Subject: Re: [FFML][short] "Words of a Failing Fanfic Writer"
From: "Mouse" <anime@mbay.net>
Date: 5/21/1998, 12:49 AM
To: ffml@fanfic.com

"Words of a Failing Fanfic Writer"
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Jonathan Ng

Even in the midst of chaos, I decide to write this...

To all fanfic writers, good and bad.

Thine essay of despair is a jewel shimmering in the darkness, thy writing 
lacketh nothing! ^_^

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I come up with an innovation once in a while, but it pales in 
comparison to some.  It would be like comparing god to man.  But 
I carry on.

'Tis a long and weary road that thou must travel when thou seekest the 
prize of inspiration, it is highly elusive! I have little yet I can do 
much, with practice comes experience and skill and talent and inspiration 
too ^_^

My experience is like a child's to the deep life experiences that many
others have.  What little experience I have is painfully obvious, but 
I carry on.

Thou must seek out experience with vigour! Many great and mighty men have 
written much of themselves, read their works!

I am impatient.  I can never invest too much time in something, because
my impatience will get the better of me.  But I carry on.

Time is a precious fleeting thing, use it wisely!

I am afraid the world will look at me in a prejudiced eye, and my 
writing will be cast off into the four winds, but I carry on.

How canst thou improve without practice? How canst thou be great without 
learning? How canst thou fly before walking?

My vocabulary is limited to the few thousand I carry inside my head, 
and what little slivers I glean from bumping across them.  My grammar
isn't perfect, and my style isn't anything to be proud of, but I carry
on.

Read more of Shakespeare and play scrabble ^_-

In the tornado of good fan fiction I become hopelessly lost.  The 
senses that enshroud me as I see the light and darkness portrayed
overwhelm me and threaten to smother me.  But I carry on.

Thou'rt not alone in mediocrity, seek out a willing friend to help thee!

My analysis is clumsy, obvious and not too compelling.  I am not able
to help others see what they cannot, no matter how hard I try.  But
I carry on.

Read the many stories which pass through the aether and discover how they 
are woven together!

I will never grasp a deep emotion of love, hatred and angst, because
I will never experience them deeply enough.  But I carry on.

I am small
Love makes me great
I am humble
Love makes me proud

I am comely
Love makes me handsome
I am poor
Love makes me rich

Love conquers all obstacles
Love mends all wounds
Love fulfils all dreams
Love ends all fears

Love is the pinnacle of life
Love is a pearl of great price
'Tis far better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
This I know, my love,
When I am with you.

My brother wrote this last year and gave it to his girlfriend ^_^
I kept it because I thought it was pretty and I didn't really understand 
love either.

I will carry on.  I carry on because I think that someday, I will
be able to write better, and that thought alone carries me.

Thou dost not truly believe, else thou wouldst not ache so with doubt!

I will carry on.

I will carry on.
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Jonathan Ng
jonathan@worldy.com

I shall be thy taskmaster! See that thou dost carry on! ^_-

"Blow, winds, and crack your cheeks!  Rage, blow!"  King Lear, III, ii, 1

"I am a man more sinned against than sinning." King Lear, III, ii, 62-63

"To be, or not to be, -- that is the question: --
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? -- To die, -- to sleep, --
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache, and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wisht.  To die, -- to sleep; --
To sleep! Perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub."

Hamlet, Act III, Scene I

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