Subject: [FFML] [Orig]It's a Rainy Day Sunshine Girl -- Episode 02
From: Matt Johnston
Date: 5/12/1999, 4:16 PM
To: ffml@fanfic.com

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     "You need to get in touch with your muse.  Do you know how
     to do that?"  Mr. Motojima cleaned his glasses.
     "No sir."
     "Here's what I do.  Write something about your dream girl. 
     Your perfect companion.  It doesn't have to be a good 
     paragraph,  just something to get you started. Then, fold
     the paper, put it under your pillow, and take a nap."
     "A nap, sir?"
     "Yes.  A good hour or so.  Really sleep it off."  He smiled 
     kindly, the wrinkles around his eyes nearly pinching them 
     shut.  "When you wake up, you'll be inspired again."

Kenji Terada had writer's block.  When his teacher offered him a 
solution, he tried it immediately.  Only, his teacher never told 
him what really happens when you wake up...

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                   I T ' S  A  R A I N Y  D A Y
                     S U N S H I N E  G I R L

                            Episode 02
                   "Under The Sky... Searching"

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            "Sunshine Girl" (c) 1999 Matthew Johnston.
                       All Rights Reserved.

  This is a work of fiction.  Any resemblance of the characters
     to any persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.  

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     Kenji spent a full glass of milk and five cookies deep in 
thought.  "It's possible, I suppose," he mused between chocolate-
chipped bites.  "She appeared from out of nowhere.  She could 
leave just like that, too."  He dipped his last cookie in 
Caravan's untouched glass, and let it soak.  
     Stray thoughts and bits of forgotten conversations entered 
his mind through a thousand psychic pinpricks, and he followed 
them as best he could.  It was only after he felt his cookie rip 
itself, saturated, from his hand to sink to the bottom of the 
glass that he realized how long the thoughts had been running.  He 
looked at the clock on his desk; it poured an electric green 23:28 
into his eyes, and then his eyelids.
     Kenji was asleep before he realized it.

     "That's what I'm here for."  Kenji opened his eyes.  The 
words were familiar, but the voice wasn't.  Or rather, it was, but 
unexpectedly so.  He lay in bed, facing the stark whiteness of his 
ceiling, and waited.
     "You were right, Kenji," the voice continued, sourceless, 
from somewhere to his left.  "That pitch was way outside.  If it 
had been a little bit more in, you coulda had it."  Or was it his 
right?
     Kenji listened intently.  There was something about it that 
eluded his senses.  He felt as if he knew he should remember the 
voice.  He waited for another chance to place it.
     "You coulda had it, I tell ya."
     But he hadn't heard it in years.
     "You woulda been the hero.  And then Tanako woulda seen."
     Kenji inhaled sharply.  "But I wasn't," he whispered to the 
disembodied voice.
     "That's okay, buddy.  I believe in ya."
     Tears welled up slowly.  "Mo... Mokie?"
     Kenji awoke at his desk, to the resonating click of his 
mother closing the door behind her.  The tray of cookies and milk 
were gone; the clock read 1:12.
     "I gotta get some sleep," he commented as he tossed a couple 
of drool-covered pages into the garbage.  He smiled; luckily, they 
were blank.  "I'm starting to go crazy.  Isn't that right, Mokie?"
     The room gave no reply. 
     "So much for imaginary friends."  Kenji undressed and climbed 
into bed.

