Subject: Re: [FFML] Choices: Dilemma, author notes
From: David Johnston
Date: 2/15/1999, 9:34 PM
To: Mike Noakes
CC: Fanfic ML <ffml@fanfic.com>

Mike Noakes wrote:

Choices: Dilemma
Author's Notes

     Considering it took me nearly two years to write this
chapter, I have surprising little to say.  I guess I should of just
tagged this on at the end of the fic itself.  Oh well.
     I won't offer excuses for the delay -- believe me, I had good
cause to put this story aside for nearly an entire year -- but the
length of time it took me obviously had its effect on my writing the
fic.  Most obviously, of course, the way one writes changes over a
two year period.  I like to think I'm better now than I was (though
that may just be wishful thinking), but at the very least it's going to
change the overall style and feel of the story.  I guess it gets kind of
fragmented, coming to it time and time again after three, four, six
month absences.
     Perhaps because of this, I'm not entirely pleased with the
way this chapter turned out.  There's redundancies, repetition, and
the same thing gets said more than once.  How often does Ranma
berate himself for hurting Akane?  How often does he dwell on his
guilt?  Looking at some of the earlier stuff I wrote, he sure seems
to whine a lot.  I guess in some ways he's quite OOC -- Ranma
rarely comes off as all that great of a thinker (although, in all
fairness, I think most people underrate both his intelligence and
awareness of what goes on around him).
     Writing Nodoka, Nabiki, and Ucchan was interesting -- and
difficult.  Never really tried using them before.  Hope they came off
as believable.
     Judging from the feedback I've received so far (from when I
dropped the first half of this on the FFML about eight months ago),
I've seen very little sympathy for Akane.  That's unfortunate, really,
and I guess that's a failing on my part in writing _Dilemma_.
Problem is that there are very few scenes given from Akane's POV,
so we never really get her opinion on what's happened; she's
denied the opportunity Ranma's had to sift through her feelings and
reveal her motivations. _I_ know what she's feeling, and I've tried
to leave little hints . . . but it's something I guess I'll have to
address for the final RAAC version.

Actually I think you are wrong.  The reason why Akane is getting little
sympathy from the reader is because she is getting all the sympathy from 
the characters in the story.  Ranma is getting all the blame and making 
all the apologies.  Nobody is standing up for him, except Kuno, sorta.  
(A mixed blessing at best.)  Akane isn't making any apologies, or even 
accepting Ranma's apology.  Even his parents are on Akane's side.  Now, 
that's pretty standard for Ranma, but it doesn't inspire a lot of 
sympathy for how hard-done-by Akane is in this story.  This isn't a 
story where Akane is unbelievably cruel or particularly unfeeling or 
totally to blame.  But she isn't getting any of the blame she deserves, 
even from Ranma or Hiroshi.  (We won't consider that scumbag, Daisuke, 
who deserves to die a slow and painful death).