Next Time You Fall In Love
Disclaimer: none of the characters in this fic belong
to me but the writer of Sailor Moon. I'm not planning
to make any money out of this etc.
"Next Time You Fall in Love" Is written by Andrew
Lloyd Webber and is from Starlight Express. If you
forget that the song sometimes has things to do with
the train it makes for a pretty cool song fic!
This deals with m/m situations - but even pg-13 could
be too high a rating. However, if this sort of thing
bothers you don't read it.
Extra note -song lyrics are in '__', normal speaking
is in "__". Just to avoid any confusion!
And a BIG thank you and bone crushing hug to Joanne
for all her help in fixing up my grammar etc :) Thanks
to everyone else who also took the time out to answer
my questions, it was very much appriciated.
A quick note on the story, it is actually just a
'moment' type fic. It was originally supposed to be a
one off type story so there is not much background
information. I don't think I'm making much sense -
sorry :) Hopefully if you read the story you will
understand what I am trying to get across!
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A kareoke bar. Great. Jadeite sighed as he lowered
himself down into a seat. Whose idea had this been
anyway? He winced as an off-key note was struck once
again by the person bellowing on stage - whatever he
was doing, it sure wasn't singing. Why had he agreed
to come along anyway? It meant bad music, loud crowds
and ...
"Kunzite! There you are!" Zoisite squealed as he
dumped himself into the older General's lap, right
next to Jadeite.
"I missed you," He whispered into Kunzite's ear,
wrapping his arms around his neck. With a laugh,
Kunzite returned the hug before lifting the smaller
General off his lap and placing him on his own chair.
"It's been 5 minutes - all you did was go to the
bathroom," Zoisite pouted.
"Does that mean you didn't miss me?" Kunzite laughed
again before placing a kiss softly on his partner�s
lips.
"Of course I did!"
... the happy couple. It would make Jadeite sick if he
wasn't so damn happy for them. Just because he was
happy for them, though, didn't mean he had to like the
way they were so emotional and physical in public.
*Oh don't lie to yourself,* Jadeite thought wryly.
*You don't like it because your jealous* He sighed
again. He knew the pair weren't deliberately trying to
bring up old and painful memories, but knowing that
didn't help, or dam the flow. Before he could delve
into more self pity the object of those old memories
placed four drinks on the table. Nephrite. Jedeite
fought a wave of anger, and something else, as
Nephrite sat down beside him with a smile of greeting.
The smile wavered slightly from the cold glare he
received in return and the auburn haired General
quickly looked away, causing Jadeite to miss the flash
of pain that crossed his face.
*Hell - is he ever going to forgive me?* Nephrite
thought dejectedly, ignoring the look of sympathy from
Zoisite. It had been two months. Two months since they
had been released from Beryl's spell and left to lead
a vaguely normal life. Two months since they had all
regained their memories of the Silver Millennium. Two
months since he had remembered that Jadeite and he had
been lovers, in every sense of the word. Two months
since Jadeite had discovered that Nephrite had died
saving the person he loved - and it hadn�t been him.
He could still remember the hurt look that had crossed
Jadeite's face - how could he forget? It was
permanently imprinted in his brain. Since then Jadeite
had refused to let him explain, although how he could
explain what had happened, he had no idea. He owed
Naru everything - she had saved his soul, and he
truelly cared for her - but love? As King Nephrite of
the Dark Kingdom certainly, but as plain old Nephrite,
free of Beryl's influences?
Nephrite downed half his glass in one gulp. He knew
Molly still cared - but Jadeite? He was like ice. It
hurt seeing him like that as the Jadeite he remembered
was so full of life - especially towards him. A
wishful smile danced across his face as he remembered
some of the pleasant memories, not noticing he was
being watched as he did.
Jadeite himself hadn't noticed he had been watching
Nephrite until a small sigh had escaped from the older
man�s lips. Startled he had quickly averted his gaze
before anyone noticed, only for his eyes to lock with
Kunzite's in the process.
