Subject: My Commentary on Thy Inward Love
From: MD Price
Date: 10/28/1996, 3:10 PM
To: fanfic@fanfic.com

On Mon, 28 Oct 1996, Caroline Ann Seawright wrote:                              
                                                                                
Well written and everything, but you wanted to talk about issues, ne?         
                                                                                
I completely agree that this story was very well written....                    
                                                                                
Somehow, I don't think it's possible for a person to change preferences       
just like that ... I would *never* go for a girl, even if I had the           
body of a guy ... It's not a thing you learn, nor a thing that someone        
can teach you ... It's just something that is ... Although some people        
change preferances, I don't think that it would happen like that.  

Alright. When I read these comments before reading "Thy Outward Love" I         
was completely prepared to disagree with it. I have an unusual point of         
view in life because I was raped about 3 years ago and I had a time where       
I was basically not into guys. The event itself changed my perspective,         
and I was willing to consider women as more than friends. I can equate          
Ranma's rejection by his family and fiancee, as well as the violent             
realization that he could never revert to being male, as equivalent, or         
even WORSE than what I went through, because -I- at least could eventually      
get on with things and return to normal, whereas Ranma would perpetually        
be stuck as a woman.                                                            
        However, upon deeper consideration of this, I realized that I DID       
revert back to how I was before (boy-crazy) and that my basic inner self        
came back out. I was never as homophobic as Ranma is ("I'm a GUY!!!")           
and, I think, I might have had inclinations (or at least curiousity)            
toward the same sex PRIOR to what happened to me... SO, it does not seem        
that strange that I would have let that other side of myself emerge during      
a time when I was in pain.

 That considered, what would Ranma do?                                   
        Ranma has had experiences in both forms (with Akane, Ukyou,             
Shampoo as a guy, and with Kuno as a girl), but I think that he really          
DOES react violently to the idea of homosexuality. For Ranma, no matter         
what form he is in, I think he will ALWAYS think of himself as a guy and        
like women (especially Akane.) Wheras -I- fell into the rejection of the        
opposite sex, I think -Ranma- would instead make himself more and more and      
more masculine to prove that he is a "guy" no matter how many years he has      
been stuck in his female form. I do, and I apologize to those who disagree      
with me, beleive that Ranma would commit sepakku (sp?) before he would          
enter into a PERMANENT relationship with a male. Why?                           
        He has been forcefully raised his whole life to be as masculine as      
possible; whereas I was encouraged to not make up my mind until I was           
sure.                                                                           
         I made up my mind, and I am ONLY into guys now, and I will stay        
that way, but I am almost positive that Ranma, although he                      
might experiment, would end up ONLY liking girls. I also don't think that  

Ranma would go from ultra-masculine dress to suddenly be wearing frilly         
sundresses. He wore those before in times of necessity, but he was always       
critical of them, and I just can't see him suddenly becoming                    
ultra-feminine. Even -I- am not ultra feminine, and I have always been a        
woman. I like dresses, occasionally, but basically I feel they are a            
nuisance because you can't go biking, hiking, etc. in them. For Ranma to        
make this sudden conversion would be psycologically astounding.                 
                                                                                
or however close she was to me ... It just seems really wrong for Ranma,      
too ... He HATES being thought of as a homosexual - and now he's just         
thrown himself into BEING one ...                                             
                                                                                
I agree at this point. And, after I attempted to try out an altered             
sexual view, I was probably just as violently dissuaded as Kun-chan feels       
that she would be. It wasn't the IDEA, it was just that it turned out not       
to be my thing, and I could never be like that. I thought I might, I was        
curious, but it didn't turn out and that's just the way it is.   


Now, I see that Richard is not saying that Ranma has DECIDED            
(although the dress is fairly indicative), and we don't see the results of        
the encounter. I can understand how this could be a story about Ranma           
testing out his sexuality, trying to decide whether he really can enter         
into a relationship with a man, because of his situation.                       
        HOWEVER, I really think that Ranma would freak. I have talked to        
several men about their experiences with homosexuality, and that                
curiousity can be very strong. Some end up liking it, others try and then       
decide that they NEVER want to do it again, others never even question          
that they like women and ONLY women. I think Ranma would have initally          
fallen into the "Never questioned that I am heterosexual" (and if he did        
have Kuno-dreams it was pushed off as horrible, or told himself that it         
was because of his "stupid curse"), and after his transformation he might       
(I doubt it but...) have decided that he needed to experiment with his          
sexuality BECAUSE he was now permanetly female on the exterior.                 
        Still, I think Ranma would have rejected it after experimentation.      
Ranma is still "I am a GUY!" Ranma, and even a physical change and
rejection by family/friends would probably not have changed that, although      
a different person might end up liking it.                                      
                                                                                
        People should take into consideration that this story was not           
written as a definite conclusion of how Ranma will react to his                 
"experimentation." We do not see the result of the experience. This is          
definitely a "what if" senario, and I have to disagree with Kun-chan's          
assertion that:                                                                 
                                                                                
So, basically, I think that the whole story is OOC... for the reactions       
of Akane and Genma, too ... It's just not something that they'd do,           
just as turning gay, just because he's locked into a girl body, isn't         
something that Ranma'd do ...                                                 
                                                                                
I think this WAS a realistic look at how things might have gone, if you         
interpreted the original story in a certain way. It is impossible to bring      
your own interpretation of the story as a gospel-requirement for other
people's stories. Also, Ranma has not become a homosexual, he has just          
experimented, as (though many would not admit it) many people have done.        
Ranma is a special case, especially given his/her current condition, and        
that would give him even more encoragment to try out the same sex.              
                                                                                
The only minor point that made me not "buy into" the story was that Ranma       
had suddenly become "super feminine" at the end. I think, even if he was        
going to experiment, that changing THAT nature of himself would be              
unlikely.                                                                       
                                                                                
As to the result of Ranma's experimentation...                                  
                                                                                
Richard has cleverly left that up to us. Kun-chan appears to believe that       
Ranma decided to become homosexual, whereas I think he probably would have      
rejected it. A good story is one where people come to conclusions like          
this, and that what it is to some, it isn't to others. 

That's my point of view, and I hope it isn't too convoluted.                    
                                                                                
marisa price