This short fic takes place after manga #7 (the last one).  Kinda gloomy.
These characters are the creations of CLAMP.  I merly am borrowing them for this story so don't sue me or anything.  Spent all of my money on anime so ya won't get much.
This is my first fic, so be kind and send lots of pointers.
Enjoy!  ^_- 


Acceptance
by: naki-chan
A Tokyo Babylon fic

	Subaru awoke with a start and quickly sat up in his bed. His face was panicked and twisted in pain.
	
	�Not that dream again!' he shuddered.
	
	It was always the same dream he had when he slept, when he let his thoughts drift...  It haunted him.  It was always edging its way into his mind.  It wasn't a dream; no; it was real.  He had tried to forget... to erase that day when the world shattered around him.  When it all came crashing down and left him alone.  And that made it even more painful.  The betrayal and the emptiness was more than he could bear some days.
	Subaru inhaled sharply trying to suppress the tears that were coming.  He fell back onto his mattress, his hand resting on his forehead.
	
	�I promised myself no more tears.  I have to be strong.  I must be stronger.  God knows I've cried so much...  For Hokuto, I must become more powerful.  Seishirou will... God I don't deserve this.  No one deserves this...
	To think I thought the three of us were so happy.  I was so naive.  Hokuto knew better.  She wanted me to heal the world with my talents.  But she mainly wanted to see me happy.  That's probably why she let him get close to my heart. 
	 Did she think I could change him? ...  Maybe we were both naive.'

	As he thought that, an image of his twin sister, Hokuto, in his prayer uniform crucified to the cherry tree came to his mind.  Her eyes were so empty; where there once used to be a shimmer of wonder and amusement.  Blood trickled down the front of his uniform from the gash in her throat.

	"Noooo......." Subaru moaned.

	�How dare he smile.' he thought.  �One year together...  Things.. That's all we were, just things.  To be used and thrown away.  To think I actually fell for him.  It took me one year to finally return his advances, to accept the fact that I lo..ved ..him.  I went to that hospital to tell Seishirou that I loved him.  That I had accepted it.  I was so happy.  I was in love for the first time in my life.  I had let some one into my heart, besides Hokuto, and everything seemed to be just beginning.  I was even thinking how I might get my first real kiss.  I went in thinking I had everything to gain; and I lost it all.  It all slipped between my fingers and he just grinned.  Smiled as he destroyed everything I valued and cherished.  I was always gentle hearted, my major flaw,  I cared too much.  I cared more than myself, but no one was truly in my heart like Seishirou.  I thought he was something other than he turned out to be.  Nothing could ever, ever, hurt more.  Anything that!
 happens from now on will hardly even compare.
	So no more tears now.  I will dull my gentle heart.  It can't be hurt anymore, it's already broken.  Little pieces of pain for my memories and nothing else.
	Who needs to care anymore?  My world is gone so fuck it all.
	Who needs tears?  Who needs a heart?  Not me, not to do what I need to.  It's all gone, only one thing's left...
	Don't you worry about me Hokuto.
	Forgiveness, who needs that; I just want Revenge!'

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