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<AUTHOR>
<NAME>
Marsia Mariner
</NAME>
<E-MAIL>
sailormars@myself.com
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"http://worldrevolution.tripod.com/"
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<ACKNOWLEDGEMENT>
Special thanks to "The Legendary Redhawke" <redhawke@home.com>,
whose unbiased and honest criticism did inspire me to write this
text.
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<DEDICATION>
FOR TAKEUCHI NAOKO
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"Like the dust that settles all around me, I must find a new home;
the ways and holes that used to give me shelter, are all as one to me
now. But I, I would search everywhere, just to hear your call, and
walk upon stranger roads than this one in a world I used to know
before. More than the sun reflecting off my pillow, ringing the
warmth of new life, I do miss you; and the sound that echoes all
around me, I caught a glimpse of in the night; but now, now I've
lost everything, I give to you my soul. The meaning of all that I
believed before escapes me in this world of none, no thing, no one;
and I would search everywhere just to hear your call, and walk upon
stranger roads than this one in a world I used to know before. 'Cause
now I've lost everything, I give to you my soul; the meaning of all
that I believed before escapes me in this world of none. I miss you
more." ["AFTERGLOW" --- by *Genesis*]
\\ [Extreme Sailor Mercury's Log ---
\\ Entry #1]
Aquarius Date 00003.7
Twenty-four days ago, the human History was ended by Extreme Sailor
Saturn. I did help her to make it, however I am sure she actually
would never need any help from me for doing it. I still am trying to
understand completely what has happened to my existence since the day
I witnessed the fall of Sailor Moon. I didn't think something like
that could ever really happen... and I would never imagine it would be
that way. Anyhow, 'twas good that it did happen. The lies of the Moon
Kingdom were finished forever, once and for all. Today I am Extreme
Sailor Mercury, and I have nothing to do with the one that once was
known as Sailor Moon. Even better, Mizuno Ami the fool is dead --- or
being killed slowly, at least. No one but me myself will ever know how
miserable my former life was. I was friendless, hopeless, loveless,...
and senseless. Right today I still am friendless and loveless, but I
can do feel hope, and I have found some sense. It was already so hard
to have to live my ordinary life as Mizuno Ami... and I had to be
another slave to Sailor Moon, too! I always hated to have had to
remember who I was one thousand years ago. Living only one stupid life
is not shit enough? But I had no choice; well, at least I believed I
didn't have any. I was so despaired because of my loneliness that I
had to keep Usagi's fake care for me; and for the same reason I never
dared to tell her that the Moon Kingdom died only because nothing
lasts forever, and that sending our spirits into the future had been
just a foul and cowardly trick. And then, all against my true will, I
accepted to be Sailor Mercury again, as though Death really had never
taken our common past far away...
I still do recall my last childhood... how much I hated the effective
inferiority of the women before the men! How much I have always hated
the stupidity of the men --- and of the women as well! And how much I
did hate to have to be powerless! Yes, this was the second reason why
I accepted to be Sailor Mercury again: to be able to experience the
power once more. As a child, and a female one, I could not stand to
admit my absolute lack of power, so one day I thought that knowledge
could some day, somehow, compensate it. But of course I was wrong.
Being clever could never prevent me from being too shy, or having a
low self-esteem... to learn more and more quickly became just my
favorite way of escaping from facing the others. And also a way of
being *used!* by my fake friends, by my schoolmates,... and by Sailor
Moon! Deep inside I have never liked Usagi; I really liked her one
thousand years ago, when I still was not Mizuno Ami, and when she was
not Tsukino Usagi --- and this fact is only a memory today. Deep
inside she fooled even herself; she believed that she liked me only in
order to prevent herself from feeling guilty for having been just
using me. If she and the other Senshi together were more powerful, my
brains would be totally useless to them, and probably I would never
have been recalled of my former existence as a Sailor Senshi. What a
slut she was! What perfect bastards those cats were! And what a fool I
had been! Sailor Saturn for sure is much better than Sailor Moon: she
does not need me --- she wants me.
