Subject: [FFML] [fic][GW] SNK- Mission Log: Gundam Shenlong 05
From: Quicksilver
Date: 12/15/2000, 11:47 PM
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I think I finally got the formatting on the right- let



me know if it isn't.



This is a sidestory to SnK- SnK is located here: 



http://www.method.org/gundam



If you want an html version, it's there, along with a

timeline, bios, and other stuff!   Also look at our

new ML- Stellar Soldiers- it's a group for ppl who

want to discuss themes of GW, and avoid the "fandom". 





It SHOULD be comprehensible without reading the main 

arc.  



Wufei does not appear in Act Two- this is in lieu of

that.





Gundam Wing is property of Sotsu Agency, Bandai 

Studios, and TV Asahi. Sainan no Kekka and all 

original characters and plot copyright 2000 by 

Quicksilver and Gerald Tarrant. Please ask 

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SHIN KIDOU SENKI GUNDAM WING 

SAINAN NO KEKKA

Mission Log: Gundam Shenlong 05 

BEGIN TRANSMISSION

DECRYPTION CODE 05

--CLASSIFIED-- 



Alpha: Alarm 



The blaring of the alarm jolted him out of 

slumber and through sleep-fogged eyes he 

could see Heero at the window, staring out at 

the snow covered plain. He sat up, running a 

hand through rumpled hair, senses and muscles 

alert.



"What is it?"



There was a pause in which he could feel both 

of them listening for something^�for gunfire, for 

laser fire, for the distant crash of cannon. There 

was nothing.



Heero shrugged. "Nothing," he said. 



"Go back to sleep." 



*



Bravo: Barton 



He'd only seen Trowa with the clown makeup 

once, which was when he'd walked into the 

Gundam pilot's room to see if he had any spare 

computer parts. He would have asked Heero, 

but Heero was gone on some mission or other, 

and Quatre and Duo were no good at 

computers.



There was a bang when he had knocked on the 

door, as if something had fallen over. He heard 

muffled cursing. Trowa, cursing? Trowa never 

cursed.



"Who is it?"



He blinked, frowning. "Wufei. Can I come in?"



The door opened a moment later, and he almost 

stepped backwards at the sight of the half-

human, half monster that stood before him. 

Then he realized it wasn't a monster, but only 

Trowa's face painted with circus makeup.



He didn't raise any eyebrow as Heero would 

have, didn't start asking questions as Duo would 

have, didn't express concern as Quatre would 

have. He simply walked into Trowa's small room, 

took the parts he needed, and left.



He supposed he should have asked to use the 

parts, but that would have meant an actual 

conversation. And he hadn't thought the other 

boy was up to answering detailed questions at 

the moment about how to install a hard drive or 

when Heero was coming back or why the clown 

makeup was streaked with what looked like 

tracks of tears. 



*



Charlie: Catalonia 



She met him coming out the spacedock door of 

the Peacemillion.



"Chang."



"Catalonia." He inclined his head. She smirked 

at him. If she hadn't been a woman, he would 

have almost considered her a worthy opponant. 



Almost.



"Where are you going?"



"It's no concern of yours," he said shortly, trying 

to shove past her to the briefing room.



"Oh, but it is." He wished she would wipe that 

smirk off her face. Her side had lost the war, she 

was being kept under constant electronic 

surveillance, and yet she had the nerve to smirk 

at him.



He didn't like that it bothered him. It made him 

feel like a coward.



Just as he was about to tell her off, she slipped 

to the side, motioning him forward.



"Have a nice day!" she called to him cheerfully.



He ground his teeth. 

*





Delta: Doll 



"Mobile Doll to starboard!"



"I see it!"



Two well-placed shots transformed the head of 

the doll to dust, and he eased his Gundam away 

from the exploding mess. Shrapnel flew past his 

windshield and he raised one arm of his 

machine in an attempt to ward off damage.



"05, you've got one on your tail."



"Damn it!"



"Stay on task, 05."



The doll paced him as he maneuvered and 

faked and then sent out a blast from the beam 

saber that cleaved the doll cleanly in half.



He stayed still as it exploded around him, 

surrounding him in a eternity of flame. 





*



Echo: Earth 



"It's beautiful, isn't it?"



"What?"



"Earth."



"No."



"Why don't you think so?"