     The boy's next dream came in a wash of pastel blues that 
melted into a water-painted green.  He stood in a field, alone 
except for the waving tallgrasses and the occasional cricket 
chirp.  He looked around, scanning three-hundred sixty degrees, 
but Caravan wasn't around.  Neither was Mokie; to be sure, Kenji 
wasn't sure whom to expect.  He only expected.
     "Are you looking for somebody?"  The voice was pleasant 
enough to keep Kenji from jumping.  He turned, half-expecting the 
voice to have an invisible host.
     This time, there was a source.  A beautiful one.  She looked 
more like a muse should.  The pink-lipped smile offset pale cheeks 
that disappeared around her eyes.  Kenji felt thirsty looking at 
them; he imagined he could drink deep at their edges if he had the 
confidence to ask.
     "You look like you're searching," the muse continued as if 
his gaze had taken only a glance's time.  Kenji swallowed, trying 
to remember why he had come here.  "Can I help you find?"
     She stepped towards him, her gown rustling in the grass, but 
never tangling.  It glowed as it touched the field, and the 
delicate light remained on the newly revealed blades as she glided 
past.
     "Yeah," Kenji managed.  "I guess I'm looking for..."  He 
couldn't decide.  The muse was almost upon him, arms at her sides, 
legs parting the sea of grass without resistance.  "I'm looking 
for a couple of people."
     "Tell me their names."  Her smile didn't change physically, 
but still, it grew warmer, more tranquil.  More confident.  And 
yet it didn't move.  Kenji wanted to touch her smile.
     "Caravan," he absently murmured.  "And Mokie."
     "I know them," the muse nodded.  She touched his shoulders as 
she reached them.  Kenji shivered, and let his head fall back.  It 
moved at a dream's pace, lingering below the muse as she lowered 
him with her to the grass.  When they were at their knees, the boy 
closed his eyes on the image of her face moving towards his.
     "With this kiss," she began, "you will find who you seek."  
Kenji felt her lips graze his, then a moment of void.  He thought 
about opening his eyes, but feared for the worst.
     Then she kissed him.  Kenji felt a welling within him, and 
with it, the need to let it release.  His right arm held an 
imaginary pencil, and moved it across imaginary paper, writing 
instinctively.  The young author wrote in nothingness for what 
seemed like a week, moving his hand and wrist effortlessly as 
energy poured from her lips.
     And, just as it truly began, it ended.  Kenji felt the week 
shrink into a second, and then, as his memory lost its grasp on 
the moment, he opened his eyes.
     "Kenji?  Kenji, wake up."  The voice was Caravan's.  But he 
wasn't in his room.  There were too many pillars.
     "Where am I?"  He rubbed his head.  He sat up from the stone 
table he had been laying on and moved his hand from his forehead 
to his back.  "Oww..."
     "You're in my room."  Caravan looked over her shoulder at the 
balance of the Grecian chamber.  Her voice resonated in the 
vaulted ceilings and immense width and breadth of the room.  He 
could hear the breath that escaped after her words as if it came 
from every corner.
     "Your room?  So I'm still dreaming?"
     "Uh huh," Caravan murmured, still looking in other 
directions.  "In a way."
     "What do you mean, 'in a way'?  And what are you looking 
for?"
     "Not what," Caravan whispered.  "Who."
     "Okay, then.  Who?"
     "Renaissance."
     Kenji found the name familiar, even though he had never heard 
it used as a person's name before.  "Is she a muse too?"
     Caravan nodded.
     "The one who..." Kenji tried to remember, but the images 
danced just beyond his mind's eye.  "What did she do, anyways?"
     "She kissed you."  The memories returned for a moment, and 
Kenji's writing hand clenched into a fist.  "She wasn't supposed 
to do that."
     Kenji blushed.  "I see."
