How many people out there have had someone tell them they were really good
at something? Something like writing? I have. I have many many times. By
teachers, by friends, by students. And guess what. They were all vicious
lies.

Before I came to this list. I really thought I could write. I honestly
thought I could do something well. But reading other people's works, I must
say I really suck. I suppose this shouldn't be much of a surprise to me. I
mean, I have also been told I'm a great actor, a great mathematician, a
several other great things. But I knew they were all lies. Why not writing?

Why? I'll tell you why. Because I like to write. (I also like to act, but
that's a another story.) Well, that's not true. I don't like to write. I
like to create. I like to think. I like to make others laugh, to cry, and
to throw-up.

I wish I could write. God, do I wish I could write. But, I can't. And it's
beyond me why I even try. It seems to me as though all the really good fics
are always dark or depressing. I can't write dark and depressing fics. It's
impossible for me too. I can never really be serious, and this is a REAL
big problem for me. I have failed several classes because I could not write
a serious paper. Looking at some of the lab reports I have turned in, it's
amazing I passed physics. If I can't write a serious lab report, there is
no way I can write a serious story.

I dunno why I am posting this. I guess I just wanted to get it off my
chest. I  really do hate myself. I have always hated myself. Do you people
have any idea to be the person whom you hate the most. (Well, some of you
I'm sure do.) Every time I look in the mirror, I look at my reflection with
resentment. I wish I could be anyone else. Anybody but me. Aughs. It sucks.

Here come's the mother of all sigs...
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Dustin Goeller (Spiffy- That's my name. WHERE IT OUT! :-)
e-mail:stinky@azstarnet.com <---- Send Flames Hear, Not To ML or Girlfriend.
Web Page:Get real! Me make a web page?  Yea, whatever...

				    For the two of you who can't read this,
  ---- ''  -----    __---     \  /  this is my first name written in katakana.
  |  |        /       |         /   Why?  Cause I felt like wasting space!
  -- /       /\    -------     /    Maybe I should replace it with the
    /       /  \      |       /     kanji for bakamon.  But, I don't know
   /       /    \     |      /      if my mother would be too happy about
				    that...

"When you breathe, you inspire. When you do not breathe, you expire."
			-A Student Blooper From 'Anguished English.'
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