*yawns* Hello all,
like alot of the other lurkers here, I tend to just skim the subjects of the
posts on this ml. ^_^ Mmm.. and the 'why are we still here' thread kinda
caught my eye.. [lot's of backlog post reading ensued]
And after a few moments of thought.. reading.. thinking back to the 'good old
days'... I realised something. I'm not writing any fiction. :p {j/k}
No.. but what I'm saying, at the cost of your personal time.. gomen, but what
I realised was that this place.. this ml.. is like a pub. A tavern of sorts..
a place I used to hang out at, but the crowd's changed. Sure.. I wan't one of
the first one's here.. but I was here almost two years ago.. *sighs* things
are so different now. -_- Could almost make one cry, I think.
But I agree with Jeane.. people are growing.. their hobbies are growing too.
We have lives away from this place.. outside of this 'tavern'. And we come
back each day.. we feel the warmth and presence of those we know.. we
acknowledge the presence of those we don't.. and we ignore little changes
until they build up to a point where you ask.. 'how did that ever happen??'
Those of you who were on the fanfic mux, guess you all could have seen it. But
guess things changed there too. People on the #ranma! channel on the terratron
site.. things have changed so much there too.
*smiles* I could remember a day when a good deal of the people here frequented
the three.. oh well. Old memories and the future lies in the hands of the
young, ne? Just tears and thoughtful memories of better days for those who
grow old and tire of the constant change.. the constant erosion of who they
are. *sighs*
But I take too much of your time. And I only hope that I'm not unsubbed for
spamming. {like once a month ^^;;}
I really loved this place so long ago. Even when people's comments hurt my
feelings. But I feel like an outsider now.. and while it's snowing outside..
it's the chill of the heart that really makes me want to cry. It's the lack of
warmth in the presence of warmth that really truly hurts. Gomen. But that is
the truth to me. *sigh*
*glances at the door and the window.. outside it is snowing* And if I leave..
where do I go? Where do I go to listen to your stories.. stories told with
such enthusiasm. *Smiles* So I guess I'll stay.. until the moment this place
is torn down like some poor fast food place on the corner. I'll stay even
though the bartenders don't have the same faces.. even if the patrons like
different drinks and speak of strange and different things. I've grown used to
this place and just want to stay and warm my bones by the fireplace. Perhaps
hoping that people will once again gather around a fireplace again. *smiles*
Here and elsewhere.
*sighs, taking a deep breath* But thank you for listening to an old man's
ramblings.. what difference does it make, right? People change or move away..
we become different people from whom we once were. The old look to the past
and see the glory that once was. The new seek to find their futures in the
here and now. People like being who they are.. they're comfortable. But I'm
saying too much again. *smiles* And perhaps what I'm saying.. it doesn't mean
anything to anyone anymore. So here I end my speech.
Be good to one another.. and you're always welcomed by the fireplace if you
ever feel the need.
Wing.
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