Bah- and y'all thought I was kidding when I mentioned a Satsuki/Lan fic...
don't ask me where it came from, but I must say that I really like Clover.
^_^ A bit thanks to Rika for the Alphas, and such...
Glass Dreams: By Monica Shin
"A dream?"
Satsuki glanced out at the Dreamscape, expecting to see one of the
dragons, probably the one their Kamui had brought in. The very thin
Dreamgazer, who seemed quite weak indeed- she had had an interesting time
trying to dig up things about him from the networks. It had been interesting
to note that non-entities were popping up with greater frequencies as the
promised day drew closer- that her power did not aid as she thought they
would. Still, at least she wasn't bored.
"A dream."
Another voice interrupted her musings, and Satsuki turned to see a
young man standing, looking to her through what looked like a wall of glass.
He was wearing a simple white shirt and black pants, and gave the impression
of spareness. He reached out and touched the glass, as did she. Absolutely
clear, and yet so thick that it was inconceivable that anything could cross
through it.
"Who are you?"
Satsuki asked the question idly, as the man didn't match any of
people in her files. He was no player in the great end... She frowned as her
mind stretched to reach Beast and found she couldn't. Now, that was odd- she
always had a link open to-
"Who are you?"
He smiled gently ask he asked his question. She stared back at him,
and sensed... strangeness. An indefinable aura of 'other'- he may not be one
of the dragons, but he could be a danger. She thought for a moment, and then
answered with more information, more truth than she usually would have.
"Satsuki. A Dragon of Earth."
He nodded, and answered her challenge with his answer. Slowly, he
knelt, and then reached one hand into his pocket. He pressed the card onto
the cool, slick glass and gazed at Satsuki quietly as she sat down to gaze
at the card with a clover drawn on it.
"Lan. A three leaf clover."
Then, Lan placed the card back into his pocket and gazed at her. She
looked back, both analyzing the small bit of information given. She wondered
what he saw- a girl with rather large glasses, hair tied back except for
bangs rebelliously lightened in color. Wearing a shirt, shorts, sneakers.
Finally, he asked a question in his light monotone.
"Satsuki, why are you in my dream?"
Satsuki looked around the Dreamscape, which had come to resemble a
clean, cold white square, with the glass separation running straight down
the diagonal. She frowned slightly, and then tried to link to beast again.
Finally, she gave up, and gazed into the other side of the cube.
"Lan, why are you in mine?"
He moved his hand in front of him for a moment, as if expecting to
touch something, move something. Finally, he too gave up, and answered her
in a slightly puzzled tone.
"Whose dream... I don't know. But I usually don't dream."
Satsuki nodded, and gazed at him intently. She tried to access the
files without Beast, but just couldn't remember if she had ever processed
any information about him. Finally, she gave a small sigh of frustration.
"What are you?"
Lan looked at her, and replied to her question in a mechanical
manner, his whole body stiff even in the comfortable position he was in,
sitting on the floor.
"Like you. Special. Different. A friend to machines."
Satsuki started a little, and then nodded.
"I am one of the seven, one of the fourteen. The one who holds the heart of
every electronic in my world. But not Kamui. Not the most special."
Satsuki wondered why she had said that. Something had almost
prompted her to... because she wasn't the most special, for all that she was
a dragon. For a moment, the glass reflected both of them as they would be in
real life- covered and connected to wires, cables, plastics and sensors.
"I am a clover, a magician. I am the best manipulator of computer-sorcery.
But not the four-leaf. Not the most special."
Lan closed his eyes and turned so that his head rested on the glass
which was not behind him. Disassociating himself from the brief reflection.
Remembering Suu, he sighed.
"Is not being the most special bad?"
Satsuki's question reverberated in the small, white room. Almost a
desperate cry, but without any power to the child saying it. Lan looked at
her, and remembered Suu, shining so brightly...
"No. As long as one person thinks you're the most special, it
doesn't matter."
Lan smiled as he said this, and around him the Dreamscape misted and
changed. Suddenly, another man was there, his arms folded around Lan. Lan
smiled up at the figment and then leaned his head back against the blond
man's chest.
"One person...?"
Satsuki looked at Lan, who smiled quietly out at her. Lan's hand
went up to entangle itself into the blonde's hair, and gazed up at his eyes.
Then, his eyes went back to meet Satsuki's through the glass.
"Do you have a 'special' person? A person who thinks you most
important for yourself?"
Satsuki was about to reply that her machines all thought her most
special. But somehow, as she looked at Lan, she couldn't say it. Did anyone
think Yatouji Satsuki the person- not the Dragon of Heaven with all the
powers that involved that appellation- did anyone think she was the most
important?
"I don't know."
Even as she said it, somehow, a stray memory crossed her mind. A
smiling face looking up at her as she was in Beast. She had focused a camera
on him rather obviously, but he ignored all of that, and had called out to
her in his light, cheery voice. To her, through all the wires and cables
surrounding her body, ignoring all of outside manifestations of her power...
"You have one."
Satsuki looked around as the space around her suddenly started to
mist. Finally, the fog cleared and an insubstantial being, face somehow
obscured, was standing next to her. A figure on the verge of being true.
"I-"
The figure knelt beside her, and put one hand onto her cheek. She
stared at the person for a moment, able to make out a bright smile and
well-tailored clothing. Finally, she glanced at Lan, who nodded.
"You have one, but you must acknowledge that person. Names are
especially important in a Dream."
Satsuki put a hand onto the slightly translucent hand on her cheek,
and then sighed. It felt warm, solid- and smelled of a certain scent that
seemed light, but insinuated deeper undertones into her senses...
"Yuuto."
Lan stood up as the glass barrier started to crack, raining down
small, sharp fragments onto the Dreamscape. As they were about to hit her,
the figure stood above her, shielding her body from any pain. She looked up
to see blue eyes smiling down on her, and then stood up herself.
"I have a gift."
Lan held out a hand, and upon it was a small, round pedestal.
Satsuki reached out and took it, and gasped as she saw a girl with butterfly
wings, who started to sing a haunting song. Then, gazing even more deeply,
she saw another girl inside the hologram, with a sadder, sweeter expression
and a voice that blended with the angel's.
[I only want your hapiness, knowing
I can never be yours to share it.]
Lan and his lover faded away from her view, and she was left with
the song, and her imagination's recreation of Yuuto. Gazing at him, she
allowed herself to feel for a moment all the frustration and longing that
she never even knew she had wanted to feel, all those times she's seen him
leave with Kanoe...
[A dream you cannot wake from
Happiness that can't be erased]
In a place without destiny, and time, Satsuki took Yuuto's hand into
hers and took off her glasses. With a small smile, she closed her eyes and
let her dream become compact, a small glass globe inside her heart. A secret
place where even Beast could not get into.
[I want happiness
I seek happiness
to cause your happiness]
Satsuki opened her eyes to the visor of Beast, and felt the machines
prod her for information. Around her mind, they all wanted to know why she
had not been linked to their networks for a moment during they night. She
patted Beast and told it to open up, and unlinked from the connections.
"Shh- I'm here now... Everyone, calm down. I'm not going to leave."
In her secret place, the barrier stayed up. The strongest barrier
against her machines, who could not comprehend the slick surface. The
weakest against the slightest hammer Yuuto may lay against her heart-
something that he would never do.
[so take me
to a true Elsewhere]
In her heart, the angel sang on. In her wishes, he sat within the
glass, cradling her in his arms.
---Finis---
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