"It's dying."



"Isn't it what you're fighting for?"



"No."



"Then what do you fight for^�?" 



*



Foxtrot: Family 



"I have a lot of sisters," Quatre said.



He looked sideways at the Sandrock Gundam 

pilot, sitting in the hard chair with his legs 

crossed, a cup of tea in his hands.



"Really." He wasn't in the mood for conversation.



"Yes." Quatre took a sip of his tea. "Twenty-nine, 

as a matter of fact."



He tried not to look shocked, but he wasn't 

nearly as good as hiding his feeling as Trowa 

and Heero were. Quatre saw, and smiled a little.



"Surprised, Wufei? Don't be. I never saw half of 

them for any significant amount of time. A lot of 

them the age difference between me and them 

was too great for me to ever even get to know 

them as people."



"So^�" his curiosity got the better of him. "Who 

were the sisters you talked to?"



"I talked to Jaffa. She's one of the older 

ones^�but I have a pretty good relationship with 

her. She knows who I am. What I'm doing. She's 

the only one in my family who approves me 

being here. Because she knows."



"I see," he said. The tea was beginning to look 

good. He'd had a long day.



Quatre noticed his look and held the tea cup out 

to him. "Have some."



It was so tempting. "No."



Stupid stubborn pride.



Quatre smiled again. "Then there was 

Reeshya^�she's the youngest, only a little older 

than me. My father's always been protective of 

her. She's the baby of the family, I suppose."



"What about you?"



The smile disappeared. "I'm male. I can't afford 

to be a baby."



"I see." Exhaustion won over the pride and he 

held out his hand. Quatre placed the tea cup into 

it.



"Sorry. I don't even know why I'm talking about

this."



He shrugged. "I don't mind. What else would we 

talk about? Killing people?"



Silence.



"That's what I thought." 



*



Golf: Gundam 



They all talked to their Gundams. He didn't know 

of anyone and had never known of anyone who 

talked to machines. His grandfather used to talk 

to his radio sometimes, but that was different. 



The radio talked back. A Gundam didn't.



But that didn't stop them from talking to them 

anyway.



It was common courtesy that if one walked into

the hangar and overheard a conversation 

between another pilot and his Gundam, one 

would leave and come back later.



That was just how they did things.



Sure, the Gundams never talked back, but 

maybe it was better that way. 



*



Hotel: Hell 



"Maxwell, do you believe in hell?"



The braided pilot looked at him quizzically from

where he sat on Shinigami's shoulder, polishing 

something. "Sure. Why shouldn't I?"



"Just wondering."



He scrounged among the tools in the toolbox, 

looking for a drill. There was the sound of feet 

dropping lightly onto the concrete floor, and a 

hand on his shoulder. He stiffened.



"What's up, Wufei?"



"Nothing is 'up,' Maxwell." He tried to move 

away from the other's hand, but Duo was 

stronger than he thought.



"Come on. Tell your buddy Duo about it. He's 

your pal!" A grinning face thrust into his. "You 

can tell Death anything!"



Normally he would have bit out some remark 

about Maxwell's intelligence or his Gundam's 

proportions, but today he was too tired. He 

simply stared Death in the face until its violet 

eyes blinked in confusion.



"Maxwell," he said. "Do me a favor?"



"Grow up." 



*



India: Independence 



"Independence for the colonies," the radio 

proclaimed. The announcer sounded even more 

excited than the last one had. "Independence 

for all colonists!"



Some patriotic music came on, and he slapped 

the machine off with some disgust, rolling onto 

his side and staring at the ceiling.



Independence.



He'd believed in it once, but he'd somehow 

stopped believing.



Maybe it was when his colony had died. 



*



Juliet: Jello 



There was a strange smell coming from the 

kitchen and he was almost afraid to go in. It was 

past midnight. What could possibly be going on?



"And then you add some water^�I think."



Quatre blinked. "Are you sure? The package 

doesn't say anything about that^�Wufei!"



"What the hell are you two doing up at this hour 

of the night?"



Duo grinned at him happily. "We're making jello!"





"What the hell is jello?"





The braided boy snickered. "Lighten up, Wufei! 

Jello is^�umm^�" He watched as Duo tried to 

find the words to describe the quivering mass of 

gelatin currently cooling on the counter. 



