Someone threatened to write a Zetsuai/Bronze 'fic- well, here's a (bad) fic
before her's comes out... Warning- nothing explicit, but obviously yaoi in
nature... oh yeah, and there is absolutely no plot whatsoever ^_^
Ramblings: By Monica Shin
Why do you chase me, with such fire in your eyes? You have your
groupies, women who would die to be with you, to sleep with you. So why do
you resist all the harsh words, the blows I land on your face, your body,
and keep following me?
I don't need you... I don't need your love. I don't believe in love,
not anymore. Ever since She killed him... and showed me what worth love
really had for both of them. I will protect my younger sibs, to shield them
from what I know, but I know the true worth of such love as in your eyes.
Then why? You know that what you feel for me is only lust... strange
as it is... I know you like women, not men, so why chase after me? You could
have anyone you want- don't go after me, with that lust in your eyes, that
breaks down all of my barriers, invites you in...
You're insane, and I'm insane for accepting you. You... how could
you do such a thing, to me, and then to her? I can at least understand why
you even tried to do what you did to me- Passion out of control... Lightning
flashing, pain, violence. I resist, and you hold me down, and shield me from
the glass flying at us... kiss me, bind me, and then accept all of me, with
your lips, with your touch... And then, miraculously, before all my walls
are down, you stop- you hear my cries, at myself, at Her, and him, and you
stop...
But then, I ran away... to her, a young innocent dreaming dreams of
a cute boyfriend. I used her as a shield so I wouldn't have to think about
your burning lips on my scar... your acceptance of me for all I was. She
meant nothing more to me than an umbrella against the rain- but what you
did... Why? How could you love me, want me that much, that you would do such
a thing to her? She was a sacrifical lamb, on your altar of obsession,
another way you showed your lust to me.
Still... I couldn't resist, even after I saw what you had done to
her, to me. I couldn't stop thinking of that night, your touch. Why do you
affect me the way you do? You are everything I am not... fire, passion- you
were willing to care. You held me while I cried as She abandoned me again,
and I couldn't help but accept your touch... your kiss...
Love... I don't need it... but you got under my walls so fast. I lie
in your embrace and I feel safe, at peace. You and I can't last... I know
that. How can we? But here, I feel like we can be like this forever... and
somehow, I don't mind. How did you do this to me? Take away my rage, at the
world, at Her, and make it into this sweeter, hotter emotion?
I see you now, your limbs entertwined with mine. I feel an urge to
snuggle closer, to feel your safety, your love. You made me able to love
another... to feel passion- Why do you love me? I don't know... but I am
content for now because you do... I want to... I want to hold you closer, to
give those hot kisses that you always give me. But not yet- I can't... but
someday, maybe I will grab you, like you grab me, and give back every kiss
that you have ever bestowed upon me.
"Good morning, Izumi." was all he said to me, as he gave me a small
kiss on my forehead. He looked down at me, love and joy in his eyes. His
eyes, so different looking at others than when he looked at me. I see him,
and all I know is his gaze. "Good morning, Kouji..." Then I get up, to
another day... life isn't so bad. Nights aren't so bad, either...
---Finis---
Monica/Akira-chan!
Oh, and if you want to talk Zetsuai/Bronze, join the YYH FFML- lots
of Noise, but also good stuff...
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Monica Shin--- monica@pipeline.com- Fav. Anime/Manga-
CLAMP stuffs- RGV, TB, X, MKR, CCD, 20 Menso, CCSakura,
MBoy, GWing, Esca, S.Dunk, RKenshin, FY, YYH, EVA, Zetsuai,
Fav. Charas- Akira, Hiiro, Subaru, Ashura-ou, Hiei, Kenshin
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