     Caravan continued unheeded.  "She's crazy, you know.  
Absolutely nuts.  She thinks she's got the right to do anything 
she..."  Her voice descended into a growl.  Kenji felt a tug of 
deja vu, but shook it off.
     "So, why am I here?"  Kenji felt a little existential asking, 
but it was the only coherent question that came to mind.
     "Shh!"  Caravan shoved Kenji back down onto the table, which 
he realized was actually her bed.  She laid down beside him, on 
her side, facing the expanse of the room.  
     "Caravan, dear," an older voice called, concerned, from 
across the great room, "are you talking to somebody?"
     "No, Sister Focus."  Her feet dangled just above his head.  
She was kicking them in light nervousness.  Kenji let his eyes 
drift along the line formed between her slight ankles, as it 
curved around calves and the inside of her knees.
     "I thought I heard you talking to someone."  Sister Focus 
sounded unsure.
     "Nope.  Just thinking aloud."  Kenji followed the smoothly 
rendered path a little farther as it approached her skirt.  He 
noted the similarity between the skirt's material and a gown form 
memories that he knew couldn't be that distant.
     "Okay, dear.  Get some sleep, okay?  You've got a big day 
tomorrow."  His reasonable half closed his eyes before the rest of 
him could get a good look at how the path curved behind the scant 
shadows of the skirt.
     "Okay," Caravan replied.  Kenji sighed instinctively, half-
disappointed, half-satisfied.  He felt the girl tense up, and 
immediately regretted.
     Sister Focus paused with a small intake of air.  "Are you--"
     Caravan tried to imitate Kenji's sigh.  "I just wanted to 
stay up a little longer."
     "Sorry, dear.  You need lots of sleep if you're going to help 
your little friend in Tokyo."
     "Yes, ma'am."  Caravan sounded honestly dejected.  Kenji 
wondered how much of that was embarrassment.
     "Good night, Caravan."
     "Good night, Sister Focus."
     After Sister Focus's steps were no longer detectable, even as 
echoes, Caravan sat up.
     "Thanks a lot."  She slapped Kenji's arm half-heartedly.  
"You almost got me caught."
     "You're not supposed to have boys here, right?"  Kenji 
grinned lecherously at the thought of lines similar to Caravan's.  
The young muse frowned.
     "No boys, and definitely no humans!"  She let her voice raise 
above a whisper, covering her mouth as she realized her volume.  
"You're not supposed to be here.  Not at all.  Period."  Caravan 
lay back down, making sure her head was on the same end of the bed 
as Kenji's.  She still faced towards the unfathomably distant 
door.  "I can't believe she'd do this just to get me in trouble."
     "You mean Renaissance?"
     "Yeah.  She's been trying to get me in trouble ever since I 
was promoted to Muse-In-Training."
     "Wow," Kenji murmured.  "That's a long time, huh?"
     "Not really," she mumbled in admission.  "But you can't 
believe how long she made last month seem."
     "Oh."  Kenji let the statement ruminate for a few minutes.  
"Last month?!"
     "Shh!"
     "Caravan?"  It was Sister Focus.  "Who are you talking to?"  
Her sandled footsteps crashed into the pair's ears like a death 
knell.
     "Uh oh," she muttered.  "We're in for it now."
     "I can wake up, though, right?"
     "I don't know.  Were you asleep when you came here?"
     "Of course I was."
     "Then try it!"
     Kenji closed his eyes, and tried to push himself from the 
dreamscape.  He could hear the steps of Sister Focus grow more 
distant the harder he pushed.  Walls crumbled around him, one at a 
time, until he could almost sense the relative softness of his own 
bed.
     "Caravan?"
     "Wake up, Kenji!"  Caravan screamed in his mind.  Kenji 
pressed his mind against the final wall of dream.  He could feel 
it, thick, stony against his cheek.  His head ached, but he 
continued.
     Finally, reluctantly, the fourth wall crumbled.

