(NOTE:  It helps to see 'Tenchi TV episode 18:  No need for Ghosts' to
truly get this)

PM Productions Presents
A Phillip Masters Fanfic
Neverending Dream

     A Ghost.  A Spirit.  Whatever you may call it, it all comes down to
one thing.  I am dead.  Struck down at an early age by a foe I cannot
recall anymore.  Perhaps I once knew, or maybe I just pushed it from my
mind.  I don't really know, or particularly care.  A long time my ago my
life came to an end, and my dream began.
     I suppose the best way to describe me would be a Poltergeist, but
it's so impersonal.  I can create whatever I wish just by thinking of
it.  I can mold my environment to anything my heart desires.  Yet, I am
stuck here.  In this pit of a starship, forever lost umong the asteroids
of the Sargasso Sea.  The backwaters of the Universe.  Where no one will
ever know of me.  I suppose somewhere there is a record of this flight.
Somewhere I am included in a long list of those lost in the accident.
However, that is all that remains of me outside my domain.  Just a name
in a, most likely, forgotten computer. 
     Only once did a light shine for me.  A supernova in an otherwise
dreary existance.  One like, but also unlike, me came to this place.
Sasami.  It is such a beautiful name.  She was such a beautiful person.
So carefree and compassionate, with a streak of youth that couldn't be
denied.  I can't help but love her.  To worship her thoughts and her
memory.  Everything that she was is now part of me, and I love her for
that.  I hold a fond wish in my heart that someday we might meet again.
I realize that it is probably futile.  When she passes on, she will go
to a much nicer place.  While I will still be here.  It saddens me, and
I cling to her essense all the more to smother the pain.  The loneliness
and solitude.
     I hope someone else will come along and be my friend.  Someone for
me to play with, or just talk to.  New places and new experiences to
explore.  New ideas and amazing new adventures though the mind of
another.  To go with them to a realm they can only recall in their
dreams and fondest memories.  It is all I want to do, and all I feel I
am here for still.  So, why doesn't it happen?  Am I being punished, or
tested?  For what?  Why must I be stuck here?  Why can't I join the rest
of my people?  Whoever they are, or were?  
     'Why' is a very powerful query, not to be taken lightly.  It is
usually the hardest to answer, and the most difficult to comprehend.  I
suppose I should just stop asking, as it does no good anyway.  Yes, I
will stop asking.  I shall just accept what hand fate has dealt me, and
try not to fold.  Someone very important to Sasami and her friends once
said "Time is short, but we will live our lives to the fullest, I
promise.  That's all that really matters.".  If such a simple concept
can pertain to life, can it not pertain to  death as well?  Is there
really any difference?  For, all I know of life is in a dream.  And
death is the neverending dream.  I guess there really isn't a difference
after all.
END
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NOTE:  I realize the movie doesn't fall before this story in the
continuum.  Sue me.        

"I'm only holding back the rain.  So many raindrops, so many pains.  I
want to find my train someday.  As seasons go past the station." - Tokyo
Babylon OVA 1
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