"Squishy stuff," the pilot finally finished, 

gesturing to the gelatin. "Want some?"



"Hell, no!"



"When you say hell, are you talking to me?"



He opened his mouth to respond and received a 

mouthful of^�something.



"MAXWELL!" 



*



Kilo: Khushrenada 



The sword point at his throat was mocking.



He could smell his own sweat rising off him in 

waves.



His opponent was smiling.



That was beautiful^�Wufei.



NO! 



*



Lima: Libra 



"That ship's huge!"



"Shut your mouth, 02," he commanded over the 

comm. "Let's do our job and get out of here."



The crackle of static on the comm cut him off. 

"Incoming transmission," Heero's dead voice 

sounded.



"Gundams, this is Battleship Libra. Retreat, and 

you will come to no harm. Advance, and you will 

be destroyed. I repeat: retreat and you will come 

to no harm. Advance at your own risk."



"At your own risk," Duo said. His voice held just 

a faint trace of mad glee. "I like that."



"Let's go," Heero said. "Unless^�anyone has 

any objections?"



Silence.



"I didn't think so."



Shinigami's pilot whooped over the speaker. 

"Libra, here we come! Prepare to be destroyed!"



"Shut up, 02!" Quatre's voice.



"Wow," Duo said. "OK 04, I get the point, I get 

the point." 



*



Mike: Merquise 



"The one they call the Lightning 

Baron^�Merquise. What do you think of him?"





"He might prove to be more dangerous than 

Khushrenada in the long run." Heero's cold eyes 

bored into his.



"Why do you say that?"



The other pilot shrugged. "Just a feeling I have. 

Like everything else."



He snorted.



"You don't believe me, do you?" Heero said 

calmly, popping the data card out of the slot on 

his laptop and sliding it back into the case.



"No. Hard to imagine you have feelings, Yuy."



"Concentrate on Merquise, Chang," came the 

response. "He's easier to figure out. Trust me."



"I believe you. That's the problem." 



*



November: Nataku 



I think of you at night, Nataku, when the moon is 

high and I am alone.



I like to think that you are watching me, 

sometimes. Just sometimes. Most of the time I 

am too ashamed of myself to even think that you 

would bother watching someone as cowardly 

and insignificant as me.



But it gets lonely. When it was lonely then you 

were always there to cheer me up, to throw out some

stupid or scathing remark that would catch 

my attention and bring me out of myself. That 

doesn't happen anymore. The others don't

know.



You were the only one I allowed to do that.



You really thought you were Nataku, didn't you? 

And I didn't believe you. Not even when you 

were fighting for me. I didn't believe.



If I had believed, would you still have died?



I think^�I think I could have loved you. In time. I 

think I would have tried harder if I had known 

that life was so short and chances weren't 

chances after all. Thinking back, I realized you 

tried too, as hard as anyone could have tried.



You were a true warrior, in body and in spirit and 

in truth. I vowed to fight for you, when you died, 

but really I'm not sure what I'm fighting for 

anymore. Maybe it's you. Maybe it's myself.



I miss you.



Nataku. 



*



Oscar: OZ 



Duo was sitting scrunched up in a chair, head 

turned to the window, when he walked into the 

room. At the sound of his footsteps, the other 

pilot stiffened, but didn^�t look around. The 

lighting was dim and he could barely see the 

back of Duo's head.



"What are you doing?" he said, not so much of a 

true query but just because that was something 

to ask. Because Duo wasn't talking, and there 

was something wrong about that. Duo was 

always talking.



"Nothing."



"Maxwell-"



"I read a book when I was little," the braided pilot 

said, still staring out the window. "It was called 

the Wizard of Oz. About this guy who was some 

all-powerful ruler of this country but all he really 

was was a freak pushing buttons on this giant 



machine. When he pushed levers, some steam 

would come out, and the country was scared. Of 

steam and levers."



He frowned. There was something in Duo's 

statement that rankled him, and he wasn't sure 

what it was.



"Are you trying to say we're scared of steam?"



He heard the mocking smile in the other's voice. 

"There you go again. Trying to be all noble and 

shit."



"Duo."



The boy turned then, wide blue eyes meeting 

his. "You know, Wufei," he said. "That's the first 

time you've ever called me by my name."