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Tuesday, April 20th
7:22 AM

     Kenji gasped for air.  Fear coursed through him; the steps 
continued, echoing closer and louder in his ears.  But, as sleep 
drained from his mind, and reality pressed itself upon him, he 
heard the steps turn to knocks.
     "Kenji?"  It was his mother.  "Kenji, you'll be late for 
school."
     "I'm awake, I'm awake!"
     The knocking halted abruptly, followed by a short response 
from his mother, which he couldn't make out with his still-
sleeping ears.
     "Paper."  Before he dressed, Kenji threw himself at his desk, 
ripping a piece of paper from its brothers in his desk drawer.  
Using the first pencil he found, a dull number two, he wrote.
     It was a poem, and a love poem at that.  He hadn't written a 
poem in weeks, and certainly nothing this natural.  As he wrote, 
he saw a face, and as he continued, the face took shape.  With the 
final word, he realized who he had written it for.
     "Tanako will go nuts over this."  He read it over once, 
checking for obvious mistakes.  It was perfect.  Even his best 
work seemed clumsy compared with the score of lines written on the 
exhausted, unlined page.  He folded the poem with trembling hands 
and stuffed it into his pocket.
     Kenji's mother was barely able to get a quick "good-bye" in 
before Kenji was out the door.  She moved the curtain, and took a 
long look out the kitchen window.  He was half-sprinting, half-
skipping, barely touching the ground.
     Mrs. Terada smiled with simple motherly satisfaction.
     "She's a lucky girl to get Kenji," she murmured, letting the 
curtain fall in front of the window again.