The day Extreme Sailor Saturn destroyed Sailor Moon was the best gift
that Fate could ever send to me. Till then, I believed that my life
had no salvation any more; but the exact moment that I *felt* and
*saw* that a new and invincible power had just risen, I just could not
hide my joy: yes!, at last I could be free again, at last I could stop
pretending! I could, if --- if I joined Saturn. However, I didn't know
whether she would like me to join her; but I had to try it, in spite
of my fear and hesitation. Something in her voice did tell me that she
wanted me to be her ally; but I kept hesitating, wanting not to be
sure, until I unconsciously made Sailor Venus call me "insane". Well,
when I finally saw Mars and Saturn together, more beautiful than ever,
surrounded by the bright-yellow auras of their Steam Shells, I did
think: "I *want* to be like them!", and I only acted as accordingly as
I could. Notwithstanding, my fear started to fade away only when
Saturn herself explicitly asked me whether I really wanted to join
her. Because when Mars said "in the name of Saturn I wellcome you!",
and Saturn laughed at it, I did fear I had just performed the most
stupid action ever in my whole life. It seemed that they had not taken
me seriously, or even worse, that they would never give a fuck about
my wish. I already knew that Sailor Moon and the other Senshi were
going to be eliminated, and from them on I did fear I was just going
to be the last one of them to be forever destroyed by Mars or by
Saturn. And from then on, I only had to watch the new-born Extreme
Senshi killing Neptune, Uranus and Makoto --- and making Usagi finally
show that Sailor Moon actually had died one thousand years ago, and
would never be successfully reborn in the present. Today Usagi is only
the favorite sex-toy of Mars --- well done!
The love Saturn and Mars feel for each other... is admirable.
Beautiful. Probably the love between Saturn and *me* will be that
beautiful too, however... I do feel that I'm not ready for it yet. But
Saturn understands me, and she's been patient with this. She did tell
me: "You know what, Mercury,... you are not pretty at all, as you
already know, notwithstanding, I do feel an undeniable sexual
attraction for you. And as I *am* beautiful, I guess it won't be that
difficult to let yourself show that deep inside you feel the same for
me.". Sooner or later I will stop resisting her charms --- or myself,
as she clearly stressed. What I am still very afraid of is something
odd that I felt about her; I mentioned this to Mars, and she told me
the following: "It is her own special way of making love: she can do
make my spirit lodge at her body, and her spirit lodge at my body;
for some moments, I am Saturn and Saturn is me. The very first time it
happened, I couldn't help feeling a bit scared, but quickly I got used
to it, and now I even enjoy it.". Well, I must admit that I am not
ready for that yet. It still sounds like a mutual psychic rape, and
it is going to take some more time until I am able to accept it as
just another perfectly natural possibility. Any way, she does want to
love me, much like she loves Mars. She does not need us; she wants not
only to possess our bodies, but also to bring out the truest of our
selves. She increased the Senshi powers of both Mars and me only
because she wanted to *see* the best of us made true. So, she does
deserve to receive my love --- and she will receive it, though not so
soon.
At first I went quite shocked for discovering that only as a cyborg I
could have a virtually infinite and invincible power. But then Saturn
reminded me of the scary black flames of Extreme Sailor Mars and
pointed out that Mars would never be able to collect and manage the
enourmous quantities of energy required for merging the fire power
with the ice power if she had not been turned into a cyborg like
Saturn herself. Saturn described to me how difficult it was to
have had to be the surgeon and the patient at the same time, and swore
that she would make the surgery be painless to me, and that it would
leave no scars at all on my skin. After killing my hesitation, but not
my fear, I accepted to have a bionic replacement. Less then forty
minutes were all the time she needed to remove my organic womb and put
an equivalent bionic device between my oviducts and my vagina. And
yes, I felt no pain at all, and the surgery didn't leave any scars on
my skin, as she promised me. Two hours later, I had energy enough to
light my fire powers, and four hours later I got my first Cold Fire. I
confess I was a bit disappointed because my cold flames were not
black, but that disappointment didn't last long, fortunately. Now I am
very fond of my blue cold flames --- and of my bionic womb too.
