't add 
that they had also assumed that Sylia might try and ... delete the 
clone so to speak.

	Priss leaned back and sighed. "No. She has no where else to go."


?????


	Priss2 tossed back another shot and stared at her reflection in 
the mirror behind the bar. She'd been drinking steadily for over two 
hours, but couldn't seem to get drunk. <You're not keeping me sober are 
you?>

	=Maybe a little. You don't really need to be incapacitated right 
now Priss.=

	<Ah, but I'm not Priss am I? I'm a toy. Like one of those 
inflatable sex dolls.>

	Arashi couldn't help but snicker at the image. =You're a little 
too rough around the edges for that.=

	<You know what I mean.> She refilled her glass and picked at the 
label of the whiskey bottle. <What are we going to do?>

	= Well right now, we wait until Priss recovers and then you two 
fight a very silly battle.=

	<You don't agree with our arrangement?>

	= I think you're both nuts, but don't let that stop you.= 


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