Subject: [FFML] [Orig] [1K Words] "Maudlin"
From: Matthew Johnston
Date: 7/10/2000, 2:47 AM
To: FFML
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Private and public C&C is welcomed with open arms, and is kindly 
requested.  I'd really love to know what you think of this.  It's 
short, so it shouldn't be too hard to give me feedback, right?

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                           Vignette 01
                            "Maudlin"


         "1000 Words: Maudlin" (c) 2000 Matthew Johnston.
                       All Rights Reserved.

  This is a work of fiction.  Any resemblance of the characters
     to any persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.  
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Sunday afternoon faded to evening, shifting so slowly, nobody 
seemed to notice.  Lamplight replaced sunlight, wool coats were 
wrapped a little tighter around bodies, but nobody caught chill 
and left the streets; they were as filled as ever.
     The people were shopping for gifts tonight, Christmas wine 
and New Year's champagne.  But even for all their walking and 
choosing, it seemed that everybody felt something was missing.  
Nobody could rightly put a finger on what, but there was 
something.
     Ann Meriweather knew exactly what it was; it hadn't snowed 
yet.  Halfway into December, and there had been not been so much 
as a flake to speak of.  She sighed at the realization and 
continued cleaning the Van Kestersons' dining room.  Dinner was 
just over; Mr. Van Kesterson was in the living room, preparing his 
pipe, Mrs. Van Kesterson was settling back to her evening book.  
Young Ann, however, still had dishes to do.
     The Van Kestersons were a generous family, faces plump from 
rich food and glowing in easy retirement.  Their money was not 
old, though.  Mr. Van Kesterson's hands bore a subtle roughness 
from younger years spent on work he felt comfortable simply 
leaving in the past, never referred to more specifically than as 
"the old job."  Mrs. Van Kesterson had given birth to and raised 
two sons, both of whom made their parents proud as they grew up.
     Another tiny sigh escaped Ann's lips.  Robert, the younger 
son, had always enchanted her.  But, he was already twenty when 
the family had hired her, taken her in as a young girl, and years 
had passed between then and now.  He was married now, and she 
barely old enough to start realistically considering courtship.
     She had been an orphan of sorts; her mother and father had 
died when she was 12, and she decided then to seek a source of 
money to support herself.  It was so unusual, but to Ann, the 
uniqueness of her situation was a large part of the excitement.
     Truth be told, Ann knew she had been lucky when the Van 
Kestersons had taken her in as their maid three years ago.  She 
had met a younger boy during her first week in the city, an orphan 
dodging the police and stealing from carts.  She felt drawn to 
him, but knew she couldn't keep down that path.  Ann paused for a 
moment, wondering what ever became of him.  But she shook her 
head; idle speculation never produced anything approaching the 
truth.

Ann finished gathering the dishes into the kitchen and began 
washing.  The window in front of the sink held no hope for snow 
tonight.  Ann washed in silent disappointment; she usually enjoyed 
her tasks in the winter, when she could look out the window and 
see the flakes glowing in the lamplight, floating lazily to the 
ground.  In the winter evening, long after the sun had set, the 
snow seemed just like stars swimming in the ether.  They moved 
like dancers, and Ann could hear music just behind their 
movements.
     She didn't know exactly why she loved the snow so much; she 
had always figured it to be something from her childhood, a cloudy 
memory of days when she'd play in the white stuff, making reliefs 
of angels or building towering, bulbous snowmen.  She longed for 
those days, when her biggest worry was running out of snow in a 
snowball fight, or whether or not one of the larger boys was 
putting rocks in his.
     She knew, though, that such sentimentality was only clouding 
the truth: she was here in the city, working hard and living with 
a caring family.  She was almost a woman, and longing to be a girl 
again was not the prudent thing to do.  But it was such an easy 
emotion to fall into.  There was a certain seductiveness to 
melancholy, something soft, gently touching a cheek or wrist, 
caring even as it drew from you silent tears and hopelessly 
maudlin words...
     The dishes were finished even before Ann realized it; her 
mind often wandered during the more menial tasks, but never to 
such an extent as tonight.  The dry clouds above had yielded 
nothing to save her from her melancholy, and as she went upstairs 
to her room, her chores finished, she felt suddenly heavy.  She 
wondered half-seriously if she'd ever see snow again.
     "Such a silly thought," she mumbled to herself as she closed 
the door to her room.  "You shouldn't worry about such things."  
She lit the lamps in her room, which was already warm from the 
fire downstairs.  The chimney lay just behind one wall of her 
room, so she was never cold in the winter.  She smiled at the 
consideration the Van Kestersons had showed her and gathered a pen 
and paper.

She didn't look out her window immediately, or she would have seen 
the first flakes.  By the time she had taken notice, a thin film 
had gathered on the outside of the sill, and at the bottom of each 
pane, just enough for Ann to see when she glanced over.
     Her pen clattered on the floor, and her chair groaned as she 
pushed it back.  She half ran, half stumbled to the window, but 
managed to keep some semblance of a clam about her.  At least, 
until she reached the windows.  As she looked out, pressing the 
tip of her nose to the panes, she saw it.  It was no illusion.
     She threw open the windows, the two halves opening like a 
gate into the world.  The snow collecting on the sill scattered, 
joining their brethren as they fell.  She looked up, to make sure 
it was still coming down.  She followed the fat flakes as the came 
near, drawn by invisibility of gravity, silently waltzing.  She 
heard music, distant, soothing.  She felt suddenly cozy and safe.  
Her breath escaped from her smile finally, a thinning cloud of 
steam mingling with the floating stars, falling softly, cold and 
sacred, to the ground below.

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AUTHOR'S NOTES:

Okay, the title's pretty pretentious, but it conveys the spirit of 
the project well enough: vignettes exactly 1000 words long, based 
on anime-style pictures.  It's a test of an old adage.

The picture, illustrated by Murakami Suigun, is available at:
http://www.alles.or.jp/~msuigun/Mcg/98,11,03.htm
It caught my eye immediately just because of its ability to convey 
so much in such an uncomplicated picture.  The rest of his stuff 
is great as well (http://ww5.tiki.ne.jp/~msuigun/hp3.htm).  The 
page is in Japanese only, but the pictures are terrific.

As for the character of Ann Meriweather, I may revisit her in a 
future vignette -- there are more than enough pictures of her to 
warrant more.

I hope you enjoyed this little story -- I'll be sure to make more 
if you let me know you liked it.  This and other vignettes will be 
added to my web site as they are written (my web page's address 
is: http://www.cafe-pierrot.net/).  You can find all my fanfics 
there, from my first ("Boku No Marie: Music-Box Angel") to my 
current original series, "It's a Rainy Day Sunshine Girl," to 
"Bootlegged Self-Image," my music project, based on "Serial 
Experiments Lain."

Hope to hear from you!


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