"What are you trying to say, Duo?"



Duo shrugged. "Steam, levers, gears, 

machines^�you figure it out yourself. If you can. 

I'm not sure I could."



In the violet eyes, he read a sudden despair. 

"Wufei^�I can't help but think^�maybe all we're 

fighting is steam and levers and stupid 

illusions^�and we can't seem to see through the 

clouds to find out." 



*



Poppa: Peacecraft 



They didn't look at all alike, he realized. The 

brother and the sister.



"So what are you doing after the war, Wufei?"



Relena was actually talking to him. He bit back a 

savage reply, choosing instead to ignore her.



"Wufei!"



He sighed. He had no time to make idle 

conversation with her. "Why don't you ask Yuy? 

You always seem to be doing that."



"Heero won't talk to me." She sounded pouty, 

like a child.



"I don't blame him," he said under his breath, 

getting up to leave.



"Wufei! Come back here!" 



*



Quebec: Quatre 



Trowa was sitting at his computer, feeding in the 

data from the last mission, and Quatre was 

watching him curiously. He knew the other boy 

felt the stare. Finally, the pilot sighed.



"What do you need, Quatre?"



"Just^�just wondering how you worked that 

database." The Arabian sounded embarrassed. 

"I've never been able to figure out the encryption 

script."



Three sets of eyes turned to him incredulously. 

"So how've you done it in the past?" Trowa 

demanded, rising from his chair.



Quatre gulped. "Um^�Heero's been typing it in 

for me."



Three pairs of eyes turned from the Arabian to 

the Japanese pilot, standing with arms crossed 

in a corner. Heero shrugged.



"Why not."



"So^�" Duo leaned forward in his chair. "Why're 

you asking now? Just ask Heero!"



"He's got to start figuring things out on his own," 

Heero said before Quatre could respond. "Just 

because I might not be here one day, and he'll 

have to enter his own data."



"Heero-"



Quatre reached out a hand, but the Wing 

Gundam pilot ignored it, standing there with his 

arms crossed and his eyes far away.



"It hurts," Quatre murmured, too quiet for Heero 

to hear. "It hurts, Heero^�" 



*



Romeo: Resistance 



He thought sometimes of that soldier that had 

died in the battle, bleeding over his hands, all for 

a cause.



Why did that soldier fight?



Why did that soldier die?



I'm not strong enough^�I'm not worthy of 

Nataku. I'm weak.



You're weak!



Yes, we are weak. But we fight^�because we 

believe.



Do you believe?



He didn't know if he believed.



Why did he fight?



And would he be willing to die? 



*



Sierra: Space 



If I had to fall in love I would fall in love with

space.



Except like everything else I have ever loved, it's 

dying.



I'm killing it.



/Ore no kokoro^�uchuu no naka^�/



/Wo hui sha ni. /



*



Tango: Tallgeese 



"Treize Khushrenada!"



The cry was a rip across the time and space 

continuum itself, as if the universe were 

shattering before his eyes as the other mobile 

suit approached, bearing on wings of destiny the 

man he had vowed to destroy.



"I'll kill you!"



Tallgeese was a beautiful meteor across the 

silver stars of space and it streaked towards him 

faster than a light ray, blinding him. Such a 

machine should never have been built. It was 

too beautiful, too beautiful for this destruction.



He was tired of killing beautiful things. 



*



Uniform: Unit 



"There are three units of mobile dolls altogether 

that Libra is capable of sending against us right 

now. You should have no problem with them. 

The real problem lies with Epyon and Libra's 

main cannon."



"So Merquise is there." Heero leaned over the 

table, cobalt eyes smoking.



"We don't know," Noin maintained, clicking the 

switch of the laser pointer. The briefing screen 

changed to a mobile doll schematic. He sat 

back, bored. Nothing he hadn't seen at least five 

times before. From the corner of his eye, he 

could see Duo falling asleep.



"Three units shouldn't be a problem," Quatre 

said thoughtfully.



"But Epyon^�"



Heero's words hung in the dark room. Three 

units and Epyon. He suddenly felt sorry for Noin.



"Noin? Are you^�" he took a deep breath. He 

was asking her - a woman - a direct question. 

Politely. Carefully. "Are you coming with us?"



What the hell had prompted him to ask 

something foolish like that?