Twenty-four days ago I killed my so-called family. In fact, it was the
very first part of what Saturn ironically named my "world work".
Though a little part of the old me showed some resistance and tried to
get in my way, it was not that difficult at all --- quite otherwise,
it made me feel a very special kind of bliss. All my old belongings,
I destroyed them all too --- especially the diary of Mizuno Ami. The
next step of my "world work" was to show to the human world that
something terrific was coming and would be here to stay. Mars and I
started to destroy statues, monuments, museums, temples, whatever, and
any one who dared to get in our way. "Inutilia truncat!", as Saturn
said in a moment of consciously uninspired humour. In less than twelve
hours, I and Mars did a quite good job, though not a complete one. It
was Mars who destroyed "Miss Liberty" and the "Cristo Redentor", and
it was I who destroyed the Eiffel Tower and the main Egyptian Pyramid
(Khufu); my cunt!, I didn't think that the pleasure to destroy could
be *so*... immense... I wish that I had been allowed to choose, for I
wanted to destroy the Atomium, but it was Saturn who did decide what
was to be destroyed by Mars and what was to be destroyed by Mercury.
After all, she really did know what she was doing. While the
"inutilia" of this world were being eliminated by me and Mars, the
Pope made a very serious decision: he was finally going to reveal to
the rest of the world a secret that should have been revealed many
many years ago. But it was already too late for him and for all that
he represented. The moment he was going to do it, Saturn called us; we
immediately teleported to Rome, and witnessed a small demonstration of
her unlimited power. Her eyes were glowing scaringly, emitting a
bright-yellow light, even brighter than the yellow light of our Steam
Shells; however she was not "wearing" her own Steam Shell, as though
she didn't need it any more. And she actually didn't. Firstly she
looked deep into my eyes for one eternal second, then she did the same
to Mars, and then she said: "Now I am going to show everyone what
power is for. Please, pay attention.". "Please", she said. As if we
really could choose not to do it! Yes!, we did want to see "what power
is for"!
Billions of people were listening very carefully to what the Pope was
saying. He was wasting the little remainder of his lifetime by giving
them a useless explanation, by listing all the reasons why the
Catholic Church had postponed "ad aeternum" the disclosure of that
terrible "secret". But all of a sudden, he stopped speaking --- and
moving. It looked like time had been frozen upon his body only
(Saturn explained to me that she selectively bound his body to an
infinitely slow flow of time --- quite different from the "Time Stop"
move of Sailor Pluto, but not less impressive, I must say). Some
seconds later, Saturn materialized beside him, and introduced herself
to the billions who were watching TV, listening to the radio, or
connected to the Internet.
"Humans!, listen to me now! This day your history *ends*. I *am* the
ultimate Avatar of Shiva, and from this moment on this planet does
belong to *me*. I *am* its Empress, and there is absolutely nothing
you can do to escape from this destiny. Right now I have just started
to control the minds of the ones among you that I *chose* for being my
servants. All the Military, all the technicians, all the scientists,
the strongest and the cleverest among you, they *are* obeying *me*,
and no one else. In my name, they will control your jobs, and your
lives. Your existences will go just a little worse, for the time
being. But the ones your lives depended upon are about to be
eliminated by my new servants. Your presidents, your mayors, your
ministers, your ambassadors, your kings, your princes, your chiefs,
your employers, your cops, your priests, all your former *oppressors*
are about to be exterminated by my new servants. The times have just
changed, and from this day on there is only one oppressor for this
entire planet, and her name is my name, Extreme Sailor Saturn! The
décadence of the last two thousand years of your history is over now.
The Roman Empire finally dies today. The décadence of the last ten
thousand years of your history is over, too. The foul cowards who
destroyed Atlantis will be captured and punished by myself, and by my
armies, and by my space fleets, and by my associates. The glory of
Atlantis is about to be reborn, ten thousand times brighter than it
was before. And *all* of you are going to pay hard for having always
believed in the gods and never in your true selves. Your non-existent
gods have never helped you, and they never will. Here comes the
demonstration!" Then Saturn turned her head and looked at the Pope,
and pointed the palm of her left hand at his head. The light emitted
by her eyes suddenly changed from yellow to blue, and a lightning bolt
flowed from her hand towards the head of the Pope. A violent and
silent explosion disintegrated his head, and his body fell lifeless
onto the ground. The light from her eyes became yellow again, and she
dematerialized her body. "Mercury! Mars! Our tasks are over for today!
