This one is terrible- i'm sorry, but I just had to write it, or else it
would bug me forever... Well, anyway, please C&C this one, or any of the
others. This is Eri, by the way. Oh, and if you missed the first few, it's
at my web page (addy in sig.file)

Lost: By Monica Shin

        I'm sorry... so sorry. But you're mine... mine. You sang for me,
only for me. I knew that you did... only for me. How could you betray me
like this? You knew how much I loved you... you had to. You are my heart, my
love... how could you stop? How could I not try to stop you?

        I saw you in my heart, singing your words of love, and knew that you
really didn't want to stop. Didn't want to stop singing to me, only to me.
Then, when you said those hated words, you started to fade away, leaving me
behind. You can't leave me! I won't let you...

        I struck out at you? Did I? I remember being furious, at whatever
monster had made you say those words, made you say that you would stop. I
couldn't believe you would say those things, if someone wasn't making you...
I lashed out, with something in my hand, and...

        Blood... blood. I saw it, running down your chest. I can't listen, I
can't see... It's impossible. How could you be hurt? You're Kouji... How
could I hurt you? I hurt... hurt you? No, no...

        I felt someone holding me, shouting at me. I can't hear anything,
see anything. I'm sorry, sorry... tell him. Where am I going? I don't
know... I can't see him anymore in my heart. How could he go away? Why did
he leave? 

        Someone else is talking to me. My wrists hurt... why? Why... why.
How could I do such a thing? Tell him... tell him I'm sorry. So sorry.
Please, someone. Listen to me, tell him how sorry...

        Hisaya? I feel your voice on my heart. You're here... good. You can
tell him. Tell him how sorry I am... tell him. Tell him I love him, that he
can't leave me... why did he leave me? Why are you here instead of him? You
are leaving me too?

        There is a dark mist around me. Can you hear me? I shout. Please
hear me... please. You heard. I can tell. Why are you still here, talking to
me? I want you to go and tell him... Please, tell him I didn't mean to... I
love him, only him. Hisaya... good. You're leaving. 

        I don't know why, but I feel your anger in your heart. Anger... at
me? It must be me... who else could he be angry at? It's my fault he got
hurt... forgive me, please. Just tell him... tell him. 

---Finis---

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Monica Shin--- monica@pipeline.com- Fav. Anime/Manga-
CLAMP stuffs- RGV, TB, X, MKR, CCD, 20 Menso, CCSakura,
MBoy, GWing, Esca, SDunk, RKenshin, FY, YYH, EVA, Zetsuai,
Fav. Charas- Akira, Ashura-ou, Hiei, Hiiro, Kenshin, Subaru
Visit my homepage! http://www.pipeline.com/~monica/