"AN UNCERTAIN I LOVE YOU"
A PSME fanfic written by Emily Siazon
All characters are owned by Saki Hiwatari.
Okay, to make sure no one gets confused, I'm listing the present names
of the characters I'm using next to their past lives'.
Mokuren = Alice  Enju = Issei  Gyokuran = Jinpachi  Shusuran = Sakura    
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     "Well, put like that, I feel sorry for myself," Jinpachi muttered
as he stared off into the distance, doing his best to avoid his best
friend's gaze. "I don't get to see her now that we each have different 
home rooms."

     Issei froze and let out a sharp intake of breath. 

     Jinpachi never noticed, too wrapped up in his own problems. "I'm
worried that the friendship I've been trying to build might be 
destroyed if I let out my true feelings for Alice."

     "D-Do you mean Alice... or Mokuren?

     "They're one and the same, aren't they? I only know that I'm in
love, and I can't fight it."

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     "Idiot," Issei Nishikiori muttered to himself as he ran off.
Gyo... Jinpachi wasn't serious when he said he loves Mokuren, was he?

     He couldn't love her. Especially not then. 
 
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     Enju stood at the edge of a nearby grove of trees, content at 
just watching Gyokuran from a distance.

     They had stopped over one of the planets just outside of the 
Earth's solar system where she and the six scientist with her were 
getting last minutes supplies before they headed towards the moon 
base.

     They were on break now, so the two of them had decided to meet 
at the park, just like they used to at home after Gyokuran's 
girlfriend had left him for another.

     They had been close friends ever since she had gathered her 
courage and decided to comfort him.

     Gyokuran seemed to have sensed her presence because he looked up 
from his cup of coffee and stood up to greet her. "Hi."

     She smiled back at him and made her way towards him, shivering 
slightly due to the cold air marking the end of autumn.

     Enju was pleasantly surprised when he touched her arm before she
could sit down. The feeling of his big, warm hands clasping her small
ones filled her with this feeling like she was floating on air. For
the first time in her life, she understood what heaven must feel 
like.

     "Why don't we go for a walk?" Gyokuran asked with 
uncharacteristic shyness, trying to hide the blush rising up to his 
cheeks.

     Enju could only nod her head, her mind too flooded with emotions
to think of any other reply.

     After walking for a couple of minutes, Gyokuran noticed that his 
hand was still holding hers. He turned, if possible, a deeper shade 
of red and quickly dropped it, much to Enju's disappointment.

     It was the first time they had any sort of physical contact. She
had made sure not to take advantage of his wrecked state during the
brief timespan that they had known each other by just being his friend 
and nothing more.

     There were many night when she sat in her bed, wide awake, 
regretting her decision and eager to show him the love she felt ever 
since she had laid her eyes on him.

     But she wasn't that kind of girl. She was willing to wait for 
that day when he might someday realize that by himself.

     "So, are you ready to go the moon?" Gyokuran asked, interrupting 
her thoughts.

     "Mm-hm. I can't wait." 

     "Why did you decide to go? Shusuran told me that you were afraid 
of space travel because you were in an accident when you were..." his 
voice trailed off when he realized what he was saying. "I'm sorry. I 
didn't mean to pry on something personal."

     "Don't worry about it. That was a long time ago." She stopped 
to admired the snowflakes that had started to fall before continuing. 
"I came because I realized that I couldn't pass up such a fantastic 
opportunity." And because I wanted to be with you, she added 
silently.

     "I-I'm glad." 

     "Huh?"

     "That you decided to go," Gyokuran explained.

     "Really?"

     "Sure. Because now I have you by my side."

     Enju gulped audibly upon hearing this. What did he mean, by 
'have her by his side'?

     He couldn't be talking about _that_, could he?

     "W-What are you saying?"

     Gyokuran stood still. Enju didn't even realize that he was no
longer walking next to her until he started to speak.

     "I... I... That is..."

     She smiled up at her nervous companion, placing a comforting 
hand on his shoulder which seemed to have the opposite effect on him.

     "You don't have to say anything now," she whispered. "I can 
wait."

     His nervous demeanor quickly changed into a determined one. "No,
I have to tell you about this now." He held her hand again. This 
time, though, there was no trace of embarrassment on his face. 
"Sometime, during this past few weeks we've spent together, I... I've 
fallen in love with you."

     Enju looked down on the ground, at a loss for words.

     Gyokuran, worried that she hadn't moved for the past couple of
minutes decided to continue talking. "I'm not asking you to love me 
back. I'm sure a wonderful girl like you already has someone, but I
just thought that you had a right to know." Having said all he wanted
to say, he reluctantly let go of her hand and started to walk away.

     "Wait!"

     Gyokuran stopped in his tracks and turned around, surprise
written all over his face when Enju rushed into his arms.

     "D-Does this mean...?"

     She looked up at him, her eyes shining with happiness. "What do
you think?" she asked, right before she tilted her up for a kiss that
led to many more that night.

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     If what Jinpachi had said in the courtyard was true, then it 
meant that all he had believed in his past life was a lie.

     All his hopes and dream shattered. Broken beyond repair.

     Because the love they shared involved no real feelings besides 
his own.

     Issei shuddered while he ran the rest of the way home, although 
this time, it wasn't from the cold weather as was the case of that 
night so many years ago.

     He ignored it and kept running, wanting nothing more than to 
drive away the chill from his heart.

                              THE END
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AUTHORS NOTES: Okay, this definitely did _not_ turn out the way I 
planned it too. This is only my third PSME fic, so c&c would be
appreciated. 
Can anyone guess where I got the tittle from? It's an image song 
from another show.

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"I love you, I love you"          "I love you, I love you"
Yuube sasayaita bakari.           You just whispered it last night.
"I love you, I love you"          "I love you, I love you"
Nante futashika na kotoba.        How uncertain words are.