Show them all what must be done to the dead bodies, and then go back
to our Ice Palace!" --- she ordered. "As you wish!", we answered. Mars
and I materialized close to the dead body of the Pope. We picked it
up, and threw it at the astounded crowd below us. "Now?", I asked
Mars. "Now!", she confirmed. Her "Fire Soul" and my "Liquid Fire"
together incinerated the last incarnation of the décadence of the
Roman Empire. The reign of Saturn had just begun.
Less than three double-hours were all the time her living "robots"
needed to kill away the political structure of this world. She did
tell the humans no lies. The people she chose for being her new
"servants" were telepathically and irresistibly mesmerized by her
power --- her seemingly infinite and always surprising power ---,
and were programmed to achieve *her* goals. All over the world, they
took control of the industries, of the companies, and of the farms.
Schools are dead. There is no more television, and there are no more
radio stations. No more newspapers. No more money. No more commerce.
No more songs. No more movies. No more theaters. The useless books are
being destroyed. Every info Saturn feels that is relevant is being
duly stored and preserved; what is not relevant, is discarded forever.
So this is the real "Age of Silence". The time for wisdom. And the
time for planning the next wars, too. Saturn does not only supervise
the work of her slaves, she also looks for all the girls who sincerely
would like to join her. They are being transformed into new Sailor
Senshi. Most of this job has been done by Mars. Sooner or later, at
least some of them will be turned into Extreme Senshi too. By the way,
sooner or later all human males will disappear. The human females will
be only very useful incubators; her wombs will feed the embryos of the
new Sailor Senshi, as well as the embryos of new living incubators.
Reproduction will be their only task, and sexual pleasure will be our
privilege. No more families, no more parents, no more kinship, no more
"education", no more countries, no more religions, no more...
troubles. Under the reign of Saturn, everything is going to be pretty
less difficult. Machines will do work for us, but Saturn will keep
punishing some creatures with the need for overworking, just for her
own fun. Why not?
My cunt!, the full power of Sailor Moon would have been more than
enough to revolutionize the world! However she did choose the wrong
path, she chose to fight the need for evolution. She didn't want to
realize the terrible mistake that Queen Serenity made. The Moon
Kingdom had to die. Everyone and everything has to face their own
death. Queen Serenity didn't want to do it. The ones who destroyed
Atlantis either. Nowadays the one who once was her daughter is paying
for that mistake. The Moon Kingdom would never be reborn, after all.
All the ones who dare to attempt stopping evolution must be punished.
Sailor Moon was punished by Sailor Saturn. The first part of that
punishment was the awakening of the true self of Hino Rei. Usagi did
not hide from my eyes the deep sadness that the last letter from
Setsuna brought to her heart. She didn't stand that Rei, her best
friend, had "betrayed" her and become an "evil" warrior. Now I realize
that she would never dare to fight Mars and Saturn: she was totally
unable to feel anger, all that she could feel then was her self-pity.
She could not give orders to the other Senshi. She had lost her
authority. Then came to her the second part of the punishment --- her
authority was the only thing that could ever avoid that I defected and
joined Saturn, and it didn't exist any more. The moment I declared my
intention of being with Saturn, she was already defeated. Her
self-confidence had been just knocked-out. From then on, she and the
other Senshi actually could do nothing except awaiting the time for
being killed by Mars and Saturn. Because of the way they were feeling,
they could be easily attacked by surprise, and then they just did not
know what to do. They got what they actually deserved, indeed.
At least Sailor Pluto died with some honour: she always knew that she
was wrong, and at last she consciously accepted to pay the price for
having chosen the wrong path. To get in the way of evolution: this
crime against the Universe never pays, and Extreme Sailor Saturn has
come around right in order to demonstrate it.
