At 01:32 PM 8/31/97 -0600, you wrote:

[snip]

	Twister, Timerunner.. all the rest of you.. sometimes the pain can
surpass the ability to handle it. I'd like to think that you'd agree with
me when I say that building a false identity on the net and then trying to
_become_ that identity may be somewhat sick... but it's still quite
healthy compared to what I was trying to do some nights ago.

	You take offence at Hitomi trying to live a lie, and trying to
make YOU believe IN that lie... yet suicide doesn't offend you? Somehow
suicide is more morally _right_ than what Hitomi tried?

ABSOLUTELY NOT! I just had a friend try to kill himself a week ago, first by
sleeping pill OD, then by slitting his wrist. They found him half-dead in a
pool of his own blood. And I may still be his friend, but if he tries that
selfish act again I will never forgive him for the pain he'd cause me and my
friends.

Same goes for you, Ed.

	I can't judge. Never really could. Which is why, I suppose, I've
kept the .38. It's dissasembled right now and can't be fired... but I'm
beginning to wonder if that was a mistake. 

It was not.

	Talk to you later.

	maybe.

	ed

Easy for you to say. We're the ones who have to deal with your suicide. For
you it's just BANG! and it's over.

Suicide is an alternative I probably could never consider, but that's
because of my little egocenticity that I'm here for a reason.

That's enough on this. I know I'm guilty of adding to this little thread of
ours, but like Demon Sword said, it's time to move on. I'm over my anger and
loss, what about you?

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