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Pluto's comment:  After Galaxia.   Three years to the day of Kunzite's death.

	Hopeless.

     The air was cold and the sky about Tokyo tower as dark as city skies
ever are, but the visitor didn't care what the temperature was.   It was the 
significance of the place, and the thing that had happened there that
mattered.
     Minako Aino reached reverently inside her coat and laid three roses on
the balcony, flowers so painfully pale a white as to almost be silver.
     Looking up into the sky she smiled - a bittersweet smile that spoke of 
pain and loss untouched by time as she began to speak softly, words directed 
skyward as to an unseen visitor.
     "Hello again love.   It's been a while since I came to talk but well - 
Being senshi has kept me busy.   You probably know that, though..."
     "I probably look crazy up here - some old, washed up hag dragging a
chain of broken hearts and talking to her dead boyfriend.   Yea.  I know -
I don't look old.  But I feel old, sometimes.."
     "I - Dammit, I miss you.   There isn't a day that goes by that I don't 
feel a big, aching void where you used to be."
     She stopped for a long moment, eyes dark.
     ".....I've tried to deny it, Kami's know.   To chase it away and be the 
happy one, in your memory.... because I remember you hated to see me sad.
But no matter how hard I try....no one else really fills that place where you
were."
     "It's like I'm missing half my soul....."
     She forced a swallow past the lump that always grew in her throat on
this anniversary.    
     "I still haven't cried for you.   I'm sorry....I just.......can't."
What had started off as a firm apology trailed off into a kind of tiny,
empty plea.    
     "I need to.   But the tears won't come.   They came for Higashi-Sempai, 
and when I lost Alan, and even for poor Adonis....but I can't cry for the
one who loved me back.   I hope you can forgive me...someday."
     "Someday, I'll come to you.   Not a day doesn't go by that I don't
want it to be today.....to just give up and leave this mortal world behind,
and find you in that better place all the seer's say waits for us.."
     "I even tried once - And I'm damn lucky Artemis didn't find out about 
that, or I'd not get any privacy with you at all.     Sitting in the shower
with my wrists slashed like some normal girl....What was I thinking?   Not
that it matters.    My duty brought me back.    Monster call on the Senshi 
com's, and like a fool I headed out.    The others bought my story about 
getting waylaid, so they don't suspect.   Good thing I did get waylaid to 
cover for it."
     "One day though.....well, we'll have to wait.   And it's going to be a 
while.   A thousand years, I think, because I know I have to live that
long.   But once this idiot destiny is over with..... we'll just have to be
patient."
     "Enough about me though....You'd be proud of the Senshi, love.  All my 
sisters are growing up so well....and Endymion is, I hope becoming the
prince you so loyally served, while you were free.    He's grown so much
since I saw him first...I'll probably be bringing him in on this little
reunion before long."
     "Usako - Serenity-hime - has grown up so well it's amazing.   She's even 

more the princess now than she ever was in the old world.   If I saw her in
the old court, I think I'd mistake her for Selenity-hime.  She's a warrior,
friend, confidant....and so, so kind."
     "But we always knew what her potential was, didn't we?   It's the others 
who have amazed me so."
     "Mercury - Little Ami-chan has come out of her shell, and revealed just 
how much the beautiful creature she is.....   I don't think she's going to
wind up a washed up old schoolteacher like we used to joke.   More likely
she's going to be famous for her work as a doctor, and leave a sea of broken
hearts behind when she marries...who'd have thought that our little, shy 
Ami would be such a madcap little socialite? "
     "And Mako -  She's become so kind and so loving, without loosing a bit
of the warrior of old...She's the most loyal of us all, you know.    She'd
sooner tear out her own heart than turn from Usako's side..I envy her 
so, that heart.   Mine has become so dark...to much envy, too much 
loss."
     "Finally, finally, Rei achieved peace with her family, and found the
true calm she always aspired to...   She'd the priestess of the fire shrine
truly now, since her grandpa passed away, but it hasn't curbed her 
enthusiasm...the way she goes from boyfriend to boyfriend, and still 
won't give Yuuchiro-kun the time of day....I'd never have believed it."
     "It's a good thing she gathers all the attention for me, or they'd all 
notice I stopped trying to find you in those other boys....."
     "The outers - Neptune and Uranus have become part of the team, finally, 
too. Haruka and Michi -there's no more of that division of the Senshi you
said was dangerous so long ago...  but more importantly, I think they've
forgiven Usagi for following the right path...and themselves for being able
to do what they they had to."
     "Just like I had to.   I hope - no, that's not true.   I don't hope.
But I do pray, that one day, maybe, just maybe I might be worthy of your
forgiveness for not being able to find another way."
     "And Saturn!   Little Hotaru gives me hope.   Just a little - the 
impossible has been achieved.   The Messiah of Silence has become the
Senshi of Death and Rebirth.    There's no more sealing - and we have an
ally who can match the crystal, if she can just reach the level of skill 
necessary in wielding the power...and she's one of us.  Truly and 
absolutely.    I am very proud to call her one of my sisters, Kunzite...
very proud."
     "It took me a while, but I think I've finally managed to make Pluto
admit to herself at least, that she's just as human as the rest of us.     She
could very well have become a worse monster than our enemies, if she'd kept
up the path she was traveling...but now....you couldn't ask for a better
friend. She's our den mother, the token adult, and our very own Guardian 
of Time...no more the enigma.   Instead, a true and loyal friend who 
guards us all as well anyone possibly could."
    "And she's done the same saving for me...when I was turning down the dark 
road."
     The night stayed silent for a long time as she gazed suddenly down
across the city, before turning back to face the stars.

     "Living without hope almost made me insane.    I needed that, that-
that  little reminder of you, a tiny touch of something uniquely mine - and 
every time I tried for even the smallest dreams, they were smashed...
I was so desperate that I think I might have hurt someone.   Badly, if 
I'd been refused one more time...."
     "Pu saved me.   She gave me a secret.  She said - she said..."
     "She said to me 'You will hold him again.'   That's what she said.    So 
wait for me.   I love you."




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"I Find that all this fighting for my life is quite exhilarating!" - Linn
Suzaki