And I wish so much that I was already co-operating with her present
works! However she gave me no permission to do so... She just told me
that "I am not ready yet". Why Mars may keep helping her but I am not
allowed to even start giving her my co-operation? "Try to guess", she
told me. "I will realize the moment you're ready to start giving your
contribution to my work. While it does not come to you, just relax.
Sometimes it's not only desirable to go through a 'dolce far niente',
sometimes it may be quite necessary. Trust me!" Well, I have tried not
to understand what she meant, but I have failed. I decided to write a
diary again only because lately I have not found more interesting
things to do; after three weeks of "dolce far niente", I do feel very
very... bored. Probably I am "getting ready" at last. Sooner than my
fear expected.
\\ [End of Entry]
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-- Saturn...
-- Yes?
-- I... I am ready for... you.
-- No, you're not.
-- !
-- Why are you still so afraid of saying the *right* words?
-- The *right*... words?
-- Yes.
--
--
-- I am ready for your... *love*.
-- Fine!
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\\ [Extreme Sailor Mercury's Log ---
\\ Entry #2]
Aquarius Date 00003.9
Yesterday I gave in to Saturn. She bewitched me. What now? What do I
feel for her? Love? Passion? Infatuation? I tried her only once... and
I feel I will beg for more --- in spite of the fact that I still am
afraid of her... power. At the seventh double-hour we entered her
bed-room. She pointed at her bed and told me: "Mercury, lie down over
there. And do *not* take off your clothes --- please.".
"Extraordinary", I thought. Well, I obeyed. Strange: I could not feel
I was actually scared. But I was. Somehow, I had found a way to make
my conscious mind ignore my fear. Notwithstanding, my heart was
beating four times each second, so there was no doubt that I *was*
very afraid of what Saturn was going to do to me.
"Now close your eyes, and *wait*.", she said. I closed my eyes, and
*waited*. She sat down on her bed, and I did feel like my entire body
was being scanned by her violet eyes. Yes, I felt like I was being
treated as a mere object, as a "thing" --- and I liked it!
Finally she started to touch me. Very slowly and very lightly her
fingertips slid along my left forearm. "Impossible!", I thought.
I was feeling sexual pleasure in my forearm! It was as though it had
suddenly become a new clitoris... or rather, as if the erogenous
sensitivity of my clitoris had been transferred to my forearm...
I opened my eyes, but before I could say a word, Saturn asked me:
"Do you enjoy it?"
"Of course I do! But"
"It is not so magical as it might seem.", she answered. "It is just a
matter of..." --- she closed her eyes, and smiled. --- "Blood. Oxygen.
*Vitality*. The sex organs and the breasts do exactly the same, but
by the easiest way. Do you know what I mean?"
"I think so..." --- I thought about the three words she mentioned:
blood, oxygen, vitality,... and all of a sudden I exclaimed:
"...Liver?!"
"Would you like to try it right now?"
"I... Yes!"
"But you still are *so* afraid!"
"Saturn!, fuck my fear!"
"Good! I am starting to like you more!"
This time she laid the palm of her left hand upon the right side of my
abdomen. And the magic of her touch became more evident. Her energy
was so strong that penetrated directly in my etheric body and made it
vibrate by itself; no electric motor would ever be a match for her
magic hands! The same thing that had just happened to my left forearm
was happening to my liver too. But this time the pleasure was much
more intense... for the first time I could *really* understand the
"Liebestod"... for the first time I could start having a correct idea
of what Richard Wagner was "talking about" when he composed the
"Liebestod"...
"My cunt!, it feels *so* good!"
"`Cunt´, you said, huh? Not so soon, my love..."
Saturn touched my nipples with her middle fingers. I didn't know that
my breasts could get *so* full of blood... I didn't know that they
could really go so *hard*... It felt so... *intoxicating*... and it
was almost painful, too. As for my vagina... its walls quickly became
erect and soon drenched the cotton gusset of my panties. The clitoral
bulbs that surround its introit started to throb, following my
heartbeats --- gladly I noticed that I was not so afraid as I was in
the beginning... My long clitoris was already fully erect, and every
contraction of the muscles of my vulva made its glans press tenderly
against the fabric of my panties... And then I realized that I had
spread my thighs.
