Subject: [FFML] [Ranma] To Forget Tears
From: "Hayashi" <hayashi@elhazard.net>
Date: 1/30/2000, 4:27 PM
To: ffml@fanfic.com

Ranma 1/2 and all characters and situations are the rightful

creation of Rumiko Takahashi, and not myself. I have no rights

to her creations.



                         To Forget Tears

            An incomplete addendum to The Memory of Tears



    He walked, for how long he did not know. He struggled, but then

there had never been a time when he had not. And he wandered,

through city and through countryside, past lake and river and

stream and hill and mountain. Through forests both deep and dark he

walked, trying to outdistance the past. He was Ryu Kumon. His

father was dead. His father's last request rendered impossible.

Even if his father's last request was possible, he still would not

do it, not after knowing the truth.

    It was winter now. The snow was blinding, and it may have been

night, though with the blizzard it was impossible to tell. A crude

set of snowshoes allowed him to keep going over the snow, but not

for much longer. Even with his endurance it was not possible.

Shelter was needed, and there were no signs of habitation near this

forest.

    He sunk to his knees suddenly overcome by the elements, and

screamed frustration and defiance. "I don't want to die here!" Ryu

Kumon shouted at the world. "Not like this! Not this way." But his

legs refused to work, and the load on his back was very heavy and

he was ever so ever so tired and he could only pull himself along

the snow with his arms for so long, whispering endlessly, Not this

way," before he passed into a place of fitfull dreams and uneasy

rest. He did not notice slender arms and delicate hands reach down

and drag him into a nearby cave.



    He woke up to the sensation of someone pounding on his chest.

He hacked and coughed and was about to retaliate when the woman

pounding on his chest said, "You have pneumonia. We have to clear

out your lungs." She smiled, kind and gentle, then resumed pounding

the phlegm out of his chest.

    A gurgling sound came from him, almost like screaming

underwater, as he convulsed once, twice and the greenish phlegm

came up from his lungs. The woman continued to help pound it out of

his lungs.

    Days passed, or they did not. Hard to perceive time under the

woman's care where everything  was the same. He suffered through

her ministrations wordlessly. She spoke little, as well, though the

kindness in her smile and gentleness of her mein was evident. 

    On one day she stopped the poundings on his chest. Still weak,

but cured. He woke up, chest feeling clear. Bones weary and aching

from long hours of inactivity instead of illness. He stands,

leaning heavily with one palm on the stone slab that was his bed

for so long, and looks around at his surroundings for the first

time. A cave, natural or man-made it was hard to tell. Comfortable,

though, warm and furnished and well insulated from the elements. A

gas lantern stood on a shelf carved out of the rock, just above eye

level, and a fire off on the other side of the cave which had a

possibly natural chimney, provided ample lighting and warmth.

    Ryu Kumon tottered towards the back of the cave. She was there,

the woman who rescued him. One palm on the back of the cave, merely

resting there, not leaning against it. She looked at him with a

smiling, expectant, and not saying a word. Without warning, without

any sound whatsoever, she pushed against the cave wall, which fell

away and beyond there was a world of green leaves and trees which

bore both flowers and fruit at the same time. She walked into that

land, smiling and beckoning him to follow with her hands.

    He looked around him at the cave, which seemed suddenly darker

compared to the brightness coming from that green and growing place

before him. A gust of wind and snow blew in from the cave entrance,

ignoring the door which was now no longer there. He looked back at

the now retreating figure of the woman who nursed him back to

health as the snow swilred around his feet. Having nothing left to

lose, he shrugged and followed.



                                    *



                                    *



                                    *



    Ranma sat there, in a chair by the window, watching silently. A

gibbous moon streams in through the sill, gently illumining the

room. Beside Ranma there is a crib, one that he is slowly rocking

and looking at very intently. He is a man, now, fully grown. The

child in the crib, the object of his concentration, is his as he

hallf-chants half-sings a lullaby. The calming sussurations of his

voice mingle with the sensations of the cradle and his child, his

firstborn male son is soon asleep.

    Neither the rocking nor the soft, quiet words stop. He sat

there, watching his child with uncommon eyes, fierce and protective

and loving. Not even his wife, whom he loved with all his heart and

all his mind and all his soul, whom he loved so deeply and so

totally that sometimes it terrified him, late at night, waking him

up, not even she engendered this look from him.

    After another hour he sighs, and stops the rocking, stops

repeating the lullaby. Another night. He stands up and stretches,

yawning, but quietly so as not to wake his son. Something does,

however, something wakes Ranma's child. Perhaps it was the

cessation of the rocking motion, or maybe it was now too quiet, or

the yawn was not quiet enough, or maybe even simple hunger:

regardless, the newborn was awake and yowling.

    Hesitantly, almost fearfully, Ranma turns and bends to look in

the crib. Something unusual on his son's face-- could it be? Ranma

reaches down with one finger and dabs near his child's eyes. He

brings it back up and tastes the liquid. Salty.

    Ranma smiles, mouth growing wider and wider until it threatens

to split his face. He picks up his son and, now tears in his own

eyes crows out, "That's it, my son, that's right. Let it all out,

poor boy. You just cry until you don't want to anymore. Hush, hush,

it'll be okay, my handsome lad, you. Everything's going to be

alright now, and don't ever let anyone tell you that crying's

wrong."

    And when his wife found them when she came to see what the

noise was all about she saw Ranma, standing in front of the three

quarter moon, cradling their crying son in his arms, and smiling

and praising the boy and crying along with him.





Author's Note: This is an unfinished work, since my objective is to

tell Ryu Kumon's story, which will explain the ending with Ranma and

his son. I have come to realize that prereaders may be useful for

this endeavor, and any help would be appreciated. Offers of this nature

should be done privately, and, while I am still technically in Vacation

mode, through the use of various archiving systems, I manage to keep up,

more or less, with what is happening.



Any C&C is appreciated. Thank you for your time.





Clearly now I tell you man

That all I say is all I can

For I am nothing but my sin

Until I learn to caste them in

          --Crystal Wrists, Peter Murphy





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