Subject: [FFML] [oneshot] [Gundam Wing] [Yaoi] [WAFFy] Going Home
From: Talia Shimae
Date: 6/3/2000, 3:51 AM
To: ffml@fanfic.com

Kamis this thing is WAFFy...It's too WAFFy, but I'm going to 
send it anyway.  In case you're wondering, this is set after the 
Endless Waltz OVAs, but doesn't really contain any spoilers.  
I'm not sure if the scenes really work, but I wrote them and 
I'm sticking to them.  ^^;;  Enjoy and please C&C.

Disclaimer:  I do not lay any claim to the characters depicted
below.  I forget who they belong to, but I bow to them 
because they are gods.  *bows*  Please do not sue me...
that wouldn't be very nice.


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Going Home
A Gundam Wing Fanfiction
By Murasakikaze

--  --  indicates what's on the computer screen (you'll see)


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The computer screen blipped and came on casting its 
soft green glow over the cramped dark room.  One 
man's flickering silhouette was thrown against the wall 
as he leaned over the keyboard and waited for the 
computer to finish booting up.  He uncharacteristically 
fidgeted and ran a hand through his wildly unkempt dark 
brown hair.  His cobalt blue eyes ran over the screen as 
the computer chimed.

--Enter password--

--78325-2153-A52--

--Accepted--

--Upload data files 126-209--

--Uploading files now...--

Heero stared at the screen and let out a silent sigh of 
relief.  In a few minutes the files would be erased from 
the computers of all the space colonies.  It would only 
be a matter of time before the heads of each colony 
realized the data was missing, but by then he would be 
logged out of the system and on his way back home. 

Home...

The tired soldier leaned back in his chair as the 
computer beeped softly and tried to remember what 
home really was.  The L1 colony was no longer his 
home.  It held too many bad memories from his past.  
Too many memories of all the people he had hurt and 
who he would hurt.  Too many memories of Odin and 
the training he had been forced to endure.  Too many 
memories of what he had become during the war.  Earth 
was a good place to start, but Earth held another 
problem he didn't want to face.  It held the one thing that 
kept him from being the true Perfect Soldier.  The one 
thing that elicited even the slightest bit of emotion from 
the cracks appearing in his mask.  Earth held-

--Transfer complete.--

The boy was jolted out of his contemplation and turned 
back to the screen. He had a mission to complete, he 
reminded himself.  Don't think about back home.  Don't 
think about what was there.  It's only a distraction and 
distractions get you killed. It gets others killed.  
Distractions were fatal.

His fingers flew across the keyboard as he flipped 
through each file individually.  He had all the time in the 
world, so he could afford a peek into what he was 
destroying.  To the untrained eye, the screen only held 
numbers and jumbled letters, but Heero had hours of 
training and he read the codes as easily as one would 
read a stop sign.  

It was basic information, he mused.  Just things the 
Doctor wanted cleared up.  Photos and information on 
Gundam and mobile suit pilots who had been captured 
or seen.  They had to remain anonymous even if the war 
was over.  If the world ever needed them again, they had 
to be able to appear and disappear as easily as mist in 
the summer sun.  

--Begin delete sequence--

--Enter password--

--83232-913957-728B--

--Password accepted.  Choose files to delete--

He began to type 'all' when something caught his eye.  
Something he knew would be a distraction, but knew he 
had to see.  Something he knew he was going to have 
to save whether it was just in memory or else on disk.  

--Open file 189--

--Set decoder #81--

--File open--

--Decoder #81 set--

--Decoding file now--

The pilot watched as the code flew past the screen.  
>From what he could tell it was a set of pictures taken at 
the beginning of the war when even he was very young.  
These weren't about the pilots, he realized, and that 
was what had attracted him to it.  Why was it under the 
pilot listings?  They had to have some significance to 
the Doctor or else he wouldn't want them destroyed.

It wouldn't take long to unscramble the code and he sat 
back, closing his eyes.  Once again he allowed his 
mind to wander back to his thoughts about home.  
What was it really?  If it wasn't this space colony and if 
Earth was a problem, where did he belong?  Maybe he 
didn't belong anywhere anymore.

Zero hadn't told him anything at all in the past few 
weeks and Dr. J was only giving him menial missions.  
Things anyone could do.  Heero opened his eyes and 
stared up at the ceiling, watching the glow from the 
computer dance across it.  Was he fated to be a 
redundant soldier like Trowa had said?  He thought for a 
second and realized he didn't know what his purpose 
was anymore. He didn't have anyone to fight and other 
than training everyday he didn't have anything to do.  
Then his thoughts wandered back to the blue and green 
planet spinning in space below him.  Maybe...if he went 
back to Earth...maybe then he'd have a purpose.  
Maybe then he'd be able to see-

--File decoded--

Heero sat forward and watched as the pictures began to 
load.  He blinked and cursed his stupidity.  Why had he 
even bothered to download pictures like these?  They 
were nothing more than wreckage shots from the 
colonies at the beginning of the war.  Nothing but 
buildings that were no longer standing and people that 
were probably long since dead.  

