Subject: [FFML] {DARK FIC}{PART 13}{The seven sins and virtues}
From: Matthew Maddocks
Date: 7/4/1999, 12:36 AM
To: ffml@fanfic.com

This is an ORIGINAL story which means it is a product of my twisted
mind.

STATEMENT: This story is in no way meant to be blasphemous, it's just a
story. I don't believe in any of the things in this story there just
plot things. I apologize to anyone who is offended by this religiously.

WARNING: This story contains murder, blood, sad and demonic themes.
That's why it's dark. Sorry, no rape.
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               Part 13 of, The seven sins and virtues........

�You have made a mistake! What�s your problem? Your using scourge you
idiot! Stop it right now!�
    I sighed mentally. My conscience was bothering me again. I was
surprised that sanity wasn�t also on my back. �They killed my children!
My son and daughter! I will never see their smiles again. I will never
hear their voices. This is not revenge, this is justice.� I knew justice
was only a mask worn by revenge. Justice doesn�t exist.
    �What of all the other people who will not see their children smile.
Their children laugh. What will their death being? Are you going to
stain your hands this time? Last time you avoided it. But will you now?�

    �I never avoided it! Every day I send men and woman to their death!
And for what? Freedom. Do I have to sacrifice my ideals to make the
true? How many more will die to see my
dream a reality? My hands are stained with all those who have fought for
me. And you ask me not to stain these already stained hands.�
    �I�ve tried my best but you will not listen. I only hope you will
make the right choice. You will regret this. Now go see the fruits of
your choices. Feel the pain of murder! I wash my hands of your act!�
Then the voice was gone.
    I was not insane for hearing voices, they all really existed, within
me. They fought to control me, to use me. But I will not be used! I will
stand against those who play me like a
puppet. They will not pull my strings and make me dance to their tune.
Damn everyone to hell!
    I felt Insanity�s grip getting harder. I had to regain control.
After almost a hundred years I still haven�t learned self-control. But
maybe I will learn the skill before it�s to late. But is it already too
late? Am I already falling into the darkness? Did the man in the shadows
warn me about this? Did he know so much? Maybe scourge is to evil to
use, I shouldn�t act on my anger. I should cancel it right away! And so
I ran to the throne room where Perdine lay.
    I walked through the same halls as always, the second time in an
hour. But it felt different walking now, it felt like I was moving
slower. Like a great weight was on me and I
struggled to move through all of this. A weight on my soul, I shouldn�t
have acted so recklessly. But I can mend this mistake now.
    As I entered the throne room I noticed that only Perdine was there.
It seems Sarah had left. �Perdine. Where�s Sarah?�
    Perdine spun around to look at me. Her gaze seemed to pierce my
heart from across the room. �She�s gone out with her friends. She said
if you showed up that she hopes you feel better and she�ll help you in
any way possible.�
    I nodded. �Good. But I came for something else. It�s about scourge.�

    Perdine�s eyes widened at the thought. Widened with anticipation as
well. �Ah, yes sir. You have come at the right moment to see scourge at
work. It is about to be fired.� As she
finished this she waved is hand and a giant screen appeared. The screen
was blank but suddenly turned into a picture of a city. People walking
up and down streets, cars driving by. Buildings stretching up to the
sky, the world really hadn�t changed all that much.
    I looked at Perdine in surprise and fear. In fear that I had
recently made the biggest mistake of my life. �What do you mean? You
mean it�s ready already?�
    Perdine nodded and pointed to the screen. I watched as there was a
slight noise which sounded like gears moving. And then I saw it, the end
of all my hopes and dreams.
    A rain of blood fell on the city. The blood blended in with the now
fire red sky. I watched as people died, their blood spilling everywhere.
Then that blood raising to the sky and
continuing to fall. Everyone was dying because of me. Why did I do this?
This was just like the vision I had so long ago. I thought it was over.
I thought that when Satan died, so did any chance of this happening. But
I caused the one thing I tried to stop. I�m a murderer. I�m guilty of
genocide. Will I ever find peace? No, never. I know I am to be damned
for all time. To live in eternal suffering and discontent.
    I was forced to hear the screams of pain, as flesh and bone was torn
and ripped. As blood was the thing seen most on the city. Everything was
a blood red. Billions, dead because of me. This was only one city. The
whole world must be screaming now, and I caused this. I caused this slow
death, I am no better then the seven sins. The only difference between
them and me is that I don�t enjoy this. I wish I never gave that order.
I wish that I was back home. That Sarah never left and I had a perfect
life. But fate is not so nice.
    Then the fire came. Dark, black fire. Straight from above, a fire
meant to destroy all who escaped the rain. I watched as it ripped across
the earth, leaving only a scar on the land in its
wake. Things burned and more screams were added to the symphony of
horror. A horror which would haunt me for the rest of my life. My blood
ran cold, I lost all feeling in my body. All I felt was self pity., I
was drowned in my own self pity. If only I could die now, but what of
Sarah? Dying would be selfish, leaving her here would be greedy. I would
hurt her so much if I died, so I should live. But is Sarah really a
strong enough lifeline? Will the cord snap and my life fall into
an abyss of anguish?
    I stepped back at the sounds and fell to my knees. My arms went limp
and fell straight to the floor. I tried to get up but couldn�t, my legs
were like rubber. But something moved my legs, moved them out of the
fort. No one stopped me as I left the place, in fear that I would kill
them. I had the look of a killer in my eyes, as I knew where the look
came from.
    As I walked through halls and around turns I knew what was
happening. Then a flash of light came and I was unconscience......
    I awoke in the place of darkness, a place I knew only to well. But
this time it felt darker, colder, more evil. It felt as though and evil
had tainted it, I knew what evil that was.
     Then a figure walked out from the shadows, it was Insanity. In his
right hand he held up the head of Sanity, watching the blood drip down
steadily. It was not the most pleasant thing to see, a face of terror,
stuck that way forever.
    I watched as Insanity threw the head at my feet and smiled. �I�m
sorry I never had a silver platter. But that�s not important, what�s
important is that you lose. Your mine now, that stunt with scourge
pushed you over the edge. Now surrender, or I might have to do something
to you. And if your hurt, it would be very unfortunate.�
    I looked at him with a questioning glance. �What would be the
problem with that? You want me gone anyway�s.� I was trying to distract
him as I charged up an energy bolt.
    �Well, I would kill you if I could but it would kill me. You�re
Ryan, the combination of all your parts. If you die, then we die. But
one of us can�t die. After were killed we regenerate. Too bad, I really
wish Sanity could die. You can�t live without us, but we can�t live
without you. It�s
quite fair.�
    I gave him a little grin, but it was totally false. I felt like I
was about to die. Everything was screwed up in my life, just like all
that time ago. I just wanted it all to end. All I wanted was for me and
Sarah to be left alone, that�s all.
    Then Insanity turned his back to me and began ranting. �But I can
let you live, if you become one with me. If we do, you will have all you
want. And I will have all I want, that�s fair. So what do you say? The
abyss of nothingness or life?�
    �Why do you need me so much? What�s so important about me? Wouldn�t
it be easier to just throw me to the abyss? So why do you want to become
one with me?�
    �I want to become one with you because if all parts of you combine
to become one then the greatest power will be unleashed. With this power
we can rule the world! Nothing can stand in our way! So don�t resist my
powers, join me? Why do you resist?�
    �I resist because I am no puppet to the darkness, no puppet to the
evils within me. I resist to be myself and not someone else. I will not
be controlled by a small part of me.�
    �But you are a puppet, a puppet of your feelings. We all control
you, me, sanity, hope, despair, guilt, kindness, love, spite, jealousy,
lust and conscience. There are many more people within you, they all
control you. They are you and you are but a seed created by them.  If
you join me, no one will use you as a puppet, you will find comfort in
the darkness. The darkness is cool and friendly while the light burns
you.�
    I then decided to release my energy bolt, not listening to what he
said. Insanity�s words were lies and carried little weight. The only
thing I cared about now was setting everything right, mending my
mistakes.
    I watched as the bolt of hope and despair headed towards Insanity.
The blast of purple light which blinded me. Then it hit its target,
exploding on contact. I hoped that this bolt would work a lot better
then the last shot I took on him.
    I saw the smoke clear and he wasn�t there, it worked. Then, before I
could think anything else, I felt cold steel by my neck. I looked up to
see someone who looked just like me in every
aspect except for his clothes. He wore a long red robe that had a long
hood which covered his face. The robe was much like the one Perdine
wore.
    I watched as he moved the side of the small knife he held in his
hand against my skin. He was taking great pleasure in this. Then I heard
the voice of Insanity. �What do you think of my friend, Sadist? He is
quite a evil man. He would like nothing better then to kill you, even if
it cost his own life. But I rule over all the evil parts of your body,
while Sanity rules over the good parts. Sadist follows my orders, the
only problem is that he�s a weak men. He�s the part of you which enjoys
seeing people suffer. But you don�t, and because of this he�s the
weakest part of you. But its time for you to go, and you�re under my
power. Now do as I tell puppet, and you
won�t die. But it�s not like you have a choice. Your mine!�
     As I left this world, I heard him laughing. Laughing that cold
laugh. I wish the man would shut up. then I entered the abyss of
blackness, where I would find no comfort.
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