     Kenji staggered to the classroom door, struggling for each 
lung-full of air.  Somehow, despite his late departure, he had 
arrived a minute early.  Most of the students were already at 
their desk, chatting amongst themselves.  When he entered the 
room, it was without notice.  The path to his desk invariably took 
him past Tanako's, and, since she had piano practice right before 
school, she never showed up until the bell.  Kenji smiled 
inwardly; the drop-off would be easier than he thought.
     "Whatcha doing with that piece of paper?"  Or, it would have 
been.  He looked up, his hand half inside Tanako's desk.  His very 
being froze.
     "Nothing!"  Kenji whipped his hand, sans poem, back into his 
coat pocket.  "I mean, what paper?"
     Ichiro grinned lopsidedly.  "Oops."  He elbowed Kenji as he 
walked past.  "My mistake."
     Kenji wanted nothing more than to drag Ichiro out into the 
street and...
     "Excuse me, Kenji."  Tanako barely whispered, but the words 
felt like summer on the back of his neck.  Kenji wanted to profess 
his love once and for all, to recite his masterpiece to her, to 
give her exactly what she had always wanted.
     "S-sorry."  Kenji managed as he shuffled out of the girl's 
way.  She smiled and nodded as he looked back.  She was wearing 
her hair differently; in days past, it was cut long, in a classic 
straight wave, giving her a proper sea of shadow against her pale 
skin.  Her new style was a few centimeters shorter, barely 
covering her neck, and her hair seemed to wave a little more than 
normal.  The shortened bangs made her eyes seem larger, more 
vivid.  Kenji wanted to ask her about the change, but Yumiko and 
Naoko were already taking care of that.
     "Wow!"
     "That's such a change!"
     "But you pull it off so well!"
     "And it's so stylish!"
     "Where'd you get it done?"
     Kenji tried to listen for Tanako's tuneful response, but, 
each time she'd begin, another friend would interject another 
compliment.  By the time they had stopped, Mr. Motojima was 
already standing in front of the chalkboard, ready to begin.
     Kenji didn't pay a single moment of attention to class; there 
were enough small activities going on around him to sufficiently 
distract him.  Tanako's new hairstyle was a little risky for high 
school, but she made it look perfectly natural.
     As he took his furtive glances at her, the view began to 
change.  Her uniform seemed for a moment to glow, and the 
classroom darkened.  It was very subtle, around the edges of his 
eyesight.  But it made everything seem more familiar.
     "Renaissance?"  He murmured.
     "Mr. Terada?"
     "Renaissance?"  The last word in his mind was the first from 
his mouth.  Mr. Motojima frowned.
     "I'm sorry, Kenji.  The Renaissance is about 400 years too 
early for our hero De Bergerac.  Katsu, do you have the proper 
answer?"
     Kenji would have listened to Katsu's surely haughty answer, 
even through the scattered chuckles, but he noticed Tanako lifting 
open her desk.  He held his breath.
     She saw it, laying atop her math homework, her name written 
in another's hand.  Glancing around her, she snatched the folded 
poem and a pencil.
     Tanako opened it quietly.  Kenji felt proud that he folded it 
so well; it practically fell open, and silently so.  She wouldn't 
mention it, but he knew it was a convenience to the reader to not 
have to work on opening a letter, especially during class.
     He could see her neck warming as she read the words.  She 
glimpsed across the classroom, and met Masao's gaze.  From the 
other end of the classroom, the boy grinned, but not at anything 
in particular.  And then Kenji realized his fatal mistake.  In his 
rush to get to school, he had forgotten to sign the note.
     The boy looked again at Tanako.  Her head tilted in Masao's 
direction, her expressive eyes telling her crush something, though 
he was looking elsewhere.  However, it was obvious that she didn't 
care much about that.
     Kenji hoped she wouldn't be too disappointed when she found 
out it was from him instead of Masao.  He shook his head grimly.  
Ichiro was going to have a field day with this one.

