< How many people out there have had someone tell them they were really good
< at something? Something like writing? I have. I have many many times. By
< teachers, by friends, by students. And guess what. They were all vicious
< lies.
  Heh... you too. I just get sloppy after a while. I try not to listen to the
praises of friends, because they are eitehr humoring you or *they* think you
really are great, but that's because you're their friends. I try not to
listen to the words of friends when it comes to praises. *sigh*
< Before I came to this list. I really thought I could write. I honestly
< thought I could do something well. But reading other people's works, I must
<say I really suck. I suppose this shouldn't be much of a surprise to me. I
< mean, I have also been told I'm a great actor, a great mathematician, a
< several other great things. But I knew they were all lies. Why not writing?
  Well, I was always scared to send out my stuff. I got flamed pretty badly
for the littlest mistakes and overlooks. To me, it's like, one mistake and
it's all over. But you shouldn't let the words of others get to you... ah...
I don't know. After this one flame, I was afraid to finish up my series. I
take comments harsh, but I try not to let it get to me. It's hard. 

< Why? I'll tell you why. Because I like to write. (I also like to act, but
< that's a another story.) Well, that's not true. I don't like to write. I
< like to create. I like to think. I like to make others laugh, to cry, and
< to throw-up.
   I like to create, I like to think, I like to write, but english, not being
my first language makes it hard. I think of this as a learning experiance. I
try to read the works of others, then put it to work in my own. I have bad
grammar. I know that, but english isn't my first language. It's hard...
english is the hardest language in teh world... I wish I could write as well
as some of my friends, or others... I try to put humor in my work, but... i
don't know...
 
< I wish I could write. God, do I wish I could write. But, I can't. And it's
< beyond me why I even try. It seems to me as though all the really good fics
< are always dark or depressing. I can't write dark and depressing fics. It's
< impossible for me too. I can never really be serious, and this is a REAL
< big problem for me. I have failed several classes because I could not write
< a serious paper. Looking at some of the lab reports I have turned in, it's
< amazing I passed physics. If I can't write a serious lab report, there is
< no way I can write a serious story.

 
< I dunno why I am posting this. I guess I just wanted to get it off my
< chest. I  really do hate myself. I have always hated myself. Do you people
< have any idea to be the person whom you hate the most. (Well, some of you
< I'm sure do.) Every time I look in the mirror, I look at my reflection with
< resentment. I wish I could be anyone else. Anybody but me. Aughs. It sucks.
 
 Here come's the mother of all sigs...

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 Dustin Goeller (Spiffy- That's my name. WHERE IT OUT! :-)
 e-mail:stinky@azstarnet.com <---- Send Flames Hear, Not To ML or Girlfriend.
 Web Page:Get real! Me make a web page?  Yea, whatever...
 
 				    For the two of you who can't read this,
   ---- ''  -----    __---     \  /  this is my first name written in
katakana.
   |  |        /       |         /   Why?  Cause I felt like wasting space!
   -- /       /\    -------     /    Maybe I should replace it with the
     /       /  \      |       /     kanji for bakamon.  But, I don't know
    /       /    \     |      /      if my mother would be too happy about
 				    that...
 
 "When you breathe, you inspire. When you do not breathe, you expire."
 			-A Student Blooper From 'Anguished English.'

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