I don't know why I'm writting this now...

I would have expected that I would have wanted to do it sooner, get 
it out of my system that much quicker... but here it is.
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I come home to find mom and dad in tears.

They say that Shingo told them he was going out for a walk hours ago 
and one of the extension cords is missing from the garage.

We look.

Hours pass.

I remember one secluded spot of the park he always liked.

The tree he would always climb.

I go there and I see... I see...

In a strange way, as the tears still run down my face, I'm glad I was 
the one who found him instead of mom and dad.

More hours pass.

My friends come.

Mamo-chan comes.

The police come.

Questions are asked.

My friends try to smile though the tears.

Mamo-chan holds me close.

Over the next few days, I hear words like "Clinical Depression" and 
how his rejection by the military, he dreamed to be one of their 
numbers, was partialy to blame.

All I know is, I hope there's an afterlife.

Because, when I get there, I am going to beat him senseless for this, 
till the end of time.