Saturn realized it too, for only then she said:
"Would you mind taking off your panties now? *Only* the panties!,
please!"
One more time, I obeyed her.
"Could you giv'em to me? Please?"
"Hmmm... why not?"
"Thank you, Mercury!"
"Not at all..."
Another surprise: she was *not* wearing panties! And she did put on
the ones that I had just given to her! "Saturn!", I did exclaim.
"Shut up! And keep your legs open! I want to look into your cunt ---
one more time!"
Always very gently, her fingers unveiled my vulva for her eyes. She
inserted my genitocrural folds into my inguinal grooves, thus exposing
my labia majora completely.
"I adore your pretty big clit! Did you know that you have a true
prostatic gland too?"
"Are you serious???!"
"Yes. But now I want to see your vagina.". --- She spread my labia
minora, then spread my circumvaginal lips, and finally saw my
hymenless vaginal orifice.
"Luckily your hymen disappeared before you were born. And your
clitoris is so long and thick... your cunt is indeed very special,
Mercury! How much I wish that mine was just like yours..."
"And I wish that you made me cum as soon as possible..."
"Good!"
Saturn put her right forefinger on the glans of my clitoris and her
right middle finger on its shaft. Immediately her vibrating magic
started to do its best. The pleasure that my clitoris was given was
simply... extreme. I didn't think that a vaginal ache could ever be
*so* intense; I didn't think that an orgasm could ever be *so*
intoxicating; and I didn't think that I would ever be able to
ejaculate.
"Mercury!, you *are* ejaculating! It is so... beautiful!..."
But for sure she knew that I was "too busy" and was not going
to answer to her last comment. My eyes were closed again, for I was
still enjoying the sweet rapture of my first extreme orgasm... but
suddenly I felt her lips pressing against my lips, her thirsty tongue
invading my mouth... that strange metallic taste rising inside my
throat again, those bioenergetic pulses rushing from the soles of my
feet and from my calves towards the hole between my thighs, and from
my stomach and my breasts towards my tongue and my teeth... and then I
realized that something didn't seem to feel quite right... I opened up
my eyes, and could not help screaming --- for I was in her body,
kissing my body in the mouth! Immediately the spell was broken, and I
sent myself back to my material body.
"You sweet cowardly fool... I only hope you don't need three more
weeks to start getting used to my honest kind of love..."
"And I won't! Please forgive me! Don't let my senselessness get in
your way! Let me try again!"
"I would... but your fear is so strong that your spirit will keep
refusing to lodge at my body."
"You liar! You *can* force my spirit to remain inside your body in
spite of my unconscious resistance!"
"Very good! --- But... are you absolutely sure that you want it?"
That stupid game of hers had just gone too far. I slapped her on the
face. And I thought: "Fuck! I'm dead!"
But she didn't punish me. I had done exactly what she had been
expecting me to do. One more time she gave me her magic kiss... and
much more. Especially one very important lesson. Before she sent me
back to my material body, I asked her: "Saturn... ¿Why?"
And she answered simply:
"Because I love me."
\\ [End of Entry]
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\\ [Extreme Sailor Mercury's Log ---
\\ Entry #3]
Aquarius Date 00004.3
Three days ago I effectively started to work for Saturn. She did let
me choose my present task. I have been so busy! Between my job and her
love... there ain't things more important to be done. Then... why
should I keep writing this log? Because I want it --- for now.
In 00004.0 she showed me a list. And many reports. It was not
difficult to make the right choice. I told her: "I want to supervise
the construction of our space ships!"
"Really???"
"Yes."
"As you wish. --- You have 321 days to give me 100,000 battle ships at
least."
"I will give you at least 200,000 battle ships within 150 days."
"Mercury!"
"Saturn! This planet has *billions* of humans. And I will do make them
all work for you."
"Excellent!"
"And I say `thank you´. 'Cause you are the finest teacher."
Then she smiled once again.
\\ [End of Entry]
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