Okay...I know that I *should* be working on my other
story...I *know* I should. However, this little fic has been
burning in my mind ever since I heard of <insert title of
the anime>, and I had to get it down. *sighs and notices
people carrying very harmful weapons about her lag time
on Secret Games* I'm off! Ja!!
Just Smile
~Murasakikaze~
You know...I've always wondered about that exact same
thing, so don't worry, you're not alone. I know what you're
thinking: "You're a total quack." Yeah, maybe it's true, but at
least I understand, isn't that enough? I tried my best to stay
by your side even when you pushed me away and it was
hard. Oh, you don't know how hard it was. I felt like crying
or shouting or screaming every single moment, but then I'd
have another urge: the urge to hold you.
I wanted to tell you that everything would be alright, but not in
my usual tone of "I'm-so-happy-I-think-I'll-go-shoot-myself-
full-of-sugar" voice. I wanted to hold you and tell you
seriously that this would end and that we could be happy.
Yeah, even you could be happy if you tried hard enough.
Sure, you think I'm crazy, but at least I understand you more
than she does. I know you love her, but I can't help but touch
your hand as you sleep and smile wistfully. Couldn't you at
least look at me once without that edge of ice or that fire that
fuels your rage?
I know you wonder exactly what I could be thinking of that
you'd be thinking of so I'll tell you and put your mind at ease:
Death. It's what we live for, or rather move towards, isn't it?
It's who we are. We are Angels of Death no matter what we
do...no matter who we are.... I see that manical glint in your
eyes and it drives me insane because I want to capture it
and let it run wild at the same time. Your tireless efforts
fuel my own spirit more than anyone else could, but you
don't seem to understand me. Or do you? That's the one
thing I can't decipher about you.
You're like one of those Brain Teaser puzzles. You know,
the ones that drive you out of your mind only to find out the
key was in moving right not left? Okay, maybe not, but
anyway, you are the only one who is so complex in their
simplicity. The other puzzles weren't like you at all...they
were almost no fun. Heck, Trowa and Quatre were easy.
Wufei was a bit harder...then there's you. You hardly talk
to me or even look at me, but I know that somewhere in
that cold mind of yours you do see it. I understand you,
Heero Yuy...so could you smile for me? Tell me that you
understand at least a little? Heero...please...just smile
for me...
~*~
Shinkidosenki Gundam Wing does not belong to me because
if it did I wouldn't be as poor as I am now. Please do not sue
me for this because I know I'm doing this without the creators'
permission, but as I said before I'm too poor to even bother
with.
Comments, Criticisms, and (gulp) Flames are being accepted
(well, maybe not the last part) and welcomed/appreciated at
TaliaShimae@juno.com
Oh...And One Other Thing...
Please don't tie to me a Gundam's leg and send me into
space for this! Uchuu no Kokoro would not be happy with you
if you did and neither would I for that matter.