The return
goo
����� It had been raining for most of the day.
����� It was almost closing time. The manager was tidying up behind the
grill area - she was near her twenties. The door slowly slid open, and a
man entered the restaurant. He bowed and smiled at the manager - the
manager bowed and smiled in return.
����� The person who entered the room was about the same age as the
manager. He gently placed his umbrella beside the door and took a seat
beside the grill area. The manager saw that there was sadness in his face
- she left what she was doing, went to the door and placed the sign as
closed.
����� She approached the man and hugged him tight.
����� "When did you arrive? It has been a year since you left. And why
the long face? And why did you go away in the first place? I am very
sorry, I should have asked first if you ate already, it is just that you
just disappeared and you didn't even write." She then turned on the grill
and began preparing food for her guest.
����� "I just arrived, and for the reason for me leaving, I'll tell you
later. It was a long trip and I am really hungry. This was the only place
I knew where I can get good food and someone to talk to who might
understand."
����� "Understand what?"
����� "Someone who might understand why I left. And besides you are the
only person who I can talk to about this and could possibly help me." As
the manager placed the food in front of him, "Why not join me eat - I'll
tell you why I left. And I am really sorry for disappearing without any
word, for arriving without any notice. And I am saying sorry in advance,
because I might take up most of your time with my problem. We had never
been close, but I know you are the only one who might understand me."
����� "No need for you to say sorry - you can talk to me anytime."
����� "I went away because I needed some time to think. I needed to go to
a place far away from here. I needed to know if what I did was right. I
needed to take away my delusions. I really didn't care where I went, just
as long as it was far from here. It was in this city that my delusions
started and stayed. I needed to get it out of my system, and going away
is the only way I knew. I couldn't fight it - my delusions were killing
me from inside - there is a battle going on inside my mind. One side
clinging to false hopes, the other shouting at me to stop fooling
myself."
����� "You got me confused for a while; what delusions are you talking
about?"
����� "You know what I mean, clinging to a false hope. I used to believe
that I stood a really good chance with her. I lived in my own world where
she was mine. I always hoped that we would be together. I clung to those
thought for too long that it slowly took over me. Even though I knew I
stood no chance, I still kept on hoping.� We were not meant to meet in
the first place. Some freakish incident just happened that led me to
her."
����� "So he has nothing to do with your disappearance?"
����� "No, he is part of the reason that I went away. They really love
each other; they just don't say it out aloud. Just look at them when they
look at each other. You can see it in their eyes; you can feel something
it when they are close together. They try to hide it, but it just comes
out. If you observe them, you will see. That is the main reason I left.
One day it just hit me, I was trying to go between two people who were
really meant to be together. I was making a huge fool of myself, here
they are, happy with each other, then I arrive and wreak havoc in their
relationship. I made an even bigger fool of myself by thinking that I
stood a better chance than he did. They knew each other longer and he
knows more about her. I hardly know her and here I am, thinking I stood a
better chance compared to him. I am a nobody. I do not exist in her
world. I am somebody who is easily ignored. At times I feel that she
doesn't even know I exist. I am but a mere shadow. Staying at the back
ignored until needed. I am still unsure why I stayed that long, I was
barging in their lives, deluding myself with events that can never
happen. I needed time to purge out my delusions. That is the summary of
my problems, thank you for listening, and your cooking is still the
best."
����� "I am always here for my friends. What are your plans now, would
you go visit them, I could go with you. I'll bring some food and talk."
����� "I'll probably go there when the rain stops, thank you for your
offer. I'd like that. Why not call everybody, I really missed all of you.
I have now realized that she can't be mine, but I would really like her
to stay as my friend. I really don't want to lose her. if being her
friend id the only way that I could be with her, I'll take it."
����� "look, the rain stopped, let's go."
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the poem below was given to me by a friend
The Mysterious thing called "LOVE"....
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love
him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door,
but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.
How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our
hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and
ways are different.
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with
you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it
or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is
a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you
can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes
into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then
reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought
it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. There is where
many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they
understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty
places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at
love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their
love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease
to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who
seeks love.
They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that
it can be made to grow only by giving it away. Remember this, and
keep it to your heart.� Love has its own time, its own seasons,
and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or
coerce it, or reason it in saying. You can only embrace it when it
arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to
leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is
nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always
has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live
for a moment in your life.
IF YOU KEEP YOUR HEART OPEN, IT MAY COME AGAIN.
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