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     "Bwaaaahahahaha!"
     "Thanks, Ichiro."
     "Nonono, thank you."  Ichiro wiped a tear from his left eye 
with a flourish.  "I was having a boring day until now."
     Kenji munched bitterly on his lunch.  The cherry tree they 
were sitting under rustled with a light breeze.  It brushed past 
Kenji's neck like Tanako: warm, and gentle.  Sudden flashes of 
earlier in the morning let Kenji drift away from Ichiro's mirthful 
taunts.  For a moment, anyway.
     "Hey, hey, Kenji."  Ichiro wasn't laughing anymore.
     "What?"
     "Look."  He pointed surreptitiously to his right.  Kenji 
leaned forward to see, and became instantly transfixed.
     Tanako and Masao stood, no more than a meter or two away, and 
less than half that from each other.  It seemed as if neither knew 
that they were being observed; though they spoke quietly, Kenji 
could hear them without much trouble.
     As if to oblige Kenji's ears, the tree's soft rustling fell 
calm.  Kenji listened, ignoring the voice in his own head that 
preached about morality and such.
     "I got your..." Tanako paused to blush and look back at the 
school walls
     Masao looked at her blankly as she prepared the remainder of 
her statement.
     "Your poem."
     Masao's face remained blank for the briefest of moments, then 
lit up with recognition.  He smiled with a confidence only an 
acting student could have.  "I wrote it for you."
     Kenji seethed at what he heard, but continued to listen, 
silently counting the ways he was superior than his competition.
     Masao went on.  "I thought of you, and the words came 
naturally.  Like you.  Natural."  He was on a roll now.  Kenji 
wanted desperately to stop him, but to do so would only force a 
confession.  And, despite his written confidence, he wasn't yet 
ready to vocalize his intentions.
     "Th-thank you."  Tanako's cheeks, softened in the middle-
distance, blushed a shade deeper.  "I..."  Again, she paused, 
attempting to collect herself.
     "...I have something to ask..."  She was on the verge of 
confession, and Kenji could do nothing about it; his arms fell to 
his sides, and his legs became lead under him.
     Tanako's voice rang like wind-chimes.  "Why did you..."  
Emotions boiled in him, but his body denied him the dramatic 
interjection he knew he'd have to make.
     "This can't go on," Ichiro muttered under his breath.  He 
looked at Kenji, weeping, sitting like a gargoyle, prepared to 
pounce, but never doing so.  Shaking his head in disappointment, 
Ichiro turned toward the pair, and started walking.
     Three steps past the tree, he tripped, landing with purpose 
exactly between the couple.
     "Oops!"  Even as he fell, Ichiro could see Masao's face flash 
with momentary rage.  By the time Tanako had kneeled down to 
assist the grinning boy, Masao's face looked decently concerned.
     "Are you okay?"  Tanako gasped as she helped Ichiro to his 
feet.  Masao offered a hand, which Ichiro made a point of not 
taking.
     "I'm so sorry, I just tripped.  I guess they need to check 
the lawn for rocks or something.  Totally unexpected.  And that's 
weird, 'cause we've been here over a year, and you'd think we'd be 
familiar with the grounds by now and did I disturb you two?"  
Ichiro attempted a care-free grin, and generally succeeded.
     Tanako's blush returned.  "No.  We were just talking."  She 
turned and started walking.  "I'll talk to you later, okay Masao?"
     Masao's confident smile fell into confusion.  "Later."  After 
Tanako was at a distance, Masao turned his gaze to Ichiro.
     His face contorted, twisting his lips into a strange grin 
with no teeth, only thin, pursed lips.  His fists clenched, 
convulsing in time with his accelerating pulse.  His eyes flared, 
and a growl of malicious intent issued from his throat.
     Masao Sugimoto was not happy.
     Ichiro gulped, and took three steps back.  "Gee whiz, Masao, 
I didn't think you'd be this mad."  He hopped backwards once more 
for security.  "After all, if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have 
had the opportunity."
     Masao's fire instantly subsided, doused by confusion.  "You?"  
He pointed with a weak finger.  "I thought Kenji--"
     "--You'd like to think so, wouldn't you?"  Ichiro's permanent 
grin grew sinister.  "It's all part of my master plan, don't you 
see?"  He crossed his arms over his chest and chuckled.  "I've 
been influencing Kenji.  An experiment, if you will.  I can turn 
his will to my own with the snap of a finger."
     "You can?"
     Ichiro glanced to his left without moving his head.  "Yep.  
Watch."  He snapped his fingers simply, and Kenji rushed to his 
side.
     "Yes, master?"
     "Fetch Daddy some water, will you, Mokie?"
     "Yessir," Kenji growled as he departed obsequiously in 
Tanako's direction.
     "That's a good boy," Ichiro praised, as much to Masao as to 
Kenji.  "Now, if you don't mind..."
     Masao shook his head.  "So, if you can control Kenji, why 
haven't you--"
     "--All in good time, my middlemost intellectual.  All in good 
time."  With that, Ichiro strode towards the school building, 
following Kenji at a comfortable pace.
     "Middlemost intellectual?"  Masao pondered the words.  As 
realization dawned, bitter anger welled up from defeat.  He wanted 
to yell at the retreating pair, but felt that would be playing too 
much of their little game.  He did eventually smile, one of 
competitive respect.
     "I guess my efforts will have to be redoubled," he spoke to 
nobody in particular.