*Caught* was the one word that flashed across
Jadeite�s mind, but he returned Kunzite's gaze as
innocently as possible. After all, he had only been
glancing at the other man because he hadn't answered
Zoisite's question, right? A small voice at the back
of his mind ever-so-kindly reminded him that he had
been staring at the other man *before* Zoisite had
asked him if he�d wanted a refill or not. Taking a
very un-Jadeite-like swig of his drink he almost
missed Kunzite dragging a confused Zoisite onto the
dance floor, leaving Jadeite alone with Nephrite.
Somehow Jadeite didn't think that Kunzite had decided
on an off-chance to dance right then.
*Bastard*
Nephrite twisted the napkin in his hand -
uncharacteristically nervous. Deciding that ripped
pieces of paper would NOT compliment his outfit he
placed it back on the table, searching for something
to say. He had waited two months to be alone with
Jadeite to try and explain - and now that they were,
he had no idea what to say. Of all times to be - hang
on - did Jadeite just chuckle?! Jadeite, who had been
sitting there watching Nephrite opening and closing
his mouth like a fish for the last 10 or so seconds,
hadn't been able NOT to keep a small chuckle down.
Noticing that Nephrite had heard he dipped his head to
hide a smile. A speechless Nephrite was rare, his fish
impersonation priceless.
"What - nothing to say Nef?" Jadeite asked, trying to
keep from smiling but failing miserably. Nephrite shot
him a look of fake malice before finally regaining
some semblance of speech ability.
"I have plenty to say - and you know it, Jadeite" He
responded seriously. Disliking the turn the
conversation had suddenly taken, Jadeite quickly tried
to change the topic.
"I already know what you want to say. Don't Kunzite
and Zoisite look good together?" Abrupt? Yes. But it
had the desired response as Nephrite tore those
penetrating eyes away from Jadeite's to gaze at the
two dancers.
"They took it well don't you think?" He asked, almost
to himself. Upon Jadeite's puzzled gaze he expanded.
"When they found out we had never told them about our
... relationship in the Silver Millennium."
Jadeite groaned silently. Was Nephrite going to turn
every single conversation back to that? Wasn't it
painful enough that they saw each other everyday
without having to remind Jadeite verbally about what
he had lost? Jadeite had thought numerous times of
just packing up and leaving - but that would mean
showing Nephrite just how much he had hurt Jadeite.
Besides there were times, rare yes, but times where it
seemed as nothing had changed since Nephrite had first
confessed his love. In those moments Jadeite could
pretend that Nephrite still did love him, and not
someone else. And that was one of the main reasons he
had avoided any conversation with Nephrite that might
lead to their defunct relationship. As he had stated
earlier, he knew what Nephrite had to say - and
Jadeite didn't want to hear it. He had heard through
Zoisite that Nephrite had asked Naru if she could give
him some time to sort things out - or, as Jadeite saw
it, to break all ties with him. But as long as
Nephrite didn't say the words ... damn! When had he
sunk so low that he couldn't even face reality
anymore? He felt like laughing. Or crying. Damn he was
pathetic.
Nephrite watched with concern the emotions that played
across Jadeite's handsome face. He felt like kicking
himself, and hard. Anything he could try to say, any
comfort or explanation he could attempt to offer
Jadeite was sure to be shot down before it was even
half way out of his mouth.
"Want to dance?" He asked simply instead.
Jadeite hid his surprise well, but not his indecision.
Taking matters into his own hands Nephrite stood up
and taking Jadeite by the hand gently, led him
unprotestingly to the dance floor.
Jadeite supposed that ex-lovers should keep a certain
amount of distance between themselves as they fitted
together, but it just_felt_right to be held close in
the older mans embrace. Sighing, he rested his head on
Nephrite's shoulder, trying to deny the wave of
familiarity that washed over him, bringing with it
emotions he'd spent the last two months trying to
suppress. It had been so long since he had been held
by someone, anyone, and as he felt himself melt
against his partner's body he for once ignored the
voice in his head that was reminding him of much he
had lost as a small smile formed on his lips. Unknown
to him his partner was having the exact same thoughts
and unconsciously pulled the younger man closer,
wishing that he never had to let go.