She frowned at him, the pointer dropping away 

from the screen. "I was thinking about it." A 

siilence, in which he could see the other pilots 

staring at him. Except Duo, who was asleep.



"Would you like me to?"



Shit.



He had been afraid she would ask him that.



"Wufei?" Quatre.



He gripped the edge of the table. Five 

Gundams^�against three mobile doll units was 

more than enough^�but with a cannon and 

Epyon^�



He could see them dying.



He was tired of pretending.



He was tired of trying to be strong.



"Yes," he said quietly, looking at his hands. 



"Yes, I do." 



*



Victor: Vice Commander 



"Une wants me to be vice commander," Sally 

said, flinging herself onto the stool beside him at 

the empty bar. He shrugged, taking another sip 

of his tea. The bar was dark except for the single 

light that lit the area of the room around him with 

harsh white light.



"So?"



"So I don't want the responsibility!" she bit out. 

"Noin's a much more qualified soldier than I am. 

And she knows Merquise's tactics and how he 

fights. Why didn't Une ask her?"



He looked sideways at her. There were dark 

circles under her eyes and her braids were 

coming undone. She looked like she hadn't slept 

in days. The look she gave him was murderous, 

but he just continued looking at her, sipping his 

tea, without comment.



"What?" Sally finally demanded, when he didn't 

speak. "Stop staring at me!"



He slid off the stool with one fluid motion, 

finishing the last of the tea and placing the cup 

on the bar.



"Get some rest, Sally."



Ignoring her incredulous look, he turned and 

walked from the light into the shadows. 



*



Whiskey: War 



War.



I live for war. I have never lived for anything 

else.



Never.



If I did, I don't remember.



Don't make me remember.



I don't want to. 



*



X-ray: Xenophobia 



"Do I ever feel different to you?"



Quatre cocked his head. "What do you mean?"



"I'm Chinese," he said bluntly. The moment the 

words were out of his mouth he regretted it. 

They made him sound like a weak fool. "Do you 

think of me as different?"



The blonde boy looked confused. "Huh? 

Why^�why would I do that? Heero's Japanese, 

right? Does it matter?"



"Never mind."



"No, really, Wufei, tell me. Did I do something 

wrong? Did-"



"Forget it, Winner." He threw the chopsticks and 

bowl down on the table harder than was perhaps 

necessary. "Just forget it." 



*



Yankee: Yuy 



"Chang! Wufei, can you hear me?"



There were hands shaking him, but he couldn't 

seem to open his eyes. There was a metallic 

taste in his mouth and he knew it from 

somewhere, but he couldn't place it. A light was 

shining somewhere far off.



Was this what it was like to die?



"Chang!" A slap. "Wake up!"



He felt something force his mouth open and the 

metallic taste was gone in the wake of 

something cold and bitter. He gagged. 

Something thumped his back. Was he awake? 

He couldn't quite tell. Maybe this was some

psychedelic dream, and he was dead, after all.



"Wufei, you bastard."



There was no compassion in the voice. None at 

all. Only burning anger.



"If you die, I'll never forgive you!" 



*



Zulu: Zero 



It would be so easy to give himself over 

completely and just surrender and be gone, so 

easy. The electronic voice in his head called 

him, soothed him, crept up his numb senses and 

took him slowly little by little. It was pure torture 

and pain and ecstasy all at once.



Pure power.



I can give you anything^�I can give you 

everything. If you give me everything.



It was what he wanted. If he could just let 

go^�how long had he wanted to let go? Forever 

and ever he seemed, as he opened his eyes 

and saw the endless field of stars glittering on 

that faraway universe where he could go if he 

tried hard enough.



He would no longer be weak.



I can give you anything, it breathed.



Chang Wufei.



Anything.



He was falling. 



--CLASSIFIED--

ENCRYPTION CODE 05

END TRANSMISSION 



Notes: 

The first word of all the seciton titles, A-Z,

are the letters of the military phonetic alphabet. 

This alphabet is used in radio and data 

transmissions by the United States military. I 

would assume that the universe of Gundam W 

has something similiar. 



In section Sierra: Space

-Ore no kokoro...uchuu no naka. Japanese. My 

heart...in the universe.



Wo hui sha ni. Mandarin Chinese, Wufei's native 

language. I will kill you. 









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