Will be dark for some, funny to others, full of bad language.
Japanese Psycho
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By: Anand Rao
From the very first day I met her, I knew she was for me. She was strong,
supple, and sexy. Oh, and that rage. Such rage. As soon as she hit me
with that dining room table, I knew I had to have her. That's why I insult
her all the time. I love the contortions of her face when she's about to
scream. She releases her rage so easily, and so openly.
I envy that.
I want to release my rage. I want to let it loose upon everyone around me.
The old man taught me about control. Control, control, control. It has
been ingrained into me, manifesting itself in everything I do. But control.
. . is so boring. Life is so boring.
Even the excitement of the curse was short lived. I mean, there's only so
many times that I can masturbate as a chick. It felt nice, I suppose, but
there still wasn't any release.
How pathetically sad and painful.
As a guy I can get it up and get it hard, but still no release. As a girl.
. . Hell, I'm frigid.
Control, control, control.
I thought about fucking Shampoo, hoping that the tight wet grasp of her cunt
would take me where my hands could not, but that would have been purely
physical, and I'm beyond that. Physical pleasure and pain are equally
meaningless now.
Still. . . she's one hot slut.
Of all the girls I know, she's the hottest. Akane's got the rage, Shampoo's
got the body, and Ukyou? Damn, I don't even know why I hang out with her
anymore. Talk about one dull bitch! She wouldn't know personality if it
sat on her face and wiggled. Well, she makes good food, and it's free, so I
guess I can suffer through her personality in small doses. But I swear,
there are times I just want to smash her face into that precious grill of
hers. I'd cut her up, use her blood for sauce and organs for toppings.
And then there's Kodachi. Ah Kodachi. . . what a fake! Everyone believes
she's crazy, but I know crazy, I know it rather intimately, and what I see
in Kodachi is actually fear. Fear of getting hurt, fear of letting anyone
get close, fear of being rejected, fear of not seeming strong.
What a pathetic loser.
This whole situation has been going on for too long and my mask of sanity is
starting to crumble. I just can't seem to stop it. Control was the key,
and I lost it. I killed a man. I killed Saffron. I shattered his limbs
then put him on ice. I killed him. . . .
And I liked it.
It felt great! It was pure ecstasy, pure release, and I wanted to keep on
killing. Maybe I'd fuck Shampoo then off her. There wouldn't be any
consequences that way. Then I could kill Mousse and the Old Ghoul. They'd
be sure to put up some sort of a fuss after I kill the bimbo. Then perhaps
Ukyou and my old man, and Kodachi and Kuno.
It would be wonderful! But I'd just get bored again. That's the problem
with total control or total lack of control. They both lead to the same
place.
All this brings me back to Akane. She lives in that limbo between control
and rage. She balances both so well, and I have no idea how or why. I
can't even read her. She hides the rage so well until she's ready to
unleash it. Akane is perfect. Or at least, she was. . . In the past few
months, she's been becoming more and more. . . sweet.
She's been nice and she smiles more often. She touches me, shyly and
gently, and her eyes shine expectantly. My insults aren't having as much as
an effect any more. She's becoming dull and domesticated.
I can't let that happen. If Akane falls into the trap of how society
dictates 'things should be', then there is absolutely no hope for me.
Perhaps I need to take things to the next level. I'm sure Akane would enjoy
that.
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End
Notes:
I saw American Psycho the other day. It was a rather disturbingly funny
film. As we all know, Ranma can be crossed with anything, so...
:)
If you bothered to read the thing, feel free to take the effort to send
flames and disparaging comments to
jouve25@hotmail.com
Namaste,
Anand
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