Well, here we are. I thought that you said that things would change.
Well, at least I thought things would change. Why else would you
give me this second chance?
But here we are, staring at each other as though we barely knew each
other. Staring at each other as though you had never blushed when you
grabbed my hand.
And you did, too. You held it, and I never felt happier.
As though we had the lightyears that will soon separate us. As though
you would fade before me, gone before the fact has set in.
Have I already faded in your eyes? Has my silhouette just reminded
you of the me you used to know?
I tried, I tried very hard, much harder than you can imagine, tried to
change. I had given up my privileges, had thrown away so many
opportunities, lost so much time...
Time is the only thing we share now. I came back to you, didn't I?
It was never enough. And so I never gave it up, just put it on hold.
I could have given it to you, and we could have shared it, shared it
all... but you would not have it. You would have stood there, right
there, and smiled, and I could only melt before you, ashamed that I
had even thought... but your smile always did that to me, made me
think, made me blush, stilled my mumbles...
It weighs on me.
But we are too different, aren't we? The very thing that makes our
touch exciting rarifies it. The forbidden fruit -
- but I am forbidden nothing! I can take of my whim, and need never
apologize! I can have you... or anyone!
But it's you I want. More than anything - more than the stars
themselves. What I would do to spend one more night staring at that
same sky that you would be staring at and point, "there! There is
where I wish to be!" and you would nod and smile sweetly...
Go then. If I cannot have you, you must leave me. You must erase
your essence within me, purge the memories. You must release me
from your grip, once and for all.
GO, DAMN YOU! LEAVE ME!
Like you did so last time! Like you've done... every time... every...
single... time...
Heh. Eh-heh... eh-heh-heh-heh-heh... AHHAHAAHAHHHHAAAAHHAHAHAHAHA-
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAhahah-hah-hah... heh... eh... heh-heh...
I'm... I'm so sorry... so, so very, very sorry... truly...
You may leave now, Tenchi. Please give your father and grandfather
my regards. I will dearly miss them, and you. If you see them,
give them as well to our... friends. If they, and you, have time,
visit me, once in a while...
... it can get lonely here...
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