"Stupid.  Stupid.  Stupid.  Stupid," he growled, chiding 
himself.  Sometimes emotions just got in the way.  Yet 
another distraction that had taken him away from his 
original mission.  He reached for the mouse and began 
to move it across the picture towards the delete button 
when something else caught his attention.  The center 
picture sharpened and revealed two children standing in 
the middle of the rubble of what appeared to be an old 
military building.  Only this wasn't just a picture, it was 
a recording and Heero recognized one of the kids.  

"...."

He double-clicked on the file and watched as it 
maximized and took up the entire screen.  He pressed 
the play button and sat back, watching the taller of the 
two children pull the other to their feet.  The picture 
was fuzzy, but it was still in good condition.  The taller 
kid  looked upset with the smaller one who was 
obviously younger.  The younger child was trying to 
keep the older one from seeing they were crying, but 
failing miserably.

"Don't cry," the taller rebuked.  The younger bit their 
lower lip and nodded stiffly.

"I-I can't help it." The child broke down again and fell 
forward into the other's arms.  "I can't stop."

The younger child wrapped their arms around the older 
and buried their face in the front of the other's shirt.  The 
older child glanced around and seeing no one, put a 
hand on the back of the younger kid's head in an 
attempt at consolation.  "Don't cry.  You can't cry here."

"Why not?" the younger mumbled, sniffling.

"Because it's not the time to cry.  When the war really 
starts, you'll understand.  This is small.  There are more 
important things that need tears, save it until one of 
those important times comes around.  Then you can 
really cry and it'll be right."

"I don't get it.  I just lost my house...why can't I cry 
about that?" 

"Did your family live there?"

"I don't have a family."

"Was it your home or just someplace that you stayed?" 
The younger pulled back and looked up, confused.  The 
taller kid sighed.  "Did this place really mean that much 
to you that you'd cry over the loss of a bunch of bricks?"

The younger child shook their head and the older 
nodded.  "Thought so.  Don't cry over it then.  Save it for 
when you get a family and when you lose them.  
Wasting your tears like this cheapens them."

"I'm such a bad son.." the younger mumbled, wiping his 
eyes.  "Mom always said boys don't cry and look at 
me."

The older blinked in surprise.  "You're a boy?"

"...Duh."  

"But your hair is so long...I thought you were a girl."

"Well, I'm not, so get over it," the boy snapped.  "You 
don't look so boyish either if you want my opinion."

The older boy frowned.  "You recover quickly, don't 
you."

The younger boy blinked and realized that he had 
stopped crying.  "Yeah...guess I do."

A shadow passed over them and they looked up.  The 
older boy narrowed his eyes and pushed the younger 
down.  The camera zoomed in and focused on where 
the two boys had disappeared.  After a few minutes, a 
shaggy brown haired head poked up and glanced 
around.

"The mobile suit's gone..." he announced and stood up. 
The other boy with longer hair stood later and brushed 
his pants off.  The older boy listened for a moment, then 
turned to the younger one.  "Someone's coming and I 
should go.  My master'll be mad if I'm late."

The younger blinked, looking up at the other.  "Master?"

"Aa.  He's training me to be a soldier...then I can kill the 
people who try to hurt me," the older boy explained.

The younger boy looked up and smiled faintly.  "I hope I 
never hurt you, but I just realized something..."

"What's that?"

"I'm destined to be killed by you...either by kindness or 
a gun.  Either way, you'll catch me in the end."  The 
younger boy smiled again.  "I have a feeling we'll meet 
again."

The older boy stood there, shocked.  "What's your 
name?"

"I don't remember it anymore.  What about you?" 

"Odin Lowe Jr."

The younger boy turned and started to run as another 
shadow passed over them.  "We'll meet again, Odin!  
Stay alive until then!"

A booming noise shook the camera and the picture
flickered before dying completely.  

Heero stared at the computer as it beeped softly and 
stuck a disk in.  He wasn't going to lose something like 
that.  He had been fighting so hard to find purpose in his 
life.  Now he had it.  His past had told him what his 
future was.  

--Downloading...--

--Transfer complete--

--Delete all files--

--Deleting...--

--All files deleted--

The room fell dark once more as the door clicked shut.  
He knew where he was going now.  He knew what home 
was.  He knew where home was.  Home was with him 
wherever he was and Heero knew he'd find him down on 
that blue green planet.  Or else on the neighboring L2 
colony.  He never had been able to keep track of that 
kid.  He smiled for once in his life as he stole down the 
hallway.  While L1 was no longer his home, maybe L2 
could be...

"Matte, Duo...ore ga kuru..."



~owari~


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Thanks for reading and here's a translation of the last
line for you:  "Wait, Duo....I'm coming...."  There ya go.
So tell me what you thought about it by hitting that little 
reply button.  All C&C is welcome...even flames if you 
really didn't like it at all.  ^^;;  Thank you for your time.

~Murasakikaze~


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