Kaoru....
You son of a bitch.
				I trusted you.
							I thought you were my friend.
And you betrayed that trust.
											Why?
			Why did we have to be enemies?
					Why could only one of us survive?
And why did it have to be the humans?
		They are polluted with greed, avarice and self-righteousness.
	I'm so damn confused.
				Why did you say you loved me, then try and kill me?
You tried to kill all of humanity.
	I have to ask.
				Because I can do nothing else.
Despair and depression have consumed my soul.
								And soon, it will consume those I cared about.
		Kaoru.
	Why?
					Why didn't you tell me?
			Why did you deceive me?
								Why did you leave me no other choice?

									Father.
	Who are you?
				Once, I thought I knew you.
			But no more.
						What madness has consumed you?

			Misato.
		Kaoru was my friend.
					He said he loved me.
		My father does not.
I don't know if what Kaoru said was true.
								I don't know if I felt that way about him.
				But, why must I protect the heartless bastard while killing Kaoru?
			Yes, Kaoru betrayed me.
But hasn't my father betrayed me all the greater?

							Rei.
	Who are you?
				Are you my mother?
		Are you my enemy?
									Are you my destiny?
					Will you be my downfall?
Why do you hate yourself so much?
				Is it because my father won't let you go?
						Or is it that you do not want to be let loose?

			Asuka.
	Asuka, dear God, what did they do to you?
					Once so proud.
				So lovely.
		Now, you are too exhuasted to even pronounce a word.
									Your fire was extinguished.
The fire I wanted to protect.
				Asuka.
						I thought I loved you.
			But now, I'm not sure I can open my heart.
										Maybe I will never again love.

						Ritsuko.
	Even if you did keep me from knowing the truth for so long, I respected 
you.
			You struggled daily with the knowledge that what you kept from us.
					You even hurt Misato.
You kept her at a distance, while desperately wanting her in.
		I wish you had never met my father.
								You would have been so happy.

		Ryoji.
				I never knew you all that much.
At first, I thought you were an arrogant son of a bitch, who liked 
tormenting people.
	But now, I'm not so sure.
						You tried to answer my questions.
			Even though I never understood what the hell you were ever saying.
					Dammit.

	Maya.
			You were always so nice to me.

				Shigeru.
		You gave me that guitar lesson.

								Makoto.
	You were a great guy.
						You always snuck me and Misato some cash when we needed it.

		Why does it have to be like this?
								Why can I find no one who will not betray me?
	Why can't I find someone to love?
				Asuka.
		Rei.
						Misato.
			Ritsuko.
					Maya.
	Kaoru.
								Mother.
			Father.


						Dammit.

				GOD DAMMIT!

		Why do I have to be so damn lonely?

								Why can no one save me from my worst enemy?

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	Huh?, Prince of Depression and Lord of Shadow.


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