Heres three, I'll post the new revised 4 tomarrow morning. Thanks to WW
for spellchecking my sig...
Matthew Trotter, Sky Marshal Bill says, "Throw another bug on the Bar-B!"
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Part Three: Absolute Zero
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A cat lies awake when it sleeps was she conscious of her own miseries
will the agony of her pain win her to enlightenment and set conscience free
do you really wanna know what's happening
do you really wanna know what's going on
hey girl you better please take a look around
explore your heart and find out for yourself
-Rancid
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It happened a long time ago. It wasn't really his fault. They fought
all the time back then. They wanted to grow up to be the best. He
promised he would be strong enough for her. She said he could be hers.
Back then there was no confusion about gender roles, it was the woman's
place to choose her mate. Not like now. With the men refusing women.
Except him. He never refused.
They had been out practicing balance. He had found a log that was
caught in the branches on another tree. He took her to see it. That was
how it started. She had climbed up and told him it wasn't even a
challenge. She used to always say things like that. Great grandmother
always told her that you couldn't let men become complacent. So he
climbed up. He told he fighting on the log would be good training for
the contest. She had to admit, that was probably true. It was good
training. She had gone back and practiced on the log after that. It was
just that on that day it probably wasn't a good idea.
It was hard to admit, especially after having been the best for so long,
but he had been better. It hadn't been anything for him to knock her
off. Even in the tournament she had chosen weapons to aid her balance.
It was almost humiliating to think back. She had just sat there and
cried. More out of humiliation than pain. And he had tried to comfort
her. That had hurt worse. Men weren't supposed to tell you they would
make it all better. They were inferior to women. They weren't supposed
to make it all better. That was what great grandmother always told her.
But he always made it all better. He promised he would never hit her.
He promised he would always be there. He promised he would always love
her. He promised he would never tell.
. ... .so many promises. He had never lied. He never hit her after that
day. He lost every fight they had after that. He never went away. He
was always there. He even followed her when she left. He never quit
loving her. Even after all her abuse. Even after the accident. Even
though she told him she didn't want him. The worst part was that he
never did tell. He could have used that to force her to marry him. But
he never did. He kept it inside. She hated him for it. She had spent
nights dreaming of the day he would beat her again. Of the day he would
tell of his right to marry her. He never did. He was a man of his
word. And she was too proud to loose.
Great grandmother was glad. She didn't like him. She saw him as weak,
and foolish. Anyone who would intentionally lose was weak to great
grandmother. She thought he was an invalid. She didn't care who's fault
it was. Only the strong could survive. She didn't know what true
strength was. She didn't know that he was keeping promises at the cost
of his happiness.
.. .. ..... . ... ..At the cost of his sight. It wasn't fair. She
never realized all the things he had done for her. Now she was alone,
and she might die without being able to tell him she was sorry... . .that...
that.. . .of how... the nights...of waiting. . ...if she could just see
him again...
It happened along time ago. In a home that was now further from the
heart than it could ever be in terms of geography. They were fighting
again. It was really a rather one sided fight. She was attacking, and
he was not being hit. At the time she hadn't realized what a feat of
skill that really was. She wasn't nearly the warrior she had thought
herself. His refusal to fight back infuriated her. He wasn't going to
get away with this. She was determined to make him take the fight
seriously. She had been stupid then. Though the more she thought about
it the more she realized that she had been stupid for quite some time
after that too.
Shampoo decided to shake the log by jumping up and down, let him try to
balance on that. The log bounced up and down and Mousse kept his
balance. Watching him was like watching a panther. He that kind of sleek
gracefulness. Shampoo decided to see what he would do if she tried her
favorite sucker trap. Mousse was forever falling for the helpless maiden
trick. Shampoo rushed halfway down the log as it made its downward
swing. She intended to pretend to loose her balance and attack Mousse
when he got close. It was perfect. That was when the branch snapped.
It had been supporting the log and both of them without much trouble, but
the added strain of her bouncing the log had been too much. Shampoo
watched the world start to twist. She realized that the log would
probably fall on her. Then again, it was her fault.
Mousse moved faster that she'd ever seen him move before. One minute he
had the same look of fear that she imagined was on her face, the next he
was tearing across the log. When he reached her they were falling. He
threw his arms around her and twisted her under him. Ever through her
fear she felt a certain thrill. She had been waiting for the day Mousse
would make an advance. Now to be in his arms...it was all . . ..
She had landed on her back. It hurt like hell. When she finally came to
Mousse was laying on top of her. He was still out. The log was laying
off to the left. Shampoo gently rolled Mousse off of her. There was
something wrong. He didn't look right. Shampoo stood up and looked down
at him. His left shoulder wasn't even with his right, and his arm was
bent at an angle that looked all wrong. He didn't respond when she
gently shook him...his head just lolled back and forth.
It hurt to remember that day...she had run back to the village. Great
grandmother and some of the village men had come. Soh Lon, Mousse's master
told them what had probably happened. Mousse had landed on his hands and
knees. When the log landed on his back it had dislocated his left
shoulder and broken his arm when it rolled off. He had probably saved
her from having a broken back, or worse.
That wasn't the worst part. Mousse had recovered from the shoulder and
arm...but when he kept walking into walls and talking to animals, it
became apparent that the log had probably hit him on the head. Soh Lon
petitioned the council to let him take Mousse to a city to get him
checked. In the end he won, though great grandmother had fought it the
whole way.
The glasses only made things worse. If he wore them they made fun of him
for being an invalid. If he didn't wear them he would mistake inanimate
objects for people. She hated herself for what had happened to him. But
that wasn't the worst part.
One day Mousse told her that he didn't care if everyone thought he was an
invalid. He said that he wouldn't let her marry someone who was an
invalid. That was why he never wore the glasses. It hurt to hear him
say that. It wasn't even pride that made him do without his eyesight.
It was her. She meant more to him than his own pride. That hurt, but
that wasn't the worst part.
She was embarrassed that he couldn't see. She would leave him talking to
animals and laugh at him behind his back. She was glad when she left to
kill Ranma. It meant she wouldn't have to be embarrassed by Mousse any
more. And when Ranma turned out to be a boy it meant she couldn't marry
Mousse. It had all been perfect. That was the worst part. She had
betrayed him. That was what hurt the most.
And even after all of that, he still wanted to be near her. To be her
friend...even her husband. It was probably better for him if she did die
out in the cold. At least he would be free to look for someone who might
care about him. She only wished that the crazy girl didn't have to die
with her.
The world lurched. She tried to open her eyes, but they were stuck. The
world began move in a rather unbalanced way. It had to be the crazy
girl trying to walk again...maybe there was still hope...the wind howled
around them, and the crazy girl stumbled. There was no collision, so
Shampoo guessed the crazy girl was still on her feet...
A voice came out of the wind. It was calling to them. There was a
sensation of falling, then it stopped. There was no impact. The voice
came again. This time very close. It was full of fear. She could hear
the voice trembling. It sounded vaguely familiar. It was when the voice
started screaming Ranma's name that she recognized it. It was the lost
boy who was always attacking Ranma. They were dead.