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     "Never, ever, ever call me Mokie again."  Kenji hit Ichiro on 
the shoulder half-seriously.  The walk home had started innocently 
enough, until Kenji was reminded of his temporary servitude.
     "And you're welcome," Ichiro chuckled.  "I never thought 
gratitude would feel quite like this."
     "Oh ha ha ha."  Kenji muttered.
     "I figured you'd get madder at the 'Daddy' thing than me 
calling you--"
     "--Don't go there."  Ichiro let the words travel alone, 
though he wanted to give them companions.  When they reached 
Kenji's house, Ichiro had apologized, and Kenji had forgiven, and 
everything was okay again, as things often are with friends.  But 
one question nagged Kenji, and he asked it before Ichiro was out 
of earshot.
     "Say, where did you get the name Mokie?"
     Ichiro shrugged.  "I just made it up, I guess."  Kenji was 
satisfied with the answer, but Ichiro stood where he was, still 
thinking.  "No, wait a second.  I got it from somewhere."  He 
thought some more, and Kenji waited.  "Oh, man!  I'll have to go 
digging around at home, but I got it from something I have at 
home.  It sounds too familiar."
     "I know the feeling," Kenji smirked.
     "This is gonna take all night."
     "Sorry 'bout that."
     "No problem.  I live for the hunt."  He took a few steps, 
then turned around and, still walking, yelled, "I'll call you 
tonight about the homework!"  With that, Ichiro continued his two-
block journey home, and Kenji entered his own.  The house was 
empty, which wasn't a surprise; his mother worked until five.
     "Finally," he exhaled.  "Peace and quiet."  He had chalked up 
class today for a lost cause.  Not one word had successfully 
remained with him past the walls of the classroom.  It wasn't the 
first time he had lost a day daydreaming, so Kenji didn't feel as 
bad as he could have.
     "At least I wrote a good poem today."  He smiled as he 
slipped on his house shoes.  "And tonight's homework is a cinch.  
At least it sounded like a cinch."  He sighed and lugged his 
bookbag up the stairs towards his room.
     "And if I don't finish it," he chuckled, "I can blame it on 
good old Mokie."  He tossed the bookbag into his room through the 
already open door, and, upon hearing land safely on the bed, 
walked back downstairs into the kitchen.
     The stash of cookies was easy to find, and there was just 
enough milk left for a full glass.  Kenji frowned at the dearth of 
chocolate chip, but reasoned that the oatmeal cinnamon would be 
sufficient if he was studying.  He hiked up the stairs, feeling 
confident in his ability to cruise through any assignment now that 
he had a midday snack to help him.
     He didn't even bother looking at his bookbag until he was 
well into the third cookie.  Swiveling his chair around to face 
his bed, he reached for the small leather strap and the books it 
held captive.  It had landed at the farthest possible from Kenji's 
position, near the far wall, behind a lump of covers.
     "Forgot to make my bed this morning," he grunted as he heaved 
the bag over the lump.  It seemed to be a more solid obstacle than 
he first thought.
     "Oww..."
     And noisier.
     "Oh no."  Kenji wondered who it would be this time.  "Who 
goes there?"  The words seemed as good as any.
     "You need to work those cliches out of your system before you 
get published," the lump chided.  "Or you'll be roasted by the 
critics."
     "Oh.  Hi, Caravan."
     The young muse popped her head from the bottom of the bed.  
"You rang?"  Before Kenji could respond, she frowned.  "I almost 
forgot how mad I am at you!"  She pushed herself, clothed again in 
random elements of Kenji's wardrobe, out of bed, sliding to the 
floor.  She crouched there, and growled, "Do you have any idea how 
much trouble you got me into?"
     "Umm..."  Kenji was about acquiesce with a simple "No," but 
Caravan cut him off.
     "Sister Focus found out you were in my room, and now I'm 
stuck here forever!"
     "For.. Forever?"  Kenji reeled.  Fantasies of finished 
homework shattered on the floor, and dark thoughts involving 
'forever' and 'here' and 'my mother' reared monstrous heads over 
the horizon of his brain.
     "What are you... going... to... Caravan?"  Kenji studied the 
girl, who seemed to no longer be listening.  She remained crouched 
on the floor, but her eyes were focused on the desk.  More 
accurately, they were focused on the plate.
     "Ooh, are those the oatmeal kind?"
     Kenji grabbed the plate in a fit of inspiration.  "Yeah.  
Want one?"
     "Sure!"  Caravan hopped to her feet and yanked a cookie from 
the plate.  Flopping on the bed, she munched happily.
     "Now," she mumbled through a full mouth.  "What were we 
talking about?"
     "Umm..."  Kenji looked around for another distraction.
     "Oh yeah.  I'm really mad at you right now."  The words 
seemed less intimidating through a bite oatmeal cookie.
     "I'm sorry."
     "It's okay."  She finished the cookie.  "It's not really 
forever.  Only until you write your masterpiece."
     Kenji took pause at her matter-of-factness.  "I think you 
were right the first time."  He finally sighed, slumping into his 
chair.
     "What's the matter?  The poem was wonderful!  There was no 
way Tanako wouldn't like it.  That's who you wrote it for, right?"
     Kenji grinned darkly.  "She liked it all right.  But she 
thinks somebody else wrote it."
     "You mean you didn't sign it?"
     "I was in a rush..."
     "You wrote a masterpiece and didn't sign it?!  What kind of 
writer are you?  Man, it really *is* gonna be forever at this 
rate!"
     "Look, it was a mistake, okay?  I didn't plan on making it, 
you know."
     "I know.  I'm..."  Caravan gazed down at the wrinkled 
bedspread.  "...Kenji?"  She had barely whispered his name, but he 
could hear it perfectly, just inside his ears.
     "Yeah?"
     Caravan looked up slowly.  She was pouting slightly, head 
tilted coyly.  Her eyes, moist, trembling, expressed to Kenji more 
than he could put to words in a lifetime.  Kenji felt something in 
his stomach quiver.  He prepared himself for an apologetic 
confession, ready to return in kind, maybe with a hug, or a soft 
look into her doe-wide eyes.  Between blinks, she changed, just a 
little; she seemed so soft, so vulnerable.  Kenji wanted to 
protect her as much as she must have wanted to inspire him.  He 
felt suddenly sympathetic, and held back a sigh.
     She opened her mouth, but didn't speak.  Kenji waited 
patiently as she chose her words.
     Kenji?"
     "Yes?"
     She looked at the bed.  "Can I have another cookie?"
     Kenji blinked.  The quivering in his stomach became a burning 
in his chest.  He coughed weakly and frowned.
     "Sure."
     "You have any chocolate chip?"
     "One, but--"
     "--Thank you!"
     Kenji wondered how eternity could be much longer than the 
last 24 hours.

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AUTHOR'S NOTES:

I hope you enjoyed the episode -- if you did, please e-mail me!  
Even if you didn't, e-mail me; I love the contact, and really I 
live for the feedback.

On to the references:

Mokie:  The name has a non-musical (mostly) allusion attached.  
Points for figuring it out.

Renaissance, Focus:  Both are names of progressive rock bands from 
the 70's.  Muses have a tendency to be names after prog bands 
these days.