This is Yuugo, for all who wonder... Oh, and very, very rough. C&C please,
or at least tell me if Yuugo seems too mature... ^_^

Brother: By Monica Shin

	I look at you, and you are smiling. Do you realize how surprising
that is? We have seen you look at me, at us, with love in your eyes, but
you were never happy... How is it that this _guy_ has made you so? You would
deny it, if I ever had the nerve to ask you... but I know what I see.

	I thought that Serika would die, when she realized along with me,
who you truly cared about, loved. Kouji has always been her idol, her 
dream. But do you realize that she loves you more? He is still her idol, but
he is also yours... She wouldn't touch him, now. 

	I don't know... but for some reason, I felt betrayed, when I saw...
It's embarassing- You and him. No- I have to admit it. It wasn't really him,
though I don't understand why. Why him? He's a known womanizer... there are
so many stories about him and women- if he was just using you...

	No. I know that he's not. He loves you so much... so brightly. Who
am I to deny you love? I- no, we- my sister and I, we have been the center
of your love for so long. Now, it seems like you're drifting away. There was
a time when you would be so concerned over our every day lives, when you 
would have known in a matter of a few days that I was interested in Miki, 
or that Serika was dating that boy.

	Now? Now you are so confused, but at the same time, so terrified.
Terrified because you are happy... terrified that it will go away, be
taken away from you again. Why is it that you are the one that must always
fear for everyone else? Why?

	You have always been my protector, trying to keep me from harm 
whenever you could. I have known that for so long, took if for granted for
so long, even felt a little smothered. But now that you are gone, I miss it.
Isn't it funny?

	I have grown to treasure these times you have left open for us. Just
the three of us, walking, talking. You, trying to keep in touch with our
lives... but now, it's harder. You have your own life now. A life so full
of pain, love, joy, anger... such power and energy. How could you have 
time left for us?

	We have tried to let you live your own life. We are old enough, 
Serika and I, so that we can manage without dominating your life, as we 
once did... Is this growing up?

	But that guy... Kouji. If he hurts you... if you don't want him
anymore... I swear that I'll get rid of him for you... I won't let him
hurt you. You've been hurt too much- too much. But I see in your eyes that
it won't ever happen. Somehow, you need him, as much as he needed you...

	He is the reason that you are smiling before us, as we walk in the
park, not us. Once, I would have been so jealous of that... I am, a little.
But I see that you need this happiness, this one joy that you have. Without
him, you wouldn't be complete- "Yuugo! What's wrong with you? We're going to 
go on without you if you keep stopping like this!" 

	My sister is far away, with my older brother. He is waving, smiling 
with my sister as they gesture for me to follow. I see the glint of a ring 
on his left hand. I wonder why he's wearing that... No, I won't wonder. 
Embarassment... as I look into his face, it doesn't seem so bad...

---Finis---


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MBoy, GWing, Esca, SDunk, RKenshin, FY, YYH, EVA, Zetsuai,
Fav. Charas- Akira, Ashura-ou, Hiei, Hiiro, Kenshin, Subaru
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