"Hey Nef - fancy seeing you here - hi Jadeite!"
Jadeite felt like burying his head in Nephrite's hair
in disbelief. What was Naru doing here? As the two
quickly separated Jadeite noticed that Naru hadn't
come alone - Usagi was with her.
*Could this get any worse?*
"Hey Naru, Usagi" Nephrite responded. Was it just him
or did Nephrite sound a touch ... frustrated? Noticing
that Kunzite and Zoisite had returned to their table
he quickly excused himself, heading back. He probably
would have chuckled at the look of disbelief that was
on his friends faces - they had seen the girl's
untimely entrance as well, if he had been paying
attention. Taking a large gulp of whoevers drink was
in front of him he glanced up at the two, surprising
them by the look of utter despair in his eyes, before
he turned his gaze to the dance floor where Nephrite
and Naru were dancing.
"They make a nice couple don't they?" he commented,
not quite able to keep the bitterness from his voice.
What was wrong with him? For two months he had been
able to keep his emotions in check, hidden behind a
facade of indifference. Why now, of all times, were
his walls crumbling around him?
"Why don't you just tell him?" Zoisite asked quietly.
"Tell him what?" He was in no mood to discuss this
with his two friends.
"Tell him that you still love him."
Jadeite closed his eyes before racking a hand through
his hair. Why did Zoi have to say it???
"And what good would that do me? He's in love with
someone else, remember?" God - he'd had this argument
with himself a million times - couldn't Zoi just drop
it?
"What makes you so sure?" Now that Jadeite hadn't been
expecting.
"What do you mean - he loved Molly enough to save her,
died for her. How much more proof could you want?" He
replied, turning to Kunzite who had asked the
question. Comprehension dawned
in Kunzite's eyes.
"That is what this is all about isn't it?" He
questioned, holding Jadeite's gaze until the younger
man lowered his head.
"I don't know what you mean," Jadeite replied, voice
barely above a whisper.
"Nephrite was in the same room when Beryl put you into
eternal sleep, wasn't he?" The silence was the only
confirmation he needed as Zoisite cursed under his
breath.
"And he didn't do anything, or react did he? Not like
Zoi or me, and not like with Mol ..." He was
interrupted as Jadeite slammed his drink down on the
table.
"No he didn't. Could we talk about something else? The
weather perhaps?"
"How long were you awake in the Dark Kingdom?" Kunzite
pressed, ignoring the warning glance from Zoisite and
the glare of anger from Jadeite.
"A month" he stated dangerously, almost daring Kunzite
to continue.
"In that time how often did you interact with
Nephrite?"
"I don't know what you are ..."
"Just answer the question Jadeite" Kunzite cut in.
"four, five times - is there a point to this, Kunzite?
There better be." However, it was Zoisite that
answered.
"I think there is, Jadeite.
"He's trying to say that you two never had a chance."
At the look on Jadeite's face he continued.
"Back when you were in charge, the control over us was
at it's strongest. It suppressed all of our emotions,
buried all of our previous memories. After you were
put in eternal sleep Nephrite spent three whole months
with Naru before he began to feel anything for her. It
wasn't until just before Nephrite died that I realised
I was in love with Kunzite, and much later until he
realised he was in love with me. Remember Jadeite,
Kunzite and I were a couple a long time before you and
Nephrite - and it took that long for the control over
us to slip. There was no way that Nephrite could have
recognised any feelings towards you at the time of
your imprisonment, no matter how much he loved you."
With the last statement Jadeite lowered his head,
hiding his eyes again.
"Whatever you say" Jadeite started softly, the anger
gone from his voice.
"It still doesn't change the fact that he is in love
with Naru - and not me."
"Are you so sure?" Kunzite replied - shocking Jadeite
enough so he glanced up, before hiding behind a wall
of hair again. Kunzite sighed softly.
"Jadeite, yes, the Nephrite of the Dark Kingdom was in
love with Naru, just like the Nephrite of the Silver
Millennium was in love with you - now he has to choose
which one Nephrite of the Present is in love with."
