Ack... this one isn't so good. I can't seem to get a grasp on Shibuya... 
*sigh* oh, well.


Watcher: By Monica Shin

	I watch them, as they laugh together. Do they realize how different
they are now at home, when both open to the other? I am happy that they 
count me safe, to be able to act this way in front of me. I'm happy, and 
I'm sure my sister would be too.

	My sister's last wish was that Kouji sing, and somehow, he is 
still doing that. Except now, there is one difference. Before, he would 
sing to a dream he had. Now, he has a focus, a target. His love. Would 
she have thought that there was a difference? I think that he sings better 
for it.

	Would she be happy for him, and for his lover? I think that she 
would be, for him. I remember her as a kind girl, who would have wanted 
Kouji to be able to act like this, smile like that. For her sake, I have 
done all that I could to get them together.

	Would they be surprised if they knew how much time I had put in 
their life? Nothing blatant, of course, but... making sure Kouji wouldn't 
screw up too much at school alone, making sure that I was there for them 
to break the tension between them, to laugh with, or even just to be a 
supportive ear. They needed that too much.

	Laughter. That, I suppose, is my specialty. It's the way I am. I 
laugh, to cover up anything else that I may feel. It's a good way to cope 
when I see two people that I've come to care for just miss each other, or 
just miss destroying each other. I joke, and make others smile. Do they 
even think of me as anything else beside a joker?

	Am I just a joker? Maybe. I know that I can't seem to feel that 
passion that comes so easily to those two here with me. They love so 
fiercely, and hate so passionately. They're like the two brightest lights 
in my life, but I am afraid that they will burn out too quickly. What then, 
for me? What happens to the supportive friend, when no one needs him? Would
he just fade away, or try to become another light?

	I have a life without those two. But their need, so great, keeps 
pulling me in, keeping me beside them. They don't even realize the true 
power they have over me. That kind of feeling, that passion... when did I 
lose it? I suppose I seem normal to everyone, a bit too happy, a bit too 
ditzy. Is that me, or just a mask? Who knows?

	But... I am me. I have always been, and always will be a jokester. 
And for those two, I feel passion. They may not understand but they don't 
have to. For them and for my sister, I will protect their love. Joker, 
protector... I'll be both, and still have fun. Who else could tease Ko-chan, 
and Ta-chan, but me?

	"Watch out, Ko-chan! Make sure that Ta-chan over there doesn't die 
of food poisoning." is all I say, as Kouji gets up, ready to do some 
violence to me. I start edging away, still laughing, as Takuto joins him. 
They are happy, and therefore, so am I. 

---Finis---

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