This is part four of the angsty-ness. Warning: I'm a card-carrying member of
the Heero/Duo pairing, so you can be sure I'm not talking about Relena in
this one.
Send C&C, you know the drill ^_^
Disclaimer: Gundam Wing belongs to Tomino Yoshiyuki and Yadate Hajime.
~HEERO~
I'm sorry. I failed.
I'm not supposed to have feelings. But I do.
What do I feel? Mostly, I'm confused. I'm lost. I don't know what to do
with myself. I don't have an enemy anymore. Everyone is an enemy, but no
one seems to be. I even have people who want to be friends with me.
Why is that? They're a liability, people who will just get in my way. Why
do they still want to be my friends?
Why do I want them to be my friends?
Why does one of them love me?
I've never felt lonely or lost before. I've always had the mission, a
purpose. I don't know how to not have those things and survive. I have
always had someone to tell me what to do, what direction to follow, which
target to kill.
That's all gone. It had to end, or everything would have been destroyed. I
know that. That way of life is over.
But if I became my way of life, then why am I still here?
Can I become someone different? But then if I can, who am I really?
Who am I?
Who was I?
Am I anyone at all?
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~Haruka Kaoru
"Once again I'll become Shinigami ... but first, I need a nap."