"It's obvious who he's chosen" was his reply as
Jadeite watched Nephrite and Naru approach their
table, Naru�s arm wrapped around Nephrite's waist, who
was laughing at something she had said.
"Yes it is." Kunzite said quietly, glancing at the
youngest General. Catching Kunzite's comment Nephrite
smiled at him, oblivious to the topic of the
conversation.
"Naru�s and I need to talk about a couple of things -
we'll be back in a few of minutes ok?" he questioned
with a smile. He then became serious as he turned to
Jadeite.
"We need to talk as well Jeda - you'll still be here?"
Without meeting his gaze Jadeite nodded. Before
Nephrite could comment further Naru was pulling him
away.
"How do I know?" he turned to Kunzite bitterly after
several moments� silence.
"What more proof do I need?" He waved his hand in the
direction of the couple before standing up.
"I need to go to the bathroom. I'll be back" he stated
before swiftly turning on his heels and walking away.
"Jadeite wait!" Zoisite called out, but was ignored.
"He might not have meant it like that," he finished
softly, sighing. The evening had started so well -
when had it suddenly gone downhill so fast? Naru. She
had turned up. He sighed again.
*I hope Jadeite is alright*
Jadeite at that particular moment was far from being
alright. Luckily the bathroom had been empty when he
had entered, and he was now stalking up and down the
small room cursing himself in languages that this
planet never knew had existed. How could he have been
so foolish to even begin to hope that Kunzite and
Zoisite had any idea about what they were talking
about? Nephrite loved that, that ... girl, and there
was nothing he could do to change it. He was alone,
always so damn alone, and that was how it was going to
always be. He choked back a sob. He was NOT going to
cry! He'd known that it was only time before Nephrite
spoke the words he so feared to hear, so why did it
hurt so much?
"Augh!" He cried, before slamming his fist into the
wall.
I hope you weren't pretending that was my face."
Jadeite spun around to see Nephrite standing in the
doorway. Frozen Jadeite could only stare as Nephrite
approached him, taking his hand in his own and
bringing it up to his face to get a better look.
"You didn't hurt yourself did you?" he questioned
softly, pressing his lips gently against the knuckles.
As Jadeite looked at him in bewilderment Nephrite
sighed.
"Jadeite I ... , I mean" Nephrite tried
unsuccessfully.
"We never finished our dance" Jadeite closed his eyes.
Confused? He didn't think the word was strong enough
to describe what he was feeling and it must have
reflected on his face.
"I ... I requested a song - Zoi and Kunzite are going
to sing. I ... Jadeite please" Damn him Jadeite
thought. He sounded so sad, so resigned. Why? Sighing
he nodded, and for the second time that night let
himself be led to the dance floor. As he did he
noticed a female clap before waving of the singer on
the stage.
"Thank-you very much Lena - I'll never see �My Heart
Will Go On� in the same way again. Our next act are
preforming an Andrew Lloyd Weber song - �Next Time You
Fall In Love�. Everyone give a warm welcome to Kunzite
and Zoisite!"
The pair walked on to the stage and took the
microphone from the speaker.
"Thanks - this song is dedicated to two very special
people. We hope you get what you both wish for"
Zoisite said before motioning for the band to start
up. As they did, Nephrite and Jadeite wrapped their
arms around each other.
'I guess I'm not to good at keeping love alive for
long
I think I've found the answer, but the answer's always
wrong'
"I'm sorry" Nephrite whispered into Jadeite's ear as
they swayed to the music.
"I never meant to hurt you - you�re the last person I
wanted to hurt" Jadeite remained silent, his head
resting against his partner's shoulder.
'My first love was my true love and it should have
been my last
The only time I'm happy's when I'm dreaming in the
past'
"Remember when I first taught you to dance?" Nephrite
continued softly.
"You had two left feet - I don't think anyone know
would believe how bad you actually were," he chuckled,
before shifting so Jadeite was looking into his eyes.
"Funny how my memories of you are the ones I most
cherish."
'Next time you fall in love
it better be with me
the way it used to be
Back then, was when
we touched the star light.'
"I'd do anything for us to be like we were."
'Sometimes you turn away from what your heart tells
you is right
and fool you settle for whatever gets you through the
night'
"You've been avoiding me for two whole months - why?
Surely you must know how much you mean to me?"
'The flame you thought was dead may suddenly begin to
burn'
"What happened in the Dark Kingdom ... and Naru ...?"
He felt Jadeite stiffen.
"It's hard to explain, but that's not who I am now -
my heart beats only for you, I think I knew it all
along. Do I still have a chance?"
'And broken hearts can be repaired
thats something that you learn'
Jadeite placed his head back on Nephrite�s shoulder,
not meeting his eyes. However his arms tightened
around his neck.
"Damn you" he whispered softly
'Next time you fall in love
let it be with me
the way it used to be
back then, was when
we touched the star light'
"Damn us both."
'I've relived every moment that I've ever spent with
you'
"Besides, I wasn't that bad" he stated, glancing up
from his position on Nephrite's shoulder. At
Nephrite's questioning gaze he elaborated.
"At dancing" His only response was a small chuckle as
he was drawn in closer.
'What fools we were to end a dream that looked like
coming true'
"I thought I had lost you" he whispered, burying his
head in Nephrite's hair.
"Never" the taller man vowed.
"Never again."
'Next time you fall in love
it better be with me
the way it used to be
back then was when
we touched the star light'
Gently taking Jadeite's face in his hands Nephrite
turned those expressive eyes up to his, wiping away a
few stray tears.
"I love you, always you" he spoke. As Jadeite opened
his mouth in protest Nephrite placed a finger softly
on his lips.
"Only you"
'Next time you fall in love
it better be with me
the way it used to be
back then, was when
we touched the star light'
With that he replaced his finger with his lips,
closing his eyes as their first kiss in centuries
started out gently and softly, before the hunger and
passion that had been long suppressed took over.
Slightly panting the two drew apart. With a soft smile
Jadeite reclaimed Nephrite's lips briefly.
"I love you too - always."
'Next time you fall in love
it better be with me
the way it used to be
back then, was when
we touched the star light.'
As applause rose from the dancers, signalling the end
of the song Jadeite and Nephrite were drawn back to
crowded dance floor. A smiling Zoisite and Kunzite
approached the pair as the pulled apart slightly,
however Nephrite's arm remained snaked around
Jadeite's waist. Noticing this Kunzite's smile
widened.
"I take it you enjoyed the song" He commented, raising
an eyebrow.
"I guess you could say that" Nephrite replied evenly,
tilting his head slightly to gaze at the shorter man
beside him. In response he got a small, but content,
smile back, before his partner started to drag him
back to their table.
"We still need to talk" he said, Nephrite nodded.
Sitting back down as Kunzite and Zoisite disappeared
to buy some drinks. Silence rained for a few seconds
before Jadeite spoke up.
"Naru. What happened with her?"
Nephrite sighed.
"When I spoke with her - it was to tell her that the
two of us weren't meant for each other."
"How did she take it?" Jadeite asked, able to feel
sympathy for the girl now that she wasn't competition.
"Like a teenager who has just been dumped. First she
begged. Then she yelled. Then she cried." Nephrite
groaned in memory.
"Usagi ended up having to drag her out of the bar, she
was making that much of a fuss."
"She was in love with you, Jadeite responded quietly
"How did you expect her to act?"
"Oh - so you would have reacted the same way?"
Nephrite asked with a smile. The smile dropped however
when Jadeite failed to reply, instead studying the top
of the table. Gently cupping the younger man's face in
his hands he tilted it up so he could look into his
eyes. He kissed away the two thin trails of tears that
had fallen before kissing him softly.
"I guess we'll never have to find out," he whispered,
before deepening the kiss as Jadeite responded.
The End.
That's it :)
if there are any mistakes in the grammar etc that is
my fault, not my proof readers :)
Any feedback will be carefully read and considered
*grin* I'm currently working kinda on a back story,
although I've got a feeling it may be long - I'm
rarely able to write anything short, this fic was an
exception :)
Thanks